love is never as easy as it seems...

2010-07-07T22:55:00.006+08:00

After 5 months... blog seems dead and forsaken.
Forgotten and cast aside.

It took me a lot of courage before I could write this post.
I can't understand why. I just do not feel like facing my feelings.

Pressure under attachment ... the unspoken stress....
I realize as we grow older we seems to drift apart more from our families and more towards our friends.
Now, under attachment it seems like there is even less true friends or people whom you can share your feelings with.

Undeniable, the loneliness is always present.
Nonetheless, I had posted some pictures (above) taken during my stay at DBS so far.

Does happy ending exist???

The story.......

The UNSPOKEN #1

There she was... stuck in a dilemma. She could only gaze at him from afar.
Though their hearts met but they were not meant to be.
After searching for what seems so long with the many years of waiting for Mr. Right

SHE found HIM.
The ONE.

Sense of humour that can make her laugh.
Gentlemanliness that she was searching for.
Met all the attributes that she looked for.
Characters click
Hobbies match

only that... HE was 16 years older...

He might not be perfect. But that doesn't matter to her.
What she found most valuable is that they can click intellectually.

Soon after they met... their hearts linked.
For what seems that could lead to the ideal marriage she had been waiting, for the past 10 years... it was like a dream that came true for her.
Her hard work paid off.

But that was only what she thought.
Never did she expect what reality had in-store for her....

2010-02-15T21:22:00.002+08:00

Maybe it was a mistake right from the start. Is it?

Typed a whole lot just to delete it all. Don't want to make it such that I am trying to announce it to the world. Now i just dunno how to face you. It has become a problem that is bugging me at one of the crucial time. Your friend really knows how to choose time to sms.

Not trying to say it was his fault.He just made it such that I dunno how to face you and that from now things will never be the same.

and to lose you as a very good friend even.
Is that going to be the ending?

2010-02-08T01:50:00.002+08:00

It'a hard, it's tiring, it's time consuming and it's dark.
Can you feel my fear?
Out of a sudden I i felt afraid. This kind of emptiness and with no one companion fears me.
Psychology is really SHIT! Not becoz of the module but becoz it ate into my study week.
Class in Thurs. 1-5. Can you imagine that!
ALL my notes have yet to be written and here I am rushing for the project and presentation, wasting my time.

SO MUCH MORE TO DO!!!! :(
Lagged behind alot and wasted too much time.
besides that, exam period always bring me pimples :( with the stress.

Addicted on shopping too heh. Wasted way too much than original budget.
HIAS. I need ice cream now :(
But at this hour... forget it.
Mac hotcakes tml. Shall anticpate :)

Just yet to find the cover of the seashell.

2010-01-27T00:21:00.003+08:00

IT BURN-ed A HOLE IN MY POCKET:(

Projects and Projects. There seem to be no end to it.
Ended BCOMM @ 1pm headed down to raffles link to get the box for CFAS @ 2pm.
The jam was irritating and when we finally found it and got to the printing shop, it was already 4.40pm sharp.
Saw kelvin's group there.
Total was like $150 inclusive of everything [ box, manual... ] :(
Lucky we ask for discount :P . The cards originally cost $91 and we paid $63 for it i think.
I forked out $30 bucks, shun hiang $20 and GY $15 for items at Prints.
First time I saw a wrapping paper that cost $4.30 :x

When we finished everything, we went to meet Shun hiang friend to do fliming for SOCIAL PSYCHOLOGY.

Bcomm next assigment totally !!!!! :(
E PORTFOLIO.
Social psychology presentation on thurs
Bcomm executive summary on friday
CFAS presentaion on next monday
Bcomm presentation on next tue/wed
and NO TIME FOR MY NOTES LIAO :(

can i have more time? or should i just stop daydreaming so much?

2010-01-20T21:15:00.003+08:00

It's amazing what you can accomplish if you do not care who gets the credit.
- Harry S. Truman 33rd US president

My table topic yesterday. It seems like god is trying to tell me smth, wants me to understand certain things.

But it's too hard. I'm really tired. REALLY i mean it.
Independent. A stand-alone figure.
Really feel like collasping.
Don't feel like putting on that mask.
Don't feel like acting strong in front of others, to act like i can.
Don't feel like acting happy and all smiley when its so depressing, infuriating and tiring inside.
Don't feel like lying to say I can do it.
Don't feel like being nice.
But i just can't do it all.

Sometimes it's not a matter of who gets the credit... its just simply no effort was given.
Just waiting for others to do everything

received a call from Ms. Michelle Lim.
Meeting on FRIDAY. JUST GREAT huh.
I don't feel like going thru all the troubles. ALL THE EXTRA TROUBLES that others don't get.
Why?
It seems like life is always full of obstacles and just too many as compared to others and especially in meeting all kinds of werid ppl.
Maybe I just don't have the fate to meet nice people.

Don't want to be pessimistic but i just cant help feeling that way.
It's all bloated and contained in me.
Nowhere to vent it out. Too much to say.

At times it doesnt matter how much you do, if you know others care.
A word of thanks for recognition.
A word of concern to see how is the work coming along.
Coz when you know at least someone cares and knows that you really put in that effort... then no matter how much you have done... how late you stayed up till... how long you spent on it... itwould not matter any more because you're recognized.

and now i wonder.. how did i even end up here.
here at where I am now. in this situation.

2010-01-18T16:55:00.002+08:00

Was it just me?
Or am i being over paranoid?

It's really hurting. I cant feel the warmth. Maybe I am just too irritated with sch work and all the stress.
I know i was being mean to say those things but the truth is you just don't understand the REAL me. At least that's how i believe it. coz i cant feel it.
Sorry. to myself to everyone.
My mood is definitely getting worse.

It's hard when no one understands you deep down and you get misunderstood,
but its even harder when you have to put up a strong front and a facade.

2010-01-18T11:15:00.006+08:00

SPent my weekend over at my aunt hse. REALLY LOVE IT.
The place where i was pampered, place of my own... can emo ... can slp anytime and a place to get away from almost everything.

Reposting last wed post.
No personal grudes.. just to erm... make my blog ehhh more 'shun yan'??? hahs
=X hmmm . with the help of ehhh.... the photos are developed. Some are removed.

13th JAN '09
JUst reached home a moment ago. Stayed till OUR SPACE closes.
CM -.- HIAS. It's killing me with all that work load.
I was blithely going crazy. I did peek-a-boo randomly to guanyu during project.
I did all sorts of stupid rubbish, silly actions. HAHAHS
But coz of that and thanks to me. These photos were developed.

Hahahs. That's it. I stutter during Bcomm Table topic presentation.

SHIT la. I know i shouldn't, but i dunno why.

Hope it would be better next tues.

Anyway cant deny her english is good but her actions are really hilarious.

Finally i knew the underlaying story. WHY SHE DIDN LIKE HER.

hmmm what can i say?

just stop being so serious. sometimes it might piss ppl off you know:)

your laughter is ringing in my head.

& I dunno why.

2010-01-15T22:57:00.003+08:00

When you can't scream, can't shout, can't scold, you can only break down and cry.

Some times i just wonder if i am too easy to be bullied. Am i being too helpful? Trying to act cool?
Trying to do everything by myself?

Projects just blew my whole mood off today. was suppose to meet yvonne @ 7pm then go over to aunt hse in the night. But with the situation i was in... i could just spoil her day too.
TODAY WAS TOTALLY A SHIT DAY.
dun feel like elaborating.

Reached home @ 4pm. didn really talk to my parents due to the mood i was in.
I know they meant well but there was some slight friction and i went stright to sleep.
Mood swings, projects, sch life... its messing me up.
It just get so tiring yet no where to go to.. no one to lean on and no one understands.
what you can do is cry.

Really feel like going for a endless run. Tire myself out.

This lonely route seems to take forever to reach the ending and as it gets going... it just gets tougher.

2010-01-13T22:48:00.006+08:00

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2010-01-12T21:17:00.002+08:00

SUPER tired. Just finished dinner. WAITING TIME FOR BUS IS LIKE UBER LONGggggg.
154 was full. Then 52 doesn't come:( till the 2nd 154 came. I alrdy waited for 25 mins:(

Stared at the com trying to come up with the spread sheet the whole of ytd night and the co. is SUPER power. All their info is jumbled up. I wonder who the auditors are.
Finally finish the ratios and the spread sheet and this is not my work. I am like doing X2. But owells:) I'm nice. hee.

Okays this para is for her? about her? She reads my blog. Does she?
Okays. She's not that bad. Quite a nice gal i would say. (Just took me and GY to realise today)
IF only she's not so irritating. Maybe that word is too harsh but i cant find any substitude coz it just doesn't fit then.
It's like:
me: did you do qn__?
she: coz i .... you know i tried...
me: no... i just want to know yes or no.
she: but you see. coz i.....
me: okays! so where's that half? or portion???
she: cuz you see....

Totally not answering the qn. I am not trying to be mean or what. Just want to know if she had done it. If no its alright. coz i just want to see what are the possible ans.
But the way you ans gets ON MY NERVE. :(
Not just me. Guan yu too.. hahas.
But oh wells. you are quite nice in terms of character?. Maybe? or was it just today??? It just took a LONGER time for us to start realizing.
QUit that habit ? just a suggestion :)

Anyway.. tml is my turn for table topic. VERY WORRIED.afraid that all the "erms" and "arrr" will come out.
some of the topics today are rather difficult and it really worries me.
WHAT IF I STUNN THERE? WHAT IF I KEEP REPEATING?
and my bad habit of WHAT IFs start to surface again :(

Will leave CM for tml. dun wish to interrupt my mood with the CM project.
Pray hard for tml.

Till then... i believe.

2010-01-11T18:30:00.002+08:00

CM project. Treasury Project:(
Group mates are not cooperating and loads of excuses.
Sometimes is just so hard to believe.
JUST DUN LIE TO ME.
Never do. Just say. State the REAL REASON and NOT EXCUSE. no reason then go and do it!
Its not as if I'm unreasonable or what. I too will tend to be lazy and all.
I dun mind doing more but dun try to come to me without putting in any effort.
It piss ppl off.
Just just DUN LIE TO ME.

Friday is the due date for CM and next friday for TR.
The rates and the news are whole lot to cover.
Rushing with the time.
NOTES yet to be written and so many many things to settle.

I dun need you to be perfect, just need you to be there for me.
Yet you are nowhere in sight.

2010-01-10T01:02:00.003+08:00

WAS REALLY TIRED yesterday.
It's not all the talking that made me very tired. It's all the late nights and the empty-ness in me.

Slept @ 9.30pm. Can you believe that?
Open house was so-so. Good cca points though:)
Got the papers to do also:) haven start and dunno how long I will take.

Realise I really got a whole lot to do.
My temper started to flare today. At someone. I dunno. Maybe i shouldn't.
I know i should not. Promise SH you see. BUT it's just so ____ that GY also blew her top off at @ her at the atrium.

I got my doraemon-goat. SOooo cuteee:)
and what comes after that is an escape from death. I MEAN IT.
Almost got bang down by a car.
Walking out from KAP, crossing the small road towards the KAP condo... coz of SOME VERY STUPID REASON i wasn't looking at the way the car was approaching.
It came from my left and GY was standing to my left and she was looking to her left, and i happily cross the road.
"PORRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!" Got a shock.
Not the first time though:(
Can't seem to correct this.

The emptiness is still present.
& maybe I shall just wait for my Ben&Jerry.

2010-01-06T22:41:00.001+08:00

PPL come and go. What is left are the precious memories:)

I LOOK SO UNGLAM. but nvm:) hahas. WAS SO FUN AND CRAZY at that point in time:D
- this pic makes me laugh. no idea WHY.

Hehe.

SEE!!! MY CUP IS THERE TOOooooo...

Haha. this was a just 2/3 days after I cut my fringe. :L
Got QQ and Shun Hiang to gym tml b4 IS with me.
COUGH is stil as bad and seems to be taking YEARS to recover :X
BUT I
haven been working out ever since the week b4 CT.
THAT'S like VERY LONG AND I FEEL SO GUILTY FOR ALL THE FOOD I EAT.
FAT. UBER. SUPER. DUPER. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXL FAT FAT FAT and like so FAT :(

This sem is very fast and I feel the rush. The motivation.
Oh and i was just looking at the Adidas Sundown.
Dun think can make it for my goal of 21k. Sounds so great yet I'm so WEAK.
-.- decided to join the womens 10k instead. Since i haven join any 10k b4:)
Pulled Yvonne and Raechel to join me:) MY Aerobics loves hehe.
$45 bucks for EARLY BIRD. It's eating a hole in my pocket.
:(
What to do? ANY LATER AND IT WILL BE $55. !!!!!!
Half marathon cost a $60

Niways. Tml first IS lesson:) Social Psychology.
& JIAYOUs to my notes. QUICK.
get it pumping!!!!:)

probably its better this way.
& it doesn't matter anymore whether its there,in its place.
I'll let go before I fall.

2010-01-05T19:28:00.002+08:00

Speechless.

I lost the A3 envelope that I just bought today. what to do?
Careless me.
I need 1 but its sold in sets of 5. 5 for $2.6. So i got one pack.
Then i went for Treasury class. PLace my envelope under the table.
Then after tut was the Open house briefing which was held in my classroom.
Then i change seats cause the crowd was gathering at the back of the class where i sat and i was like sitting in the middle of no where.

Happily went off later forgeting about my envelope. :(
When i rmb-ed. It was ard 6pm.
Went back and luckily I met Jonathan Chan. Kindly opened the door for me.
BUT IT WASN"T there!!!
:'(

Then I noticed, RObin called. Return the call and he said I TOOK THE ENVELOPE & placed it back. coz i'm not sure if it was yours. :(

DUn feel like spending the $ to buy again.

Another FUNNY thing.
Went to Canteen 3 with Kiewu, RObin, Guan YU and Raechel. ONly ME who ate prata after being psycho-ed by Robin.

Ordered 2 egg. Their prata is huge!!!!!
Then i happily started on the egg prata on the top.
Accidently poke the one on the bottom. Yellowish. Thought the egg wasn't very cooked.
THEN i taste BANANA.
THen i realised.... the auntie gave me a BANANA prata!!!!

The funny thing is that stall doesn't sell anything that deals with BANANA, let alone BANANA PRATA!!!!

There's BCOMM test tml... and the impromptu prsentation for the next 2 weeks.
Just hearing it gives me butterfly stomach :S

2010-01-04T00:48:00.002+08:00

Decide to post this b4 I go to slp.
FINALLY finish my Investment. One down 3 to go:)
HAPPY Mood now:) hee.

saw this somewhr...

15 points to remember and chase away EMOooooo:)

1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much that they would die for you.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is beacause they are jealous and wantto be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. If not for you, someone may not be living.
8. You are special and unique.
9. Someone that you don't even know exists, loves you.
10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes out of it.
11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look. You most likely turned your back on the world.
12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, sooner or later, you will get it.
13. Always remember the compliments you received & forgetthe rude remarks.
14. Always tell someone how you feel about them, you will feel much better when they know.
15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

& you are just as great:)

Nites ppl:)

2010-01-03T02:05:00.005+08:00

The cough is really bad. Been giving me hard time and sleepless nites.

Oh. Here are the pics.
Haha. I'm the first successful person to draw eyeliner for yvonne and she herself love it !!! hehe:)
Made her eyes look bigger and spottable!

Pardon the lightings. Dunno what's wrong. heh.

Heels is LOVE.

YVONNE trying to open her eyes to the MAX. The eyeliner on her seems more like eyeshadow. hehe. Shall try eyeshadow on her next time:)

2 piggys:P Me trying to imitate yvonne eyes and she trying to do mine:P

HAhA. SHopping is LOVEEee!!! But the feet hurts. :P

2010-01-02T13:52:00.002+08:00

2010!!!!

HAPPY 2010 PEOPLE!
OKays. Not been bloging lately. Not in the mood and it's a hassle to switch on my lappy.

Went out with YVONNE ytd. hahas!was loads of fun.
Wore heels tgt and we shop like crazy with all the sale going on.
We walk, laugh and joke with hands hooked and it all became lovely memories.

Bought a set of formal wear @ G2000. Lost my temper a bit coz it's SUPER messy @ Taka's outlet and the sales assistant is busy talking away...
Yvonne was a little shocked at my "I'M NOT OKAY".
hahs.

Love heels but my feet hurts. Need to wear it more often i guess. HEE.
Will post the photos ltr in the night when i get it. :)))

...
Everynow and then I'm seeing shadows of you.
WHY? Wasn't it over ages ago?

2009-12-28T01:39:00.002+08:00

Just finish the new skin for my blog.
Great. You know... I didn save my previous template and lost all the updated links:(
this was the back up dunno how many decades ago.

ARRGHHH... MY sore throat is really :(
The porridge with loads of pepper!!! is that the cause?
or was it the chips?
TML still have to go KRSS to help with the bying of books. 9am-.-
FANTASTIC.

2009-12-28T00:00:00.002+08:00

It's been quite some time since I blog.
Not a fantastic day. Projects undone... Notes yet to be written...
Christmas was so-so. Not exactly fantastic too...

AH HAH! I finish the Korean drama that's now showing on channel U I think.
妻子的诱惑. [Seduction of the wife]
Great show. Superb storyline!
The ending was so sad... made my eyes swollen from tears:(
Anyway I finish the whole 129 episodes. Jumped the boring parts though:)
AH and it's best in korean language, more realistic.

Tml gotta settle quite a few things and the thing that's budging me the most is INVESTMENT. I'm doing QN 3&4 and QN 4 is a killer. 35 marks. like WTH!!!! hahas.
That's not the worse... Robin got me the link for the ALL in ONE chart from yaho finance and when i tried to go to that web.... TROJAN was found.
Subsequently i tried to go to yahoo finance STI chart... TROJAN TROJAN TROJAN.
Thanks AVAST. and now i cant do my analysis:(
OKAYS. I will try my best.

OH!
Seeing granny and arh yiie tml!!! hehe. YAY-ness.
Shopping on Tues and chionging for the rest of the week.

NO MORE DRAMA-ing now :)

it's just that the star have yet to appear.

2009-12-20T01:48:00.001+08:00

happen to see these pics after looking thru shun hiang's old posts.
It's really hard to deal with FP back then... FV/PV *faint*

I helped it listened to SH korean song. [look at his expression!!!]

Got my FPAS result. Was frantically searching through the web yesterday but :(SH sms me this afternoon saying she got her reults! PASSED.Sooooo happy for her yet so worried if i would pass. Called her immediately... and.... I PASSED!. yay-ness. hahaha. one more certified professional cert :P

On the other hand was still wondering if i should do my hair on mon.
Have to go minds on tues. Wed- project and writing notes with QQ
Thurs- Project and settle Aerobics stuff
:(

Haiz. Looking for supplier really not easy lei! maybe i lousy.
maybe shall seek help from shun hiang. :)
oh no. I'm troubling her again.

It's tough to be nice. really. I said i will be nice but I'm always laughing at people.
Suddenly wonder where did the old li ying went to???

Loads of things struck me after reading shunhiang's blog.
为什么人重要失去了才懂得珍惜？

Actually just had a tiff with mummy. Over a super trival matter.
How i wish i could say sorry to her right now. She's sleeping.

That day when QQ and I went to SH's granny funeral, SH eyes was sollen. I could see her putting on a very brave front. She must have loved her granny deeply.

people...
不要因为一时的生气而抱憾终身。
人生不长。
要把握每一分每一秒
应为你不知道你随时会失去。
珍惜现在所拥有的美一切。

Dedicated to many:

QQ
Gal... i mayhave said words behind you in the past. I'm sorry.
forgive me to have said words regarding your actions.
Years of friends... Since kindergarden.
14 years. fate to be in the same course same class.
years of fighting over results... and stuff.
rmb the time when we didn talk back in sec 3 and 4
the times when ppl were jealous we were so close in sec 1 and 2
dislike for each other in the past.
well. now is different.
thank you for everything:) thanks for all the laughter, craziness, quarrels and all :)

ShunHiang
one that put up with all my nonsense.
My fickleminded-ness is not an easy thing for others to accept.
My talkativeness ,you accepted.
thank you for bearing up with all the this and that should i or should i not.
thank you for studying with me in sch till library closes.
Thank you for everything and sorry for all my weakness:)

GuanYu
One that would scold me and restricts me from her waterbottle:P
your unique HAHAHAA... :)
we would pull each other hair scold each other... and crazy tgt.
we would wear grey top, whitie pants, black back pack and look like twins.
You too. Thankyou for waiting for me always and sorry for my weakness [especially lateness! i improved:) this sem i'm no longer late as usual yea:) ]

YiXin
Thanks gal. I received your chrismas card. I will hang in there.
Enjoy life and I will too be 24/7 for you. Will not leave you alone to wander the streets.
Dun cry... coz i'll cry with u.
Appreciate all your doings. Thankyou:)

Hanisah
Though it's long since we chatted and met up... But still want to say.. THANKYOU.
Thank you for giving me such a wonderfull secondary memory.
All the laughter... quarrels... I will remember. Thanks gal

Edison
Thankyou. thankyou for always being there when I'm bored.
I believe your family will stay close knitted tgt.
I will pray for you:) believe your parents will 一起白头偕老:)
hahas. all the naggings... I WILL RMB. thanks UNCLE !

Yun Fang
I dunno what can i say. because there's really too much btwn us.
You know it and i know.
We will stay this way from now till ever.
I won't back out on you...just like how you defended for me in the past.
I'll see you in poly:) you can.
and thank you:)

OKays. A realli longggggg blog.... that's it. nights ppl

2009-12-18T21:37:00.004+08:00

Specially dedicated.

The story was fantastic. LIKE DRAMA. TOTALLY!
First impression formed in my head: tall, pretty, typical abit ah lian kind.
TRUTH: TOTALLY OPPOSITE & crazy
it was our source of entertainment for the past week.
After seeing the photo and know about all the doings and the crazy stuff... i was totally disgusted.
Not only GY's HAHAHAH at her was totally hilarious [ we even wanted to record it] it also totally boost my morale. Wah suddenly feel that even SH's best friend is 1000 times better. OPS. =P ( you can imagine how bad that is)

Wanted to blog out everything but i realise... there's only one word to discribe: DISGUSTING.
What's wrong ? After 1 year with BF in btwn and now trying to get back. He really zai! can face her for so long.
JEALOUS i guess. jealous that gal is more prettier than her. Jealours about their r/s and now trying to wreck them.
Cannot understand what is the purpose behind everything? What is she trying to achieve? The game just started ? What can she do?
Anyway i know i'm in no position to say but just think every single action of hers is totally childish and redundant.
That's it.

Today, last day of CT and also start of my nightmare. Projects all lining up waiting for me.
Wanted to do smth to my hair. On mon. and i if it's ugly... i swear i'll stay at home.

totally broke. Bought SKIN79 BB cream and turn out i bought the wrong one only when i received it! AHHHH!!!! Should have bought the Faceshop one instead. Haiz Not only that i also bought a set of cosmetic brushes. LIKE SPENDING $$ only! :(
ALL cash disbursement and no inflow.
Seriously. Need a job. like 3 days kind of event or even one day? Hopping gal's lobang can suceed and tie my through.

Chrismas and CNY is approaching.... hais and you know what i mean.
Shall stay at home in the mean time. :)

The othet thing. Really felt very very very very sad. It's confimed. I lost the position, due to my upcoming attachment next sem. Not only i lost the position. I lost the cca points and my goal that i had been trying very hard to achieve.
Also trying very hard to enhance my poly portfolio with smth special. NOW it's gone.
All the hard work and effort. trying very hard not to make mistakes.... and now due to external factor i lost it.
I really felt sad very. MOODY.

EMOooooooooooooooooooo.....

2009-12-12T14:29:00.002+08:00

6 km yesterday. improvement.

The body is not the limiting factor. The mind is.

I need motivation! Study STUDY STUDY!!!! motivation.

Tummy ache is really bothering me... Dunno whether it has anything to do with the Magnolia Oact Freshmilk that I'm drinking so frequently now. :)

It never came as promised.

2009-12-10T23:49:00.003+08:00

5km yesterday. Stupid shoelace! broke my momentum. I know i'm just anyhow blaming =P

Okays. SMTH ireally shock me ytd!!!! and i am 2 further away from my goal.
Need to work double hard. That's on the down side.
On the bright side, every little imporvement would be great encouragement to me then. :)

Shits. There's still a lot to complete and time is really running out!!!! STRESS!!!!
tml 5km again. Wed timing was better than Monday's though. Can tomorrows' be better ?

There's no Treasury lecture tml. But have to meet robin, kiewu, guan yu they all for project @ 9am.
Fantastic.

Investment tut haven do :( no time though. focus on CT first. [ my excuse, i know :p ]
Planning many stuff for Hols liao. made too many promises. :(
Have to stop before i cant deliver them.
2 are crashing. Hopefully timing can be adjusted.

AH and it's confrimed. I lost the post. PRESIDENT!!!! SHIT IT! :( very very very very very sadd. Coz it's really going to help me to get to UNI as smth additional since my course is so competitive. *cries* WHY AM I IN .2 ????
guess god have smth else for me :)

IF!!!! next sem its not the .2 going for attachment!!! then I WILL....
really cry my heart out!!!! :'(
Too bad Zann.

OHWELL focus focus. INVESTMENT project here I COMEeeeeee.....

2009-12-09T00:18:00.003+08:00

JUST finish writing CM notes for Lecture 5. GOSH it's killing man.
Boring, lengthy and points everywhere. guess i'm plain messy.

Not too colourful today... still allrites :)
Haven do CM tut yet. its like 10 hours frm now... sm whr there.

Just signed up for amore women days out. the TRI- smth i forgot the name.
Smth to do with 3 continuous Hi-Low cardio, kick box and stuff. 3 HOURS of that leh.
Shall train. But there's no aerobics currently.
AND I HAVE YET TO COME OUT THE DETAILS FOR AGM.
:(

Seems that Lynette will be replacing my position. happy for her :) sad for me :(
Due to my attachment that's in 3.1 i cant take up that position.
It came and slipped out of my hands too many times. Hopes raised high and dropped :'(
Well what's mine will be mine.

.....My brain in stopping. Can't think much now.
ah and the AMORE thing is killing my pocket tooo :(
Still have to spent $40 to buy the financial cal that i lost. SAD.
Lucky i borrowed one frm my senior for the CT.

Ah and Jeffery Woo said : w/o 3.7 cumulative it would be very hard to get in to local UNI.
:( can i make it? will i make it ? ...... ---> I WILL AIM FOR IT!

Hols is coming.... No job = no money. But the duration is too short to get a job too :(
Everything is limited.

COLOURS COLOURS!!! I NEED YOU. life's too boring too monotonous.
or am i too demanding?

See my perm hair the other time....
Haha this is the clearest pic i can find.
Looks werid on me huh =X

off to do CM tut. hope i dun fall asleep halfway :)
& NITEX PPL.

2009-12-07T16:58:00.004+08:00

This is the heels i bought from g- market. saw it in my phone so uploaded it

HAHA!!! VERY LONG NV TAKE LAME PIC LIAO :P

EMO.
Had countless tummy ache this morning. Don't know what's wrong with my stomach!
My body is not helping by giving me cramps :'(
Was wondering whether i can even make it to gym. BUT i did :)

CFAS cher didn let us go until 12.30pm so i pestered her saying that qq class ended at 12pm.
We hit the gym and did 5 km. In between i got a few cramps and got to stop. Got the mood today but the cramps and tummy ache really spoil everything.

Hopefully Wed will be better!!! Want to train for the better.
Aiming high. :)

Oh yah . I think i'm seriously messy. Every monrning wake up at 7.30pm. Chiong to bathe, blow hair and opps cant find my phone.
Everymorning I have to search my whole bed for the phone-.-

And today it was hidden inside my blanket. Almost flung it to the floor when i took the blanket up in a rush =X

Bcomm tml :( boring

:( writing CM notes is really torturing!!!! LECTURE 4 is really really DAMN longgggggggg....
Spent countless hours on it. Started a bit ytd night and finish it spending the whole entire night today on it!!!! SHOCK!

Looking at the slides on hand and referring to the notes on lappy... to add both info in... and make sense out of the lect slides... :(

It's too late now. Lack of sleep again.
EFFORT SPENT ON CM !!! a lot a lot.

2009-12-06T21:09:00.002+08:00

Just finish dinner.

OKAYs i just got freaked out by a lizard!!! It's right infront of meeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!
Hopefully it's cleared now. Dunno where had it run to.

The weather is super HOT now :( halfway through CFAS. hais. CFAS is the most clue-less module I'm at. I think I'm super dumb :(

Is it too late to start now? haven start on treasury notes. Gues to catch up with gy on her notes i still have a long way to go. MUG!

Hitting the gym tml with QQ. will see how much i can do tml.
Update more then.
Constantly reminding myself - lose 6 by feb. 2 months. Possible?
I'll push beyond limits.

- still waiting for the unknown -

2009-12-06T01:15:00.004+08:00

Here I'm blogging and I'm suffering.
Cramps :(
wanted to finish at least writing notes for one more lecture b4 going to sleep... But dun feel like sleeping so early. Coz i'll still wake up the same time tml.

Ytd was really really a tiring day!
3rd Dec - woke up at 9.15am and chiong to sch. Was suppose to meet GY they all for Bcomm @ 10am. But surprisingly the buses were good to me. All came in time. 189 stopped at the trafic light. Missed it but the uncle damn nice. Open the doors for me. THANKS.
Reached @ 9.55am and the rest were all late.
We chiong our report and gy, sh and I went to mac to do. we did till bout 11.45pm b4 heading home.

4th Dec - Reached home at 12.40am due to the busses! 282 was my only option left. The last bus some more. Chiong report tilll dawn. 6am. FINALY ACCOMPLISHED. slept at 6.10am and woke up @ 8am and i got treasury lecture at 9am -.- SO i chiong again.
NICE ONE. Got on to 189 same bus uncle again!!! :) then boarded NP shuttle bus and i was early :)

We settled the suff and went to hand in the bcomm. Photocpied the peer appraisal and gy cashcard got lost. coz both of us forgot to take out frm that machine @ our space :(
I'm really sorry gal. Although she kept saying not my fault ... it's ok. BUT i still feel that it's my fault :'( .... sorry......

Then went home put down lappy and went out with daddy and mummy. Promised mummy to go shopping for her clothes... and just nice daddy off day.
Shop shop and shop.... reached home and i slept at 12.30am.... SURPRISED that i can tahan so long. :O

CT is coming.. and I'm still not prepared. HOW?

Another BIG issue. I seriously need to lose weight b4 CNY. Want back the weight i use to own and even better.
A NEED AND A WANT to lose 6.

- I can never get the best out of both -

2009-12-03T01:10:00.002+08:00

BCOMM is killing me.
Luckily there's no more JAP classes already if not I will be studying for the class test now.
Friday is the due date.

Next NEXT week is CT week and the CT covers a lot a lot of lectures!
7 lectures for all 3 mod. Glad it's noot 4 modules.

Nothing much recently. Life goes on and it seems so plain, need some colours :)
Reading the bible brought me some peace but i tend to get sleepy after few pages. [ Use to read before sleeping ]

Since when I don't know.
All i know is I'm starting to fall for you.
Did I fell for you? Actually I have no idea too.
You seems so out of reach, like from a different world from mine.
The circle of friends and enviroment seems kind of different.

- [$$]Don't ask me cause I also don't know. When I know I will tell u :) -

I think i love my NOTES better :) don't want to be distracted.
But it cant be controlled can it?

Back to BCOMM! :)

2009-11-28T19:50:00.002+08:00

:) :) :( :(

Happy Happy Sad Sad.

Finally got my g-markets goods from shun hiang just now. It has reached sg for a week already.

What I bought:
-Black skirt
-Black long sleeve formal shirt
-Black Boots
-White tank top
-corset

Besides me, my aunt and my aunt also bought smth. Over all i was very satisfied with their goods. Cheap and good quality better than SG-gmarket. Dissapointed with their hoodie. :(
Hmmm. Yupp HAPPY HAPPY.
Will weaar the boots for wed Bcomm since Mrs Chi specify that our shoes must be covered and that is my only covered shoes.

Apart from that.. I went to have my hair cut today. Actually all along, I'm very afraid of going to the salon especially for hair cuts coz it always doesn't turn out to be the way i wanted or not nice. Coz i dun even know what I want.

But today Shun Hiang introduce me to the place that her family used to go. It's at bishan. I got the boss - Jason to cut. Good man. Not bad. haha.
BUt he really gave me a surprise. Before the hair wash i was very satisfies with the cut... after wash... It wasnt as nice becoz my hair became soft and had no vol.

Then he suggested curling my hair- ONE DAY TEMPORARY PERM :O
Result was that I was dumbfounded. But shun hiang said it was very nice and feminine cause the curls are like only the bottom part which was big to small and i agree it's VERY NICE :)

When my mum saw it she and my granny agree that it was very nice... BUT sad it's only for a day... However... I dun think I will have the time to maintian curls. so yepp. - i think i look more mature too with the curls-

Anw...
:) - gmarket [ goods are all good and cheap nice and satisfied ]
:) - hair [ Not as bad as I expected it would be... Hopefully tml it's still fine]
:( - studies [ Loads of project undone and ever since the chiong-in of FX my study energy seems to die down.- quick revive me ! ]
:( - FX [ The stupid DEEP PLUNGE of USD made me lost $30k so I'm left with $30 k balance and the my a/c seems to hang and I cant trade no idea why]

Things to be done:
* GET A HOLD OF MYSELF AND START DOING WORK!!!!
* finish all on hand e-learning and start with investment revision for monday quiz
* Start with my notes
* Start with all the project and get them going
* Finish all tut promtly

- ohwells. Still stuck at aunt house though :l
(shall post all the pics when i get home) :)

2009-11-27T02:39:00.002+08:00

GREED GREDD GREED!!!!

Once bitten, twice dumb. :( The EUR/USD plunge a great whole lot and i lost like mad....
It went from 1.50831 crashing all the way down to 1.49844.
A total difference of $0.00987!!!!! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT???? within half an hour!!

It might not seem a great deal but i bought about near $3 million on it lei!!! and i lost a total of $13 k before i can lose anymore CAUSE.... they MARGIN CALL ME AGAIN :(

From a start off of $50k to $45k to $40k up to $65k.... Now I'm back to square one $53k. :(
Bought low though. Just pray hard i can cover back. hahs.
No wonder jeffery wu kept on emphasizing that the market is driven by speculation and GREED.

When will you learn zann!!!! haiz. Daddy earned overall coz even he lost intially the dollar is picking up... and coz he didn get margin call...!!! he played small though.

Haiz. Anyway. Today's JAP is finally over! 4 verbal sentence for 20% of grade. A bit too much huh? Just hope i did well :) hehe.

Oh went Bugis with Sept just now... she got herself a skirt, pants and we bought some earings tgt :) We ate KFC and she tempted me to eat CHEESE FRIES... which i haven't been touching for close to 2 years (except the very few i ate out of my friends meal :P) . Be honoured gal :) hahs.

Okays the wind blowing in is really freezing cold and the jacket doesn't seem to help a lot coz my legs are damn freaking cold!!!!

Nitex ppl! sweet dreamz! oh by the way i dreamt of sm one ytd. was super surprised i dreamt about that person.... hmmmm....

:)

2009-11-26T00:21:00.004+08:00

--> click to enlarge.
Today the curreny fell like crazy. It's fun playing with USD.
But shitty too -.-

Was happily earning money @ first... From the point i started playing FX i only closed off position when i earn... I left those negative to fluctuates till i earn profits... Originally i was playing in 10. then the profits is tiny like few dollars. So i tot i was trading like $10. that's why...

SO when it came to the evening after marlyn's call... (I waited the whole day w/o going out just for her call - my 5% telephone etiquette.) I started playing real big... Not 200... but in 500 and 1000.
Then after dinner... the USD against EUR is fluctuating really drastic... SO i bought low..
1000@ 1.50***
1000 @ 1.50 *** and JACK POT i earn big bucks (although it's not real $)

Then greed caught me... As the price lowers i buy and buy and buy and buy... 200, 500, 1000, 1000... and suddenly it hangs ... THEN ... MARGIN CALL!!!
Then it closed ALL MY POSITION.. showed in the pic... all the negatives are closed off by that margin call...

At first i can't understand... i got $50k as base... how come...
Then i realise.... beside the dropdown box... where i type in 100, 10 , or whatever.. there's a "(k)" meaning... 1000 which to me was $1000 was actually 1 million.
So i bought MANY millions. Cant' believe i'm that dumb.

But so .... i recalled... NEVER EVER be controlled by greed. IT's a sin. is it? i don't know.
Ah... I 'd been reading my bro's bible lately before i sleep every night. for 10 mins? someone talked to me previously and spurred me to start reading....

Think my temper is getting bad... need to change for the better. Have to be nicer :)

THE MARGIN CALL !!! :(

Here I'm studying for tml's IS- JAP test.. 3 ok!
1 Quiz- culture & listening
2nd test- in pair. speak to each other in jap fluently base on the instruction on card given.
3rd test- by teacher. Verbal too. Converse in Jap with her...

Haiz. ANYWAY. Shun Hiang went to collect my GMARKET goods le.
SHe said material was good and all... Great.. hahs coz it's like cheap as compared to SG $$ and speedy delilvery.

SHe's nice... SHe say she'll pass me all the suff i ordered on friday when we meet. THANKS GAL. LOVES:)

Oh and my SG gmarket de hoody come le. Hmmm quality not eactly fantastic but well ok lor. hahas. Gambatte for my JAP. :)

I seriously need to stop touching the com and FX and concentrate!

Motivation!!! someone motivate me please. Compete with me... challenge me...nag me.... make me work. I'm like stuck now :(

2009-11-22T23:46:00.002+08:00

There's so many things waiting to be done.
weekend's over and i wasted it somehow.
Enough of rest. I need work. Need to start.

CFAS- Untouch
BCOMM- prepare for telephone test
TREASURY- track currency
INVESTMENT- got my broker's report, at least smth for a start
JAP- haven started practicing for my 3 jap test.

Oh my korean goods have arrive already!!!! waitiing for shun hain g to collect it from teh post office! cant wait to see my heels. Hopefully the size fits. If not i will really cry !
Haha.

--> This time round i'll wait, nomatter how long it takes.
I'll prove for recognition. Mark my words.

2009-11-19T01:53:00.002+08:00

Speechless.

Our lives revolves ard her.
Today @ CM lecture we were early. So there wasn't a lot of ppl in that big LT.
But she's there.

Penny Thong were trying to rmb our names.Coz me Qing, shun hiang and guan yu sat at the middle. SO she was asking for guan yu name.
When guan yu told her... she could'n catch it.. so i said " CANNED FISH".

SHE burst out laughing. -.- like wth. ONLY WE- are entitled to laugh ok! - self proclaimed
Then guan yu gave the "WTH" face when she heard her laughing.

Ok enough of that.. i shall not continue... I'm like blithely broadcasting it ard...

FRIDAY investment is what worrys me most now... How how!!!
Pray hard for the best.

oh yah .. tml is YUN FANG b'dae... HAPPY BIRTHDAY GAL!!! :)
will be seeing her tml ! hee:D

2009-11-17T18:32:00.004+08:00

Scary rite!!!

Almost done. Don't know how to do. Didn't do.
STOP your lies! It's IRRITATING.

My view on you is exactly like the STI. You totally fail me today.

Shall not tolerate u! AND STOP YOUR LIES!

(probably becoz i dun like u .. that's why. alrdy got a bad impression of you and you're adding on to your alrdy worse stage) - that's why me and gy always get pissed off.

ask for your tut... instead of saying"didn't do" you always ans: " thought dunnid to do, dunno how to do, dunno there's tut". =.= LAME

That's not the worse... i lend my tut to asrayff (dawn) then dunno how it end up with u. Ask you how come it ended up with you. You said :" coz er er... oh er... oh oh ... errrrr.... asrayff ask me return u". - u believe?-

Actually wanted to delete the previous post. Afraid that it may hurt your feelings if you saw it. BUT now. too bad. Guan Yu also blog about u. You're our source of entertainment. Thanks uh.

=X oops i'm being mean again.

I shall learn. - in the midst -

The weather is seriously scary. Posted some of the pics.

Oh yah and my gmarket!!!!

sometimes i just hate my fickle minded-ness. Someone help me with the decision. :(

My gmarket- should i get that pants ? or that dress? hahas

2012 THIS FRIDAY!!!!

okays guanyu say i'm too overpacked. want this want that... as if i can finish everything on fri. Hahas

- 2012

-cycling (do you think so w the weather??)

-Shopping at ION

-Baking cookies @ Shun Hiang's House

looking @ my eye bag...

I can join the Pandas. :/

2009-11-16T17:32:00.003+08:00

lynette and zann with their MINI bags. xD

when brown yvonne monkey meets pinkish zann =X

My DNT artefact!!! 3rd in place hors! Dun underestimate it!!! heh

The adjustable height trolley:)

Guess which is me ??? hahs

unglam! hahas but those were the hard core training!

the thick stage make up...

4e7!!!!

There's never ending to the pictures that brings back the memories.

Shall STOP here(for the pics).

Before i start with the whole load of tutorials, projects and all this i must say:

IT WASN'T HER!

That fact change my hostile attitude towards her. A bit lesser.

BUT well it still ... cant be found and i dun want to waste $40 bucks! Shit.

Anway. My blog seems -DEAD-

Was talking to Matthew that day. My poly life seems CUI.

Hi-fi to Hani. That's what matthew told me.

Come to think of it... i was so crazy back then and having so much fun with my whole clique and all the bullshit. Yea i admit- kinda tomboyish but so what? the fun is smth you cant get when you go into your 20s. It would be another kind of FUN! Love 4/7.

Reminise the days of the 2 "LY" F/M. "42" and all.

Days revolve ard dance and 4e7. Life's great but not the grades i agree.

BUT we study hard, train hard and also play hard.

We played frisbee, bb after class and dance 3 times or more a week. (depends)

Oh and w/o "them" i gain weight after i came to poly!!!!!

cant believe. back then me and my clique like had fast food almost 3 times a week. KFC, MAC, LJS.... and supper @ Prata shop with family... and wasstill @ my ideal weight!

NOW? !!!! =X i seriously.... need to be active.

Now. life revolves ard sch and sch work... -clarification- Not saying that my friends isn't good. THEY ARE GREAT! really. glad i met them! hahs

shun hiang that does all the korean stuff with me... Guan Yu and QQ that does all the crazy laughter with me.

BUT i dunno.... just couldn't pinpoint what's wrong!!!. maybe i am a hyper active one. I love camps, outing and stuffs!!! I need excitement!!! You see i love sports. Games. CAMPS, join this join that, try this try that... ARGHH. nvm.

HAHAS.

SHALL live to be contented :)

Oh gosh and i spent over hundred on g-market. Hope it faster shipped to SG!!! hahs. MY HEELS! cant wait! ANTICIPATION!!!!

2009-11-01T18:17:00.004+08:00

This semester is just as CUI as last sem - in terms of class and project group.

I'm not saying that the class is not good. It's just that the 4 of us cant seem to get into the same class=.=
and you know... it's really hard for alrdy form cliques to accept u.
My clique was splitted into 05/06
I'm in 06 with guanyu. Thank god.

But worse things are in store for us.
The class is form up of 2 HUGE clique. 7 and 10 each
So for almost all the modules, the tutor requires 4 group each class.
AND they suggested 5 5 5 7
So the "OUTCAST" form the additional 5.

Thanks so much uh.

-- kept on following us.
We sort of don't like --.
-- is shun hiang's "best friend" and initially i thought -- was really close to shun hiang.
BUT recently i know why is -- labelled with the title "BEST FRIEND"

from --
BCOMM class:

-- : er can you guys help me look after my laptop? i need to go to the student sevice centre to
report lost
gy: ehh? what did you lose?
-- : my notes
i : !!!!! reprint it lar! ( my natural reaction @ tht point )
gy : is it one whole stack??
-- : erh no. it was ytd lecture ( ony 1 lecture) notes. I written some lecture pts on it.
i : "scoff" -.-
others : -.- (giggles)

-- is dominating and insits on points __ thinks is right. THEN nothing else can go in.

i shan't continue and be mean. [But gy already posted on her blog =x]

BUT it's really VERY VERY stress for me for this whole ENTIRE WEEK and
I really hope i would'n lose my temper with her for projects.

My FP 'professional exam' (FPAS) is this coming SUN - 8 nov 09 [3 hours]
The super thick notes that is about 600-700 (even more) plus pages is really killing me.
Still got a couple more lesson of notes undone, all impt pointers not yet memorise,
CM , CFAS, INVESTMENT tutorial undone, Not yet prepared for my JAP writing assesment (writing letter in jap) and have yet to practice for my FPAS exam. =(

HOPEFULLY things will turn out well.

2009-10-06T20:59:00.002+08:00

HAHA!
YOU GUYS ARE MY MEDICINE!!!!
thx thx. after seeing all the wishes on facebook i felt so much better . hehe.

anw went to meet ppl on my way home.
I SHALL ENJOY THROUGHLY DURING THIS WEEKEND to male up for today. HEEZ.

SHOO!!! to SICKNESS. :)

BLESS ME :")

2009-10-06T12:56:00.002+08:00

Down with flu, sick and still working.
What's better for a birthday!
Blame myself. I brought it upon me.

Now is lunch time.... and i have yet to finish the assignments for tml n ight classes.
Can't seem to figure out how to get the standard deviation using my financial calculator.

Brought panadol flu and 2 packets of tissue. I used up mine.
You know, orchard especailly THIS area is really bad for working.
Cause there isn't a lot of choices with food.
Here and there you eat the same stuff. :(

And my nose isn't helping. The air con is freezing cold and i think i got sore throat.

BUT OF ALL... I'm legally 18 :) CHEERS to that.

come to think of it, i will hitting 20 in 2 yrs time. Meaning i'm getting older!!!! NO!!
how i wish time will stop. WHere i can hold on to every one ard me. MY LOVE ONES.
kNowing it's impossible. I SHALL TREASURE THEM.

SARANG HAE. :)

2009-09-26T23:25:00.003+08:00

bro came back after his first week at Tekong.
:) BOTAK.

Realise i'm sort of isolated from the society, my friends and all.

Life to me now consist of working and studying.

First night class tht took place ytd really drain me out.

My work is really extremely boring and monotoneous.

Can't regret. It's my choice.

I miss shopping and movies. Planned to meet friends after work but

realise i have to go home early in order to catch enough sleep if not..

i will definitely fall asleep while doing those boring.

Staring at that laptop doing the same old thing really strain my eyes.

Welll at least i pampered myself a bit b4 i started work. Bought myself a pair of heels.

hahas really liked it though it was sort of expensive to me.

i thought it was only $39.90 with a 20% discount. BUT when i went to pay for it it was $54.90. i ended up paying 40 plus after a 20% discount. -.-

By the way the pay isnt very good too. cant be compared to my previous admin job. but well.

This is a very good experience.

I'm working at an auditing co.

And now i have to be really careful with my minimal pay.

The transport fee and especially the food is VERY VERY expensive. *faint*

how i miss home cook food.

Anyway. That's all. meeting yi xin tml. *anticipation* :)

2009-09-18T19:47:00.002+08:00

REVIVE REVIVE REVIVE!

hahs my blog has been dead from ever since dunno when :)
Exams totally blocked out m y time.
and i am stuck with drama series ever since holiday started.
finally finished a 40 epi drama series this morning.

Will be starting work this coming tues. Looking forward to it yet somehow there's fear in me.
Wonder if i will do anything wrong. Geeting stressed b4 even starting work.
It's a accounting firm dealing with auditing.
Really really search for a very very long time, went to several agents and co. and sent countless resume before i got this job by chance.

Hardwork does pay off. You reap what you sow. :)
Oh yah. I 'd learnt something very important today from some one.
SYMPATHETIC JOY.
Too much fights and comparison leads to jealously.
Learn to be happy for others genuinely.
I've done it and will continue to do it :)
THANKS

Results was released today, everyone in my clique did better than expected.
JIA YOU! we have to be in the same class next sem kaes!!!! hahas

Recently i've been addicted to gmarket. hahas. korean heels are really cheap from that site as compared to SG.
Anyway, FP classes will be starting next wed, and i still have no idea what bus goes from midpoint orchard to Funun IT mall there. I took 106 the other day to try out the walking dist. IT'S a great deal of walking.

okie tht's it for today.

2009-07-30T02:11:00.005+08:00

Some pics ever since tht time. hahas now then i receive. so yah uploaded!

Finally I'm done. Wanted to blog ever since last fri after runner's relay.

BUT there's just too many things to be done.

I just completed FIT and I&Eproject. BIG accomplishment expecially FIT.

Shall not comment much. I will only say that " I'm really proud of myself" :) hehe.

Well well. Still there's loads of things undone. Exams is in 1.5 weeks round there.

I wanted a REAL GOOD NIGHT SLEEP but it seems that i was unable to have one. I slept at 2am last fri. No idea what i was doing.

5am last sat - rushing FIT content.

2 am on Sun - rushing tutorial.

2.30 am on MOn- tutorial

3am on Tues- rushing FIT Proposal

3am ? unsure yet Wed - my afternoon was actually totally FREE. but need to do FIT ppt.

collate and print out everything just now including I&E.

Okays i am really SUPER tired after tht EXHAUSTING and TIRING run and i did not have a good sleep at all. *cries*

NITEX:)

2009-07-16T21:36:00.002+08:00

She's home. Her right hand is stil slightly swollen.
The polyclinic doc is afraid that she got highblood and the cause of the swollen hand is cause of stroke.

But the doctors at the hospital says there's nth wrong with her.
But referred her to a specialist for a appoinment.

That's it.

DOCTORS! CANT STAND POLYCLINICS AND HOSPITALS of all the paperwork and procedures. THINGS ALWAYS TAKES FOREVER.

Anyway what matters most is she's safe and sound. :)

2009-07-16T20:57:00.002+08:00

Feeling totally down.

Went out with Qing Qing to study at JE today coz got no sch.
Was trying to escape from home these few days... going out early and coming home late.
Been having quarrels frequently with family members.
Loads of things. As i tell Qing abt what happen tears started to fil my eyes...
I held them back and we took bus from IMM back to WCP

We walked ard WCP and talked. I saw him.
BUT that was not the main point.
AT abt 4.. daddy called me...

He said mummy's hand was swollen and he took her to hospital and she's stil in A&E now,
Mummy had been complaining that she was experiencing pain in her hand ytd.

When i knew that she was in hospital my heart BROKE.
Now i understand what it feels like when smth had happen to someone you love and so coincidently you'd done smth wrong and not yet gotten the chance to apologise.
I wanted to tell her I'm sorry for what happen the past few days.
I wanted to let her know i understand their way of loving me and protecting me...
no hair colouring, nail painting and all... have a nice temper, be accomodating towards brothers and so much more....
I want to let her know i will try..

TO make her take back what she said ytd... to let her know I REALLY LOVE THIS FAMILY.

Mummy, you'll be ok. I'll pray hard that the cause of your swollen hands is because you strained your muscle and not other causes.

That aside, exams are approaching real soon and i stil haven finish writing my notes.
FIT project is due very very soon and we're lacking behind time.
Everything that's happening,
It's really tiring and draining of energy, physically and mentally.

BUT,
I'll be strong, instead of depending ppl, I'll be the one that others can depend on.
Instead of relying on others for comfort and encouragement, I'll be the one that gives.
I believe i can tie over this period.

2009-07-14T17:39:00.003+08:00

HOME! Again i forgot my keys. But luckily younger bro's at home. Parents are out.

Today i had AAA and so COINCIDENTLY i experience cramps.
Stomach was hurting like hell. Couldn't concentrate on my AAA test.
Forget it. It's over.
Went to play games at our space games room. shouted like crazy hahas.

oh yah and after FMGT lecture today went chiong to makan place to have early lunch.
Lecture ends @ 11.40.
AAA starting @ 12 noon. But i manage to reach class ON time. :)

Niways, helping hanie to order the same flippys as me. hehe. HOT PINK.
mu hahs.

Oh i think i seriously need to study. Notes are lacking behind time. Way behind. :(
Lacking motivation.
HELP!
Now i have the sudden urge to work! EARN $$
haiz. movies entertainment all requires $$.

OK enuf of that.
I will be seeing hanie this FRI. yays.
This coming hols i wanna meet up with yun fang and more:)
MY BESTIES.

stay happie ppl.

2009-07-11T22:51:00.000+08:00

Met up with Yi Xin today.

was suppose to meet hanie ytd for dinner but coz leen sister got H1N1 and she met leen so dunno how it links and i was unable to see her.

BUT I'll MEET HER FOR LUNCH ON MON!!!!

Got loads to blog today.

First, YiXin was so damn sadd. After i heard her,

i was totally disgusted by that bunch of so called FRIENDS that she have larh pls!

They USED her and i mean it.

The tears in her eyes when she told me what happen last thurs after her last paper.

The feeling of walking ard aimlessly,

when the so called friends just vanished... and those that you sincerely cared for! WHAT'S WORSE?

Dun be sadd girl. YOU have loads of ppl who stil care for you! I know you still have to face them on mon. BUT be strong and stay strong. 4 more months... YOU can pull it thru :)

Second! after i went out with yixin i went hou gang to have dinner with granny.

Went home @ 9 and reach WCP at only 1030!!! Guess what.

I FORGOT MY KEYS!

Daddy's stil @ work, mummy's @ granny hse tgt with bro, elder bro's not home yet. GREAT uh.

Decided to wait for them @ coffee bean.

AND GUESS WHO I SAW!!! VICTOR.

so here i am blogging with his laptop. :)

2009-07-10T00:02:00.003+08:00

Wrong msg sent across?
I'm sorry. A good friend but definitely not MRS. NICE.

The cycle's back again! Dun feel like staying home nowadays. Want to go shopping but still saving.
Suppose to meet aik choo today at 4 plus but i'm too tired.
Studied at cc from 2 -3pm and a bunch of KR malays came and made a whole lot of noise. SO I WENT OFF! good thing coz i went home to SLEEP :P

Thinking of him at times.
BUT i dun even really know him. Hahas.
He's NICE- the greatest force that attracted me. well well. SOrt of Old though =X
But i dun mean AH PEH larh!
20++ eh heh.

THINGS come and go. Same for feelings and friends. SO will u go?
I wun:) THIS-MY PROMISE:)

HEYHEY tml i'm meeting HANISAH !!!! I haven catch up with her about all the gossips and all and it's been ages! We're like meeting for dinner.
GREAT and i got no sch tml! can slp late late:)

Oh yah. FOR my I&E i totally have no idea today's last lesson!!!
we didn't prepare any ppt but yet the teacher still praise our grp:)
We were the only grp in the class that earn's profit:)

hehe:)

Oh and my hair... Still as flat as ever. must wait till round august b4 i can change back to the original parting of the left side.
SO NOW I"ll "忍".

Tht's all. Wish me all the best for EVERYTHING :P
Nites PPL!
STAY CALM and happii!

2009-07-05T00:11:00.010+08:00

Took this photo after common test last paper. FMGT:)
And i sort of miss my hair!!!!
Jamez say i do not have much hair at my crown.
Heredity i think. Stress he say.
HAIR LOSS. oh no. and my hair's so FLAT now.
*cries*

The cake tht i baked for daddy thru the baking class tht i organise for I&E

Gena saboh by em!!!! I game master leh!!! Being bullied:( hahas but it was FUN FUN FUN!!!

THE SUPER SHAVING CREAM!!!! muhaha!!!

This grp's more guai! Nv bully game master. Haha but yew hong and the guys really jia lat:P

Haha! Rachel really love me yea!!!! HUGS*

Was packing my dressing table and just realise everything is here and there and quite some is missing. :(

We studied in sch till Ourspace close. and tht obscene couple is so distracting larh. SHoo Shoo.. +P

Does me and lynette look like retatrd! hahs .

........

The over protected love. I can understand your worries daddy. But it's going to be MY childhood.
Probably u are just not as open minded as other parents. But yea.
Like what he said... i will respect u :)
It's ok if you reprimand me . I will "忍" ...
Just give me some space i hope.

I'm really stressed up. Family matters and all. So many things tht hidden in me. I tried to let go... but cant seem to be able to confide in someone.
Like what valerie said... I shuld let go... i know.... But i just cant.
Feel stress and tied up.
Met YIXIN today though and catch Ice Age 3 at suntec eng wah. the gv theatre are forever packed.

Haiz. Up till now i still cant understand what's the diff between painting nails now and in few years time. WHY ? WHy is daddy so obstinate.
I guess it's real REAL REAL hard to fight for my dream and for what i want.
Guess if i want to fight for the approval to highlight my hair will be like A DEFINITE NO NO!
asked b4 and got a long long long nag and reprimand.

ARGGHHHHH.... oh no.... and now my hair is giving me problem :(

all tht i need is just someone... someone who's true and speak with the heart and not just a facade.

2009-06-15T23:31:00.006+08:00

REVIVED.

Made a mess out of my Common test. Made so many silly mistakes. One or two here and there. Ah shit. Studied but =( Anyways. result will be out on the first day when sch re-opens.

Went for BFS camp last weekend. erm came home ah ytd. =)

Derek and Ian crash camp.

Drank and got knocked out on sat night. Head felt so giddy.

Woke up with after effect. Went to upper bukit timah with Nicole, jackie and Kai Na. Bought Wanton mee, ate one bite and felt like vomitting. Took taxi home.

Vomitted twice on SUN. SHIOK uh! -.-

Went for Baking class today! WASTED MY $25 ~!!!!! STUPID GAL. she did the hands on and tried out how to do the mixture. FAILED and gave us the bad mixture! IN the end i didn get to do any hands on for the misture of ingredients. Only did the decoration.

WHat's worse is they kept opening the oven and cause our cake to sink.

Then theirs is so NICE! HMPF!

RARH!

Tml going out with KAI NA. go shopping! hehe

SHOPPING!!!!

2009-05-24T00:40:00.003+08:00

TRUE FRIENDS. what are they.
FRI when we parted i'd this feeling that bodes the start of smth bad. Well anyway exams and hols are nearing.

I can nv and will nv understand her. being cold to you and slowly not talking to u and tht's it.
Talk no more. Had a feeling it'll be the same like what heppen in sec 2.
Tagging along suddenly make me feel so out. Trying to get into the topic was smth they nv notice.
Thinking about it every night... what exactly happen. Bothered by it for many days and few weeks. Well cant be bothered anymore. I'm and will only be more sadd and hurt and affected by it.
They're already far ahead of me. The effort they put in i can see.
I know i'm slow. BUT i'll still do and give all i can.

Aerobics camp was great. I got a post. To others they might think nth of it. but to me it's a huge recognization. Thanks for recognizing me.
I'll learn as i go and contribute all i can and do my best for it. I start to see the responsibilities coming.

Exams are approaching. CT i mean. 2 weeks. Projects dead line are approaching and loads of work are piling up. STESSED. AAA notes yet to finish. and loads of theory.

well. sleepless nites and more to come.
LOVE the dumplings granny made today. THANKS popo:) love yah

2009-05-07T23:43:00.003+08:00

MIA for so long. - blog dead -

Been trying to use my lappy only on weekends.
Weekdays are so so busy! tutorials and notes. i always take a long time with tutorials.

Went to sign up for the SCO with Jia Xin and Alex. i was inform by jia xin like so last min.
He called like sun night when he he heard frm his friend, and Mon was the last day of registration. Got the forms on mon from charrissa and only then we notice the form requires photo.
Last resort - photocopied our student pass and cut out the pic.
Jia xin's one was so BLACK. like indian >.<
hahs. he went home to get a replacement.
John is teaming with charrissa and joyce. janice also joining!!!
So many ppl... the interview gona be so competitive man.
Just hope tht it doesnt clash with JX oversea study trip.

Tml is the day!!! AEROBICS (cca) CAMP at the loft! hahs.
things are quite rush though. done all my tutorials except FRP. lecture's tml.
Next tues is AAA quiz.
AND I LOST MY 5%! ITS 5% !!!! 5% 5% !!! FOR MY FIT QUIZ!!!!
it was like conducted at the end of the lesson. finish and you leave. SO hectic!!! i panic and there 5% flew! * CRIES*
5% is equivalent to 20 marks in the common test!!!!
test suppose to be next week and not conducted in such a hectic and chaotic way!!!!
OKAYS! shall blame it on myself. I didn't read properly and didn STAY calm. tht's what the FIT lecturer always empathsize on "STAY CALM".
now i can only try to participate as much as possible in class to aim high participation - weightage of 10% .

CAMP! being a SL made me see how much commitment and responsibilty it takes. to plan, contact and arrage for games and all. although its on a small scale but i learn a lot and stil have loads to learn and improve. I really admire MIMI and YVONNE. they rawks!

- take the lead, talk to me :) -

2009-04-14T23:55:00.004+08:00

The once protectiveness tht i yearn seems to be drifting away. Over protective?

maybe i'm at fault.

These few weeks i've been going out loads. either to sch or with friends.

$$$$ . no cash le. totally broke.

I'm going for an interview for a PT job this fri. I seriously hope there would be no contract for me to sign to commit IF not i might not be taking up the job.

I wann to earn extra cash. I dun wan to take $$ from parents. BUT i dunn wan to affect my studies. haiz. i hope i can cope man.

Today had a GRP 5 outing + Jia Xin. hahs

hmmmz. today was fun yeah let pics do the talking.

Watched HANDSOME SUIT. hahs i wanted shopaholic though.

10 tickets and we went picky picky. hahas

went to lau pat sat to eat and walked to esplanade after that.

Been going out and dad is trying to restrict me le. He say i'm going out too much. TOO MUCH ACTIVITIES.

Now i'm vexing whether to take up the job or not. HIAZ big big HAIZ.

i want to save up $$ to go idare camp. and also to lessen my parents burden.

I serioulsy hope i can have an ans. ARGH!!!!

if i wrk i have to sacrifice my time for family and friends. BUT i wan to make full use of my time also.

enuf of tht. niways. i got to know smth today. SHE had a crush on HIM.

he doesn't know. haiz. sadded. maybe she shuld tell him. hahs. well well i shan't be KPO. mind my own biz. =)

Now i got few probs on hand. Afraid my dad wun allow me to go for the bbq this SUN. and whether i shuld take up the job. whether i can stop working when exams come. whether i can cope. IF i cant and i want to quit can or not? OH NONONO.

zann is stressed up. save her pls :) your advice means so much. she needs a listening ear and advice.

2009-04-12T00:19:00.002+08:00

The past 3 days of BAOC 7-9 april was fantastic. THE SBs, SCs, Freshies, SCOs all were so great!!! hahs

Day1 - I met my freshies. we were rather a small grp of 8* coz one dpa, one NS, one sick. 5 guys and 3 gals. :) By the 1st day my voice were gone. hahas. coz i had to make my freshies high by cheering so to make them come back on day 2
luckily all were very enthu. i'm so so so glad i really do.
we did the flag painting and all and it turn out fabulous:)

Day 2- we had games and only 6 came. 3 guys and 3 gals. hahs. and smth stupid happen. i fell -.- outside the co-op near np orchard. i was standing on the sides of the walk way trying to balance myself and didn know how i trip and fell. Kenneth and alex they all said they wanted to run over to catch me but they saw tht i found my balance but the next moment i fell. hahs. OMG.
hahs. well well
then we were the 1st to reach the CC. we took pics and all. when i took with the male freshies... then wanted to lift me so when i reach for support i dunno how i almost fell again. coz i was to blur tht day. all my male frshies say i CUI. say i today cannot. hahs. BUT my female freshies were really good. SI PEI , cherrie and cai li. especially si pei. hahas. she's a very fun and high to go gal. :) she even dated me out okays! but not so soon coz we're both buzy. guess when sch starts.:)

DAy 3- loads of pic.

hahs so many things to say but i too lazy to type. get the info and hear it real life from me or go face book add me and see the pics.

LET PICTURES DO THE TALKING :)

2009-04-06T22:21:00.004+08:00

Will make it a short post :)

got my BAOC shirt- XS. shirt is rather big in size. heh. tml will be day 1. I seriously hope my SCs can be high and crazy in order to bring up the mood of the freshies. Meeting them tml @ 9am which is super early. hahs. aniways. hope tml they will have fun !!! hahs.

I seriously want to save for a camera. BUT whenever i save an amout i would spend it away again. haiz. entertainment is seriously a HUGE TEMPTATION.
BUT I SERIOUSLY NEED TO SAVE.

oh yah and i lost my shoes. gosh. tml dunno what to wear for tml. covered shoes? guess i have to make do with what i have then . sincce i've yet to get a new pair and i seriously dun wan to wear my running shoes. THEY are for my running purposes and not for erm heh fun ? hee.

2009-04-05T00:01:00.004+08:00

Blogging coz of HUP SONG. hahs. he ask me to update. Well.

I thought i would be all alone in my new class TF07 coz GY went to TF01 and QQ and SH went to TF03. BUT.... surprisingly li hui - friend of Hup song also in 07. heh.

Well went back to sch on FRI and tot we would have the rehersal for the performance but in the end we were like onlly doing cheer and all. Qi'En and i am the SB for group 5. Yan LIng is grp 4 Aneza, Janci, Heng Hao and Shawn is in grp 10. SO so cool larh!!! all the HIGH ppl tgt. heh. But friday session was a very short one. SO we - [ Qi'En, Aneeza, Janci, Shawn, Heng Hao and i ] went to Novena to have UDDERS ice cream. Really nice man! hahs. but there could be inprovements on the cone. =)

Then we went to shop ard and Hao took his lunch. Then janci and aneza left. So the 4 of us went to have PIZZA HUT for dinner. HAO ordered BUT he just ate KFC onli larh - .- so in the end he ended up drinking the soup only. hahs. and SHawn help him with his share.
and Qi'en is really carzy with CHEEZE. gosh.

niways. b4 we left sch on fri SHANNON was like telling us : PLS PLS PLS dun be late on sat (coz me and qi en was late on fri). THEN when i left my hse on the way to sch ... HAO called and inform me tht meeting's CANCELLED!!! perfect!!! - .-
but we went on to sch . proceeded on to PS with HAO and QI en to meet janci and shawn. Hao left a lil while after we reach PS. heh. Then the 4 of us went to play arcade. heh

Now we're waiting for mon's meeting let's hope SMTH wuld be done. heh.
hahs. OH yah and my BAOC grp only got like 9 freshie and 7 SC+SB. - .- coz one guy still in NS. and one gal is DPA. and my grp freshie only got 2 gals! and all my SCs are gal except one guy. hahs.

oh yah. hahas. janice got some really crazy freshie. when she smsed them to rmb to bring water bottle. one replied :
" i dun have a water bottle. can help me bring? i wan a NIKE bottle. if not i tell my mama. =( "
janice replied. and his next reply was:
" nonono. you dun argue with me. i wan a nike bottle. If you argue summore i call police"

- .- erm is tht guy crazy? hahs, or flirting with janice. luckily i used direct calls to some :)

kays. tht's all for today :)

2009-03-31T23:51:00.002+08:00

Had been actively participating in BAOC. hahs. was really fun at times. but i just dun quite like it when we have to wait for all the ppl while there's nth to do.
COZ everyone is blithely late.
We had been practicing for our performance these few days. Will teach those freshies. heh.
I'm taking up lady gaga - .- thx to ELAINE and IVAN they all. hahs.
BUT i really mean the thanks. had so much fun. the dance and all.

At first was quite paiseh. GUESS most of us were back then, but now... hahs. we dance like nobody cares. sort of. heh.

I reached sch @ 10 sharp today waited til bout 11 when the rest all came. We went thru a dry reherse in the class then at the CC. My 2 backup dancer wasn't here today. They didn't come the other day either.
SO end up ANEZA & YAN LING acted as my back up dancer so i wun solo the stage and i also acted as ANEZA back up tgt with YAN LING.

we had a 2 hours long break today and we went to eat @ KAP.
I was such a smart alec. ordered mc spicy double knowing i cant take hot and spicy stuff =x
heh.
We headed to Bukit Timah shopping centre to play pool for an hour. I stil cant play. heh.
Seriously need a good and dedicated teacher. hahas.
elaine was like sms-ing me abt our whereabouts. wen yi, janice, yan ling, qi en, heng hao, jin kang, jia xin and me.
REPLY : "we were waiting for THIS message from you. heh"

There will be meeting and practice on Fri, Sat and Mon. and Sat i stil have Aerobics commitee meeting for the camp thingy b4 the BAOC. hectic.

SHOPPING tml. hahs. will be seeing YUN FANG!!!! so long didn see her le.

>ANTICIPATING.

2009-03-19T14:30:00.008+08:00

Ytd went back to sch for revo dance meeting heh! HAHA. had loads of fun. BUT there's stil bits of paint here and there on my leg and i got tan despite being sheltered by qi en shannon they all.

Shannon's crazy.. hahs. he kept decorating himself hahs!
We are not any better... qi en drew on me and i drew back! but luckily she wore jeans if not .. hehe.

I drew on Elaine also ! MUHAHA. but i got a stroke from her on my avengers shirt. Then she drew her own shirt too -.-

Niways... we were the last survivors that completed the whole thing. me and qi en were the only 2 youngers there. hah! Ivan ordered mac delivery and we had our dinner @ 8 plus coming to 9.

Elanine also asked if i want to be SCO. hahs. sounds tough.

OH YAH. and i deco-ed SHAINE with my master piece " I LOVE ZANN" hahs. hers in Blue and mine in white.

HAHA. then we drip some of the other colourd paints like black on RICKY"S face and so on. and shannon elaine kept saying "远远看不到".

THAT MAKES THE CODE OF THE DAY. :)

NOW i'm aching all over. No idea why. My butt hurts. my shoulde

HAHA! i deleted part of previous post again =X hehe.

AI YAH! results out tml ? desmond say tonight bout 3 plus am liddat results will come out liaos. really not? =X

*worried*? rs also very 'suan'.

2009-03-10T02:07:00.004+08:00

Feddup with the blogskin thing. Mood wise i guess.
shall change it when i'm free again.
Need to go to EUNOS tml.... dun really wanna take bus=.= but MRT very EX sia. now no job must save. moreover there's so many things i want and need.

I must be a fool man. SERIOUS S-T-U-pid fool. That was what hup song said too. After so long bout one sem? or one term? he see me again and i am back to where i was.
He said i was silly. He IS ALSO LOR. but he says tht his case is different. I dun see much of a diff=.=
For tht period of 2 months i really really was off all stress. my JOB occupied me FULLY. Now haiz=.=

我要让我自己快乐一点
在尽量了。
一直以来只盼望他幸福快乐
每一次说要忘记却根本做不到

like what lin jia and hup song said, my troubles and stress come from myself.
明明知道 what kind of situation i'm in, yet i stil go look for troub for myself.

zzz. ANW...

HOT PINK will going to be the colour of our OG grp. heh. BUT our grp like a bit dead uh =X
suppose to go grp 1 with edwin. BUT yan ling wan go grp 6 then ok lor. IN THE END... she ps us and sat with her friends *cries* man. U UH! hahs =P

kk. Next meeting on fri. Hope all will go well. I'm still craving for my Mac breakfast =X

I saw in this movie tht says: "For every situation God has a plan" what's his plan for me? is this a test for me? well i guess i'll have the ans sooner or later :)

2009-03-07T01:15:00.006+08:00

Deleted part of the previous post.
Dun want to make things too uh ---
hahs. dunno what to say.
for those who catch it... ehh.. hahas SHHHHHH okays.
deleted coz dunn wan him to see it yea.
DUN THINK HE DID either.

am i mysterious? not a simple girl?
am i just THAT complicated? someone said i was. and i was HARD TO PLS.
no larh uh? hehe. maybe just think a lil bit too much.

niways... tml hey gorgeous is holding at WCP below my hse. GOSH.. will be crowded?
DEFINITELY! =.=
going to aunt hse in the evening with mummy... but THERE'S GONA BE A HUGE CROWD. isnt it?
want to go out early to get erm AC smth. hahs. ppl RICH uh. dunno what to get. Me now no job = u know uh ...
SO SMTH EERM hahs -shan't say- (:

OH yah. watch this movie on PPS. DAMN sad! gosh ! i cried throughout the 1 hour plus. TEARS like FREE de uh. wah. REALLY CRY DE SIA=.=
eyes were like swollen after tht.
Cant go out to meet friends. so manage to have dinner with mum and kor (: his treat.

Wanted to go out tml ealy morning to get the prez. BUT like so last min. HOW to find anione @ this hour?

LAST THING: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BENJAMIN LOH WEN HONG(:
may you have a memorable 18th birthday! DUN CLUB PLS. hahs. u say as if it sounded SO SO SO DAMN COOL! =.=

2009-03-06T02:05:00.010+08:00

Today went out to sing kbox. hahas. haven sung in a long time. FUN. hahs. seldom go out in big grps. Yep enjoyed it. hahas.

Went with alan to join his friends. Erm one guy i saw b4 hahs.

Oh yah. hahs. aik choo and Ben loh bdae this friday and sat.

will pass them a belated birthday next week. When i get it(:

Maybe next week go cycling. HOPE uh. a lot of activities uh.

NO job. gosh. EXPENDITURE are high. and no INCOME =.=

SADD.

aniway. NITIES ppl (:

2009-02-28T20:36:00.005+08:00

END of EXAMS! & END of YEAR 1!!!!!
hahs! cant believe it. time flies so FAST!

ANW after my exam i was suppose to meet Alan to go to the agency. Help him apply also. =.=
SEE I SO NICE!!!! =X hahs.
BUT! I WAITED FOR HIM FOR 40 mins!!!! WHAT A FRIEND UH! but luckily ... BERTRAM, SHUN HIANG & GUAN YU were sooooo SWEET!!! hahs they waited with me then they left(:
HOPE THE JOB MATCH CAN BE QUICK if not. i'm jobless agian! :(
*cries*

Went VIVO to have STARBUCKS and there wasn't any RISE OF THE LYCANS le!!! SADDED. guess i was pretty slow in realizing. WENT dobhy and found out that most of the movies were full! sian diaoz.

hahas. and i saw Guan Yu and Shun Hiang again(: hehe. AND i saw EDWIN and his clique i guess. heheh. he ask me organize a meal uh. AND I WANT TO SEE SAN SAN. miss her so MUCH.

anw watched 2 movies in total. WEDDING CRASHERS what a SHOW LARH. M18 =X hahas. and balls of fury i think.. the ping pong one.

anw BEN LOH shuld be on his trip by now!!! hahs. meet you when you come back yea. !!! hahs. go learn cycling. he teach uh =X zzz. ppl dun laugh plz! hahs =P will be a success - i hope. hehe.

Meeting aik choo next week. and oh yah . going LEON hse ! shuld be somewhr next week or what? go learn how to make cake or cookie. hehe.
tht time gi tiong got invite to his hse to make. Guess tht time was exam or what ? no time man.

ANW!!! tml granny making "har gau" erm prawn balls - 虾胶. those you know you eat at dim sum hse de... hahs and got crab meat cum prawn omelette. WHHOOTS! hhas=P
Actualli was invited to wash car. I wanted to go yea. WULD be veri fun. BUT in dilemma sia. coz i cum arh yiie hse shuld be accompany granny.. yet everyday go out=X hahs. think will stay home? GRANNY MORE IMPT :) onli one. CAR WASH ... will be more than once? :)

okok! busy hols. BUT I REALLI WAN A JOB ASAP!

2009-02-24T21:17:00.002+08:00

Something really UNPLEASANT happen on the way home today when i went to Coldstorage after my BMGT exam. hiaz. ANW slept thru the afternoon. Tried very hard to get to slp. ONLY slept 3 hours ytd and i couldn getto slp! why uh!

2 more papers to go!!! ITB and FMS. Friday 4 pm. i look foward to it (:

2009-02-21T00:34:00.002+08:00

TOOTE! i want you back.
so wanted to say tht uh. Been bothering me for quite a few days liaos. FILLED my mind. dunno why! uh. zzzz. CAN I HAVE toote BACK... hahs =X

I AM DYING. not :)
zzz.. STUDIES. gosh! FMS the last few chap... and ITB. really a real struggle! ARRGH.
it will be over in 1 week!!!! next fri!

Mon - Microeconomics 2pm-4pm
Tues - Business Management 9am-11am
Wed - NO PAPER
Thurs - Infomation Technology in Business 9am-11am
Fri - Financial Markets and Services 2pm-4pm

Oh yah and i'm going down to the agency on fri. HOPE the job match will be successful.!!! REALLY HOPE SO!!!

Got someone to teach me cycle? yea? hahs . lets hope it will be a success! hahs. I WAN to visit the ZOO, birdpark and all!!! So mani things i wan uh. stil got loads haven list down yet! :)
I'm greedy uh ? cant help it :P

EXAMS haven start and i cant wait for it to end! ... but on the other hand i hope it doesn't start on mon ... so that i can have more time to prepare...! CONTRADICTS!

Been having sleepless nites. What to do? dunno why. just cant get to sleep! oh no. SAVE ME MAN!

加油 liying! :)

2009-02-16T21:51:00.002+08:00

Really took the time off on sunday... Met Leo. finally rmbered his chinese name =.= han shen. hahs. My ex collegue. been saying to meet for coffee very long.

hahas. was treated to movie and starbucks =X hahs . HIS HAIR IS SHORT!!! hahs .. SO SHORT! but guys with short hair nicer. more neater. hahs. NS man. after NS then is MAN =) isn't it?

was suppose to meet him at 3pm... drag til 4pm and i reach at 4.30. just in time for SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE. hahs. was a funny show though. His NS friends were there.. made friends too yea. erm chen ming and hahs srry i forgot the other one =X

hmmm was really damm sadd on Valentines nite. COZ OF SOME STUPID PERSON. and i was stupid to be sad over smth i knew . ARGGHHH. fine. i shalln't think !!! so long and stil stuck! Becoz of HIM! i shuld have gone out on VALENTINES! instead of being stuck at home! get treated to lavish dinner and flowers!!! But.. i stil couldnt bring myself to do it as in go out.. haiz... like what ben said. erm ben loh. hahs . "the fastest way... get another one". hahs =P yao zhao de dao zai ke yi ! hahs .

got another coffee mate.=)

hahs! i was just invited to aston's hse !!! he studying with shawn they all.. but i dun think i can study with them =X i scared my way of studying will scare them away! hahas =P

hahs. looking forward to have a game of pool and tennis probably at aston's condo . damn rich =.= too rich not good uh ! =P

hahs ! anw. onli manage to take pics with leo. they gotta book in. well well. really look up to him as a brother? hahs yea=)

wanted to go find karin. !!!!! at taka... BUT! she off day =.= so qiao uh =.=

bo bian . sadd. hahs .

MONDAY blues. today couldn get much in.... HAIZ!!! think i study better at night. and i really mean LATE NIGHT. =

I SHALL TRY HARDER ltr! i have to uh =( if not... wo jiu bu gou shi jian le!!!

oh yah ALAN's coming back on 23rd yep. hahs !! MISS him yea. hahs . gona have lunch tgt with san san :)

well well... what else can i say.

tht's it . i shall not say =)

OH YAH!!! san san present still with me =.= dots.... and her notes too... guess i sort of irresponsible? or just tht our time dun match ? i realise my story book still with yong qiang... !!!

LAPTOP IS REALLY A DISTRACTION!!!

2009-02-09T16:29:00.005+08:00

Totally mixed up feelings. it's confirmed. So wanted to know at first.. Now i knew it and it doesn'y make a diff . does it? BUT what i wanted to know most.. I stil didn't ask. =.=

Studied till VERY SIANX.. went to review some of the messgae log/history...
Regret how i censored someone's name in the past??... BUT it's becoz you feel smth towards tht person then will censor de rite? hahs. anw. it doesn matter anymore now
ANW... what seems to be a million qns all like 不见at that moment. 不知道要问 what liao..

Well Well this kinda things go with the flow wuld be better. I'll be better off tht way. :) let's hope so.. IF NOT... if tht person changes 180 degree out of a sudden again.. WAH PIANGS.. then i will really be *dead*. cannot take such a blow twice. ONCE and it's BAD enuf.
HAHA

zzz.. EXAMS ARE COMING.!!! 加油俐颖 ... SELF SUPPORT eh . hee :)
oh yah .. i'm like sort of lazy to upload the full length photos wang dan sent me.. :(

2009-02-06T00:48:00.004+08:00

TOTALLY UPSET!!!! arggh... dunn wann talk it bout it now. NO MOOD!

Was it "underword"? smth liddat? its showing today... arggh.... wanna go watch... ZZZ it's M18. what the!!! liddat also M18. - let's smuggle in :) [ hopefully i have time to watch b4 it goes down ]

haix... economy now is like... duper BAD. bo bian. I'm trying very hard to save too. =)
Hopefully i can get a job for this coming hols.. if not i really dunno what to do liaos....

Just reach home not long... Went to ex-collegue house to have veterian steamboat. Very Nice. 1st time try. hahs. Joyce,Irence,DOris and Melvin came... hahs ... we laughed so much! "Ah ma" really very funny. =) it's happy being around with her..

I'm so tired larrh.... didn take ani photos today... maybe coz everyone's too busy?

..

Not feeling so well uh.. tht's it for today! :) nites everyone

2009-02-05T01:08:00.007+08:00

Took a lot of photos today!!!!! hahs. today got 2 presentation! ITB and FMS!!!... HAHA

Me and Wang Dan and Shun Hiang went to maken place and took a lot of photos!!! hahs ... BUt all in Wang Dan's phone.

YEA!! today's the end of all my Presentation!!!

YAY-ness . WOOTS

Ok the heels was a bit pain.. it was a super last min decision to make that choice larh ...
So wanted to buy the other heels de... It was so so so much nicer .. and cheaper too.

Wanted to buy the heels from charles and keith also de ... but!!! they dun have my size ler...

ARGGHHH... i spent about $ 100 plus on my formal .. but okay lar.. it is considered a good investment... can last me for my other 2 years in poly. ...

Nth much to add on.. will post the pic from wang dan phone as soon as i get them

[Dinner's cancelled. Dun spend the money on her. She's not worth it. Valentine's shuld be reserved for someone special. Another passer by. It's her fault. She's trying to stop the giving of wrong message. u get it? ] she's sorry.

2009-02-01T21:27:00.008+08:00

Lendal !!! hahs. Pri 1. CUte uh?

This was when he rushes to me after playing with aik choo -car car... then tickle me.

[caught his hand. he's considered tall for his age man! got his parents genes. His mom is quite tall too :) - a very nice lady ]

Went to Mr. Koh house to "bai nian" today. !!! rarh! took so many bus and at last taxi. we like took mrt then bus then alight wrong stop then took bus and walk quite far. Gave up and took taxi. hhas.. but okays lar the fare was onli $2 each for 2 of us. Went with Aik CHoo.

Was actually supposed to go with Yi Xin. But she couldn't make it. Then didn want to go liao. But aik choo called so i agreed. She went to buy my formal wear with me today @G2000. I'll be going back to buy the skirt tml. Maybe shun bian pei kor go buy his formal shoes for presentation.

Took photos with LENDAL today!!! hahs. I saw KAYLA too!!!! hahs. she's so fragile to me... DIDN't know how to carry her. =X hahs. Mr koh taught me but i stil couldn't get it. hahs. =X

Lendal was funny. He run to me then stood in front.. laugh laugh luagh then out of a sudden TICKLE me. hahs. He's one cute one. HAIRSTYLE TOTALLY LIKE MR.KOH. photocopied=X hahs. [ tht was a compliment k ]

Hahas. Is it considered good/bad? gena tagged by LINJIA! THANKS UH!!!!

The Rules And Regulations

A. Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.

B. People who get tagged need to write on their blog of their own 10 weird things/habits/little know facts as well as state this rule clearly.

C. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged & list their names.

D. No tag back.

1.I cry alot - sometimes over the smallest thing/incident.

2. I always feel inferior am very very sensitive to other people's action and words.

3. I wan someone who can be there for me always -companionship. BF=X (hahas-shhh!!!)

4. Moodswing- my mood can change within seconds.

5. Act to be angry/upset/happy/etc when i'm not.

6. Anger cannot sustain more than 3-5 mins. (Most of the time exept extreme case)

7. I dun eat chilli but i like to eat curry/laska :)

8. I am always to prove my existence and for recognition by anyone and everyone.

9. I am very SLOW. at everything- understanding of things/learning. - studies especially

10. I am trying to LOVE myself.

Tagged:

1. Hanisah

2.QingQing

3.Yun Fang

4.Yi Xin

5. Ben Goi

6.Qiao feng

7.Hup song

8. Jin Xian

10.Aik Choo

- Jin XIan was like asking why everytime der photo i post i in that blue top.=X hahs. cause i like that blue alot. That blue makes me happy. And i like to see myself in that BLUE.! hahs

[but i onli like tht blue "top" i dun really like blue colour. ]

2009-01-27T14:23:00.002+08:00

Greetings! HAPPY CNY! may all your wishes come true in this "niu" year and i wish everyone

心想事成
一切顺利
天天开心
身体健康 and
爱情顺利!!

HAHA! secondly! wanna wish ... HUP SONG happi birthday!!!! may all your wishes come true yea?

I slept @ 4am this morning! o.0
Fell asleep the moment i lie on my bed. ! totally tired!
and.... i had this really really weird dream!!!! dreamt bout this place with lots of ppl.... and main thing was i dreamt of ... ehh... *** !!!
Anw... yea. hahs .

Tml ... MIEC project is due! ....and i'm having steamboat tonite! TIME! gosh i really do have bad time mngt. =(

Anw. "ah ma-GE" called me on CNY eve. invited me over to her house shuld be any day next week for steamboat! hahs . Shuld be seeing joyce and logan too.!

=) Flash me a smile.

2009-01-23T12:09:00.000+08:00

BLUE BLACK! and i got 2.!!!! CNY is just round e corner and i gave myself 2 "lovely" blueblack. GOSH. :(
Got it from tennis class today. Self inflicted injury. sianz. One on the hand, one on the leg. *cries* SO PAIN!!!!!!!

Anyway... went back to KRSS just now. visited Mr.koh and Mr. Heng. Me and yi xin bought coffee and satay for them =)
Went to see dance too.

Tml need help mummy with the last tidy up of house and needa go shopping for cny goods one more time.
I still haven buy my pants. Zzzz. Wanted to get THAT heels sia. from charles & keith. Soooo nice
!!!!! A bit ex though =X hahs .

I totally deprived of sleep. !!!!!
... wanted to go the wuxi/shanghai 10 day trip during april. BUT! firstly daddy dun allow... secondly it cost round $1200 - $1600 i guess. yep.
HAiz!!!! That time wanna go the 'idare' camp he also dun allow!!! zzz! I REALLY REALLY WANN TO GO THE IDARE CAMP DE LOR!!! =(
sadded.

WAht a CNY uh. flooded with projects. due this coming week or the following week. Desperate for time man. I wanna watch so so so many movie sia... but dun have the time!!! TIME!

Anw. this sem's gona be over in a flash. It's really fast. Hols will be coming too and i'm looking forward to it =) ANTICIPATING.

2009-01-21T22:46:00.003+08:00

So tired. really tired. Is both mentally and physically. Bothered by everything. Family, school work and myself.

How to share..you tell me. i dunno where to start and who to share with. It isn't that simple. So feel like crying. Resting. Bed and my bears are the best source of rest and hugs now.

Shall not type animore. Here and there it revolves ard the same topic same person. Worse is you dunno i'm talking bout you and me stuck here. Gosh

Aniway tml's my Bcomm oral presentation. All the best to myself.=)

2009-01-20T15:09:00.004+08:00

Projects... suppose to meet bertram and wang dan at 10am on mon... in the end... wang dan didn turn up.. and bertram only arrived at 11 plus... ME and SH ended up watching anime and video.

HAHAs. next wed our class going MR.PON [MIEC tutor] House bai nian! heheh. and have our tutorial at his house .

Now i know what a fool i'd been. REAL STUPID!
I didn realise til now. NOW. It's NOW. took so long to realise...
only till i saw it... Cant tell myself not to believe what i seeing yea?
the lil things that pieces tgt only lead to one thing...
You are such a person.
If what you told me that day was the truth ... that means u are one with many flings.

NEVER AGAIN. the word is NEVER!!

Trust myself to be so silly...

it shattered into a million pieces at tht moment.

Going to meet arh yiie and xiao jiu they all ltr. Today's arh yiie birthday... Haven got her prez. If kor's not going then i'll go alone. He stil has his report to rush man. Tml he's going back to NP for his presentation. ALL E BEST! :)
*I'm still preparing for my oral presentation on Thurs. :( *

Happi birthday zhao xiang. :)

2009-01-18T01:40:00.003+08:00

My braclet. SPOILED. *CRIES*!!!!

Like wearing a bit too many things uh? hah s. was trying on Shun Hiang's watch.

Oh yah!!! *cries* my favourite braclet spoiled. ='( seems like it can't be fixed de... zzzz. so sadd... i liked the bracelet so much !!!! really!!! coz it's very nice. It's simple yet elegant. nice. not like my other bracelet... a bit to fancy. This bracelet can be wore on all occasions and everyday, anytime... tht's why it spoiled... haiz. i used to

It's me.. my tendancy to over-romantacize you.. despite being hurt time and again, i refuse to acknowledge your not-so-glorious traits that hurts.

YAY YAY YAY! hahs. Man utd won! scored a goalin the last few minutes! hahs. MIRACLE =X hahs. FIRST. heh heh. ok. i was not so crazy over soccer actually until being influence by ... hahas. My bad. my hidden agenda.. =x but!!!! hahs . found that it sort of caught my interest in it. :) and i start to like it !!!!! when they GOAL!!! i was like .. so ... HIGH! hahs.

ANW. accompanied bro to buy his CNY clothes. Went to Vivo. hahs .. he uh... always buy M !!!! his shoulder is broad and he should be proud of it!!!! hahs .... most of the time he buy L then in the end wash 1 or 2 times... it shrink then the sleeves too short and the shoulder there like so small... and all ended up with my younger bro.

Persuaded him to get his jeans at Topman with that specific colour!!! hahs . the colour he choose in the beginning so orbit ! =X hahs . walked from 4 plus till late night. Managed to get him his top... a blue collared stripes shirt from River Island.

He treated me to dinner. Wanted to eat either Sushi tei/ kim gary. BUt the queue was like.... erh... we ended up in Food Republic. he ordered "fried hokkien mee, char kuay tiao" then after that he went on to buy dim sum - har gau [ prawn balls ] & siu mai [ er ... also related to prawn] AND fried dumplings. GOSH! so much larh !!! hahs .

I can't finsh the prawn mee in the end. left slightly more than Half a plate of hokkien mee for my bro. I was the one removing the prawn shell for him lurh!!! ><>

ANW . next week gona be a real hectic week!!! many projects are due! and its the week b4 CNY !!!! i stil needa get a pants & skirt. but like no time liao... maybe i'll just get one!!! coz i haven got any bottoms yet !!!

Hit the gym on fri as usual! hahs. trainning on my stamina. wanna join the shape marathon tht's coming up in few months time. Really wish Guan yu can pei wo go gym on fri... always is i go alone... =( hahs . wanted to ask others... but most of them either have class in the afternoon or dun wan...
i got punish by MGA after tennis class.. =X coz i was not in proper attire... was suppose to wear black shorts. i wore white instead. =X

wear it only when i go out. then i really like it so much tht i wore it everyday...!!!! *cries*

hahs . off to do my BMGT le! (:

2009-01-15T13:00:00.003+08:00

There's loads to do for ITB!!!! zzzz... haiz dun wan say ..=X Anw tml's the deadline.
Still must look up for the MIEC articles,
then there'll be a BCOMM oral prsentation on MON. and i haven thought about the content YET
Not only that, MIEC cum BCOMM project is due b4 CNY.
CATS is also due in like 2 weeks time!!!! and nth had been done yet. GOSH!

Then, here comes FMS project!
The week right after CNY we'll be having a oral presentation AGAIN - 20% for BCOMM.
ITB data base project is also due right after CNY.
BMGT project is due BEFORE CNY!!! arggh!!!!

Then, right after will be a week of revision THEN EXAMS le!!!! so fast fast fast!!!

Anw... hahs. had a 3 hour break today. Skipped BMGT lecture. Studied it on my own instead. Tml there's S&W and CATS tml.. till 12noon.
Hitting the gym and to pass Gi Tiong back his towel!!!! tht day he lend it to Sept larr.. and she kept til now... =X so i be middle man again!

UPSET. UTTER SAD. i spend so many nights doing my ITB projects... AND yet my mum said a comment that i felt so HURT! ... what i'm doing is not to show anything... But becoz tml's deadline... and our grp haven been meeting! Then some say dunno how to sollate and all.. Aiyah anw. Been spending nights figuring things out. and finally! i did it! so proud of myself. the kind of satisfaction is what i cant buy. Then my mum said smth... and i went... so DEAD* not to do with my web design.. is smth to do with me... SO SO SO SO HURT. now i know... why ppl say .." once you said it.. there's no taking it back".

Even if it's just a comment.. it hurts. It does. [*refering to words said to me from more than just my mum]

How i wish you were here with me, by my side now.

What hurts the most.. was being so close.. and having so much to say and watching you walk away. - walking away. away from the troubles of my life
:) SMILE GAL.

2009-01-14T22:37:00.003+08:00

That's me and my elder bro... hahs . found this picture when i was spring cleaning.

I so used to be a cry baby... hahs. SEE!!! i'm so short!!! tall guys are good! sense of protection. hahs. My dad REALLY make me feel protected... in fact.. it's over protective... - but it's a kinda LOVE isn't it? =)

CUTE isn't it? CAN it be MINE?

Picture taken with bro. on his birthday!

He really protects me uh!!!! tht was when i was young. followed me all around. Always there for me when i fall. hahs ... but a diff story now eh ... hahs ... tht's why we're "grown-ups"

Me and Septiana. Brought her to the gym for the first time

Went for Aerobics just now! wah . missed the cardio and the high intensity work out for the hols. hahs. anw. yupp. enjoyed it. the sch's " jiao zi " u-mian from MAKAN place is nice!!!

wah. china ppl make de "jiao zi" very nice de hors!!! my ex-collegue once let me tried those she made herself ... so nice!!! with all the diff kinds of fillings.

Acccompanied QQ take Bus to clementi and went to NTUC. hahs .. she asked me : "li ying, got bf marh..very long nv ask u this qns le hor.."

At that moment .. i dunno what to say... hahs . she said tht she's sure i'll get attached in my poly life. I said nooo.... hahs .. we'll see who's correct!!! hahs . she'll owe me an ice-cream if she's wrong ;)
haiz. hahs .. not i dun wan... is i cannot wan... no feel how to wan.. rite?

wan go out / go movie at times also cant get anyone to go... * sianz* ... hahs
this is not despo k! i'm patient. i 'll wait for MR.RIGHT! hahs

[ BEST wishes and blessings to QQ & KENNY, may they be tgt 4eva!* dun quarrel so much k!*]

2009-01-14T16:26:00.003+08:00

To me... You. A vague person. vague about your motives. Vague promises. I never had the courage to ask... be the past or now. You left cruelly, dissappeared from my life and left me bleeding. Now you're back. Stil the same. I nv seems to know the real you. was it me trying so hard to please you that i made it so bad for myself?
Can i've an answer? many a times i thought what wuld the future hold for me... Maybe this maybe that...

Couldn find a real pal ever since sec sch... in sec sch i have yi xin, hanisah, yun fang to let me jab and jab on and on on my nonsense. Now... so diff yea? Staying so far... everyone is busy with their things... QQ with kenny... guan yu always spending weekends with family... Shun hiang ... stay really far frm me... sometimes even wan to ask her out for dinner or a chat also difficult...

All i wan is just to be comfortable around with the ppl i like. To be myself. Dunnid to specially please them. I am me. MYSELF. I wan to be the way i'm. conversing in my half chinese, english with occasional dialects. hahs . No more of putting up the fake front. I hate it.

Anyway... i'm stil thinking... back to the foolish me... haven i got over u! I did! i no longer think about u.! but why . why why...had i wanted to plan and make the most of it for u when u ask me to meet ...

Isn't it all gals wish to be and feel pampered. to be protected. To feel needed. To feel that someone is proud of her. To knows that she is his everything. To be the first in his heart. To be loved, and to be treated differently by him from other normal gals. and to be the apple of his eyes. Now and forever... ???

Well maybe not all gals... but at least it's my wish... Wishes do come true dun they? if u wait long enuf... they will.... will they???

But... i was told.... HAppy endings only happen in fairy tales.....

2008-12-31T17:54:00.003+08:00

说过的话永远不能收回, 做过的事永远抹不掉遗留下的痕迹. 所留过的泪就像覆水难收.
不要说不真诚的对不起应为对你而言只是敷衍的话。

压抑着对你的那份感情, 有说不出的千言万语.
若输了你那赢了世界又如何？

不断的想讨好你。希望在你眼中能表现得最美，一切都已你为第一
在学校的每一个角落都希望有机会能遇到你。
过去的只能当作回忆。或许有朝一日我能再次遇见你再次看到你的微笑接我投入你的怀抱。

This guy's blog really drew my attention. hahs .. sort of EMO worx!!!
anyway. I received William's greeting card ytd night. hahs .. He's my erm so-called BRO cum advisor uh. hahas.
I'll pray for blessings for him and his Gf. they're like sort of facing some prob due to the gals family objections. Their age diff you see. HAiz. anw. hahs will be waiting for their wedding bell to ring!!! hahs .
True love doesn't have any boders yea?

Kaes. sch's starting soon. ITB project haven even started yet. THis gona be a very super short term! everything has to rush! Might be playing squash this fri with Claudia. i'm looking forward! really! hahs . Tml 's going to Hort park! hahas!!!

Hmm. ytd had a long day out! Bought top X3 , vest cum hoodie, shoe some hair accessories and yup tht's it.

k gtg!

2008-12-29T02:08:00.002+08:00

OKays! my blog is like SO DEAD!!!!!!! . Was very busy with the hong kong drama that i was so engrossed with that i spent like 4 -5 days to finish the 42 episodes!!! hahas.

Went to Samuel house the day b4 christmas eve for 4e7 class gathering. GOSH but only 3 gals including me. hahs. i went to meet matt to get the prez then met wei ju to get the RUDOLF PARTY SET!!! : chicken x1, 1 kg ham, sausages x10, log cake x1 . Then we head to Sam hse aft our lunch! The 4 of us played games at his house!!! gosh i was at losing end. The guys gang up! UNFAIR! hahs.
We went down to get the fruits and help in making the fruit salad! GOSH. Matt made a big mess out of the honey dew. AND THE UNCLE WHO SOLD US THE HONEY DEW PROMISED IT'LL BE SWEET!!! AND IT TASTES TOTALLY TASTELESS!!!!
The rest came and we went to get the pizza x4 . The feast starts @ ard 7+ 8pm cause we're waiting for all to arrive. We all watch lil nonya tgt. hahs. WHAT A DAY!

On christmas went to catch "BEDTIME STORIES" with yin ji. NAH. the story wasn nice ... some ppl went off halfway. It couldn catch the attention of the audience i guess. I went to the toilet too ... hahs =X

Met QQ ytd(sat). went for a walk, gossips and went to look for a part-time job. Yea. hahs. Finance prob. dun wan to add as a burden to my parents. My younger bro books and all are already costing $400 plus.
BUT no way am'i going to let my PT job affect my studies. If i cant cope... i'll quit the job.
hahs... tht's what i'm saying now though, who knows what will happen in future.. haix

Me & QQ was talking abt hahs HIM. yea it's been long. I guess if not of what he did i would nv be able to let go so easily... but it also took me ard 8 months. hahs . Think he's doing good. Yea he looked smart and cool frm the dp i saw. hahs .
AT times i just cant help but notice... when SHE is online HE wun msn me.. when SHE is off9 he wuld msn me... and once she come on9 the conversation somehow abruptly stopped. QQ ask why i didn ask... if it was her.. she wuld be fed-up and asked!
hahs. firstly i dun see a need to... cause well what's mine is mine. And 2ndly, it's him who took the 1st step to the cruel unexplained ending. SO since i want to forget i shuld.
God had everything laid out for me i guess. hahas.
if QQ had not touch this sub i guess i'll try not to think abt it bah.
Isn't it better to be Good close friends or god bro/sis than not even friends? hahs
ALL THE BEST TO HIM though :)

Kaes. Sch is like re-opening soon! and there still a lot of projects to be done! no more slacking i guess! better buck up. AND I SERIOUSLY NEED TO.
I WILL MOTIVATE MYSELF AND MENTALLY SUPPORT MYSELF. BELIEF THAT I CAN.

ps. - that is what chia yee always teach me. belief in yourself. i seriously hope i can=).

2008-11-30T17:50:00.002+08:00

I'll start with studies first..
ITB stil got 3 more lecture to write notes om... the main thing is i could'n grasp the meaning of a lot of thing .... coz the drefinition given on the lecture notes is way too brief... then the txt book is WORSE! Whole lot of chunk of info. So i got the aid of the internet. hahs. will read up on tb after i have finished writing notes.

First is FMS then MIEC and lastly ITB. end of CT. hahahha.

Hmmmsss. i found out tht i haven finish my MIEC notes... stil got 2 lecture de... er... last lecture was split.. so 3. haix... loads man... this coming week must REALLY chiong liaos. if not i cant catch up with GY and QQ. they are my source of motivation!

Ok. Now is my LIFE.
hahs ... FRi was a really really really titing day! woke at 6am... Tennis class frm 8-10 then 10-12 CATS. aft 12 i pulled GY to the GYM orientation... and i waited for her inside the changing room... in e end she said she didn have the mood to exercise today..=( So she wait for me at canteen 2.
hahs .. i really start to enjoy the feel onthe treadmill ... and the feel of sweating... hahs .. saw gi tiong and yong qiang at the gym... hahs
then went with gy to orchard to walk walk. then met my parents for shopping and GOSH my phone went dead.. had a hard time contacting them.

Sat! i made my way to aunt house. took 165. stopped at thomson and bought them RITZ apple strudel and durian struddel. Went for a run with aunt and hahas... my staminal improved lots.. or ... did her staminal drop? =X
i stayed til today! hahs ... did some of my ITB notes ... and yea.. will be heading home soon....TML is the start of my chionging!!!!! WAY TO GO MAN!

Oh yah.... Aunt said tht if my parents allow... she will bring me along on the trip to M'sia tgt with granny... but the security there is like VERY BAD. =(
but i stil hope to go... If can it would be scheduled on 12. we'll leave after my last paper. hahs . now the decision lies withmy parents!!!!

2008-11-26T00:50:00.000+08:00

Nth much to blog about today though.... MISSED my subway and dun have the mood to explain why either.

So little time and so many things that have to be done. CATS ppt, BMGT and FMS project haven even touvh on it yet ... MICRO NOTES STIL GOT LIKE A LOT A LOT to write notes on... ITB especially.. i'm like totally lost at ITB!!!! Gosh.... haix....

today my MIEC tutor say tht last yr one of our BFS top student with a GPA of 3.8 couldn get into banking course in SG govt uni.: NUS, NTU.... ZZZzzz. and it's so !!!!!3.8 for accumulated and no space.... wah... then i dunno i can go whr liao sia... :(

Totally LOST at ITB .... so worried man . haix ... and today was a bit wasted... erm .. stil can larh .. at least i did my "minutes" so one thing less to do...

Must finish CATS ppt by tml.... then tml stil got aerobics... No dinner tml man.... Mum's not home to cook.

AH... i wanted to join NP dance. not [NRA] hip hop, not dance sports[ ball room dance] coz both my DAD wun be really happy if i join. wanted to join back contemporary dance... dunno is NP dance also called Contemporary dance... I dun mind... hahas... I really missed the feeling of being on stage. They gona have a performance in april at victoria concert hall. Their dance is smth like those kind of grp dance... u know... er... Horizon? Dance horizon? hahs ... i think they are totally cool.... i wanted to join last time... but my dad dun allow.. afraid tht i cannot cope with my O lvl... I miss MR. BENEDICT SOH and er.... WANG DA lao shi... BUt Mr. soh better hahs .=)

Oh well... i stil haven decide on it yet .. to get myself to commit in it means i must sacrifice many other things.. like time... job.. yah... hahs .

OK. nites ppl! I becoming PANDA liao ... eyebags... ARGH... :(

2008-11-23T23:20:00.002+08:00

I was told abt smth ytd night. Tht leads me to think : Does one judge another based on their wealth? Does being wealthy or not separates 2 person who are in love? DOes beliefs act as an barrier? - PUZZLED totally. maybe someday i will get an ans.

I went to Jurong East library on sat afternoon. did my FMS notes and did MIEC tutorial. Studied alone. Both good and bad. Hungry but JE entertainment closed down le...Wan get food must go very far. SO i only had cornflakes with fresh milk in the morning all the way til 5.
:(

OK. Tues got project to be done. Actually agreed with QQ to go study de... but got BMGT project. OH yah then aft project go with Qi Tiong eat subway! we are subway fans! still searching for ppl to join. he also invited me to make cookies... hmmm i dun mind.. hahas. but er... more ppl go would be better wun it? Oh yah. dad and mum bought a new wardrobe. a HUGE one. hahs. for we 3 of us. both my brothers and i.

tml stil got sch. =) i try to be early! nites ppl!

2008-11-21T22:42:00.001+08:00

Tennis was.. fun today. hahas. =) but arms really aches.
Hmmm. oh yah. she said a NO to him. He also felt better. At least a clean break for him to start all over. Just hope that he can take this time to focus on his studies and dun get distracted.

hahas. today the CATS presentation de balloting i chose 4 . it will be on week 8. e learning wk. i quickly ask for trade. HAha. traded with darren's grp. They are grp 1 - present on wk 7. hahs .they ask why... we said coz we are more or less prepared! and indeed we are almost DONE! hahs .

Oh.... i today wen to meet yun fang. hahs. she's really busy with her work and studies. her attachment is like the pay is so =.= larh. bout $200 only! .... haiz. i so scared for my common test sia...... motivation! i need MOTIVATION!!!!! .....

Todae's recommendation : DAVE PELZER
a. the child call "it"
b. the lost boy
c. the man name dave

It's a super touching story. Memoir. hahs. zzz. REALLY anticipating for my hols to come. All the movies but dunno by tht time wheter it will still be showing. ...

TEST TEST TEST TEST... PROJECTS PROJECTS and PROJECTS!!!!
.... =

Ppl do need comforting words... need a shoulder to lean on.. need support...encouragements, love and care .. SO DO I ! so stop complaining on how BAD u are in. coz u're not! and stop your accusation and whining over the most smallest and trivial things.

lastly .. to GY : i made an effort! hahs. the results will show...! .... in time to come. TRUST ME ... Believe in me =) I will try my very best not to be late! ... hehe u know... : ALWAYS LATE BUT WORTH THE WAIT! =)))

2008-11-21T01:36:00.002+08:00

OK. i am PISSED. okay larh actually. just tht i feel tht he's being USED/ BULLIED.
SHE ! argh.. HE loves her so much and she is like using him.. make him go sch with her. Turn to him only when have probs... then when he ask for patch. she say no... then dunno.
her reason was: NO FEEL! Then break. GOSH how hurt he must have felt so argh.. then so many things happen on 19 nov 2008. If me i think i would have cried whole day instead.

to me.... i think i'm taking his side. CAUSE he's my god brother. A good one. and i dun like the way the gal treats him. like SHIT.

usually i would encourage ppl to get tgt ... coz i think if u wan to get tgt in the 1st place .. then dun break so easily... BUt if for someone who says break or not at the FEEL and just FEEL isnt it like playing ard? OK maybe i have a wrong thinking. I just think a r/s needs commitment too... she cant just do THIS to him.
i dunno her well but... well... frm what i saw tht day ... its really ... BAD!

It's time to let go... Not to let her go... BUT TO LET YOURSELF GO.... i went thru it... it's just being used and torturing urself... it's u who told me to let go.. i did. i have done it aft 8 months , and now i am perfectly ok!
u also can! jia you ! u have so many ppl here for u and rooting for u ...

I believe u can. Ask her for a Ans and ' xiao sa yi dian ' If stil can be friends then ok. if not then suan le. =) Time heals all wounds...

2008-11-20T18:21:00.002+08:00

SO TOUCHING. okays. hahs. I manage to like finish the last few chaps on my way home. I walk home from clementi. SO i read while i walk. When i came to a part at the back .. my eyes went teary... GOSH! and this family of i think 6 ... were walking in the direction towards me. Then all gave me FUNNY looks! ARGH. so paiseh.ZZzzz. hahs! oh yah i say will lend Gi Tiong a story book that is not as thick tml for a start : "THE SUPERNATURALIST" . its by EION COLFER. hahas he also gana influence liaos. and i say will lend yong qiang a story book that is very thick. By JEFFREY ARCHER : "KANE & ABEL"

Both books are REALLY NICE! A REAL HIT man! hahs. one is full of twist and turn. the other full of mystery.
ESPECIALLY the Jeffrey Archer. the story plot is really really really GOOD. and i meant it. READ IT and u'll know.

My shoulder, back and arms muscle are ACHING. Surprisingly my calf didn hurt. hahs. kick boxing is real cool. I taught my younger bro just now and he made a real mess. HE GAVE UP w/o oly after 2 tries. Zzzzz.

Tml will be meeting Yun Fang! yea! and there's tennis tml. Hmmm. oh yah my Cats memebers say meet tml aft class for project. I think ... this grp i'm in nw... even if meet le also cant get much done. None of us have a digi cam and no one wuld lend lah. So i think i will come up with the PPT today first then then in class we edit then split the job thereafter.

2008-11-19T21:38:00.002+08:00

Should've expected it. What am i trying to expect out of it? ZZzzzzz.
Anyway. Wouldn wan be a fool a 2nd time. This time i wun fall for it. I WILL CONTROL CONTROL CONTROL & CONTROL myself. =)

"HOKAY" this word sounds familiar rite? hahs. ALL the best to him getting his RESULTS frm tht SOMEONE tml. Really hope it work out btwn them.
TML IS A BIG DAY MAN!!!! PSLE results!!!
arghhh.... so worried for my younger bro.... zzzzz. really hopes he get good grades man! But he dun seem to care nor to worry abt it. ZZZzzzz
OH. and it's YUN FANG b'dae tml!!! Wahhahah. went "GINZA [ west coast plaza ]" to get smth for her just now. Didn dare to choose a too fancyful one. In case she dun like. She's a simple and nice gal. SO i got smth simple for her too.=))

GOSH. my calf is like aching like dunno what hahs. Think tml will be even worse.!!!!
Went to the gym just now. Crap. it's like a last min lah . ok it goes liddat this:

Class ended @ 3.15pm so i went to find QQ and GY. Continued on with the story book i lent frm yong qiang. It's really nice ar. the story is hmmm.... NICE. hahs . i actually read it out of boredom ytd @ micro tutorial. then i got hooked on it. chiong the book 2 hrs. left like 1/5 of the book. THE LAST AND THE MOST INTERESTING PART!
could have finish the book today de. But aft i went to find QQ.
she suggested to go Gym. i agreed. BUt nv bring towel. CRAP! $2.50 GONE. arggh. hahs. i'm like saving. ZZZZzzzzz

Then aft the gym i went for aerobics - kickboxing. Gosh!
AND I DIDN STRETCH AFT MY RUN. so when doing the kicking. my calf cramp. ZZZZz.

Oh yah. one last thing. I really wanna study and do well man. But i am a slow learner.Zzzz. takes longer time to understand things- theory.
Hmmms.... ARHHGGHHHH. ok. Action speaks louder than words. I shalll STOP here.

2008-11-18T18:17:00.003+08:00

*ROAR* okays. its like 4 hours wasted. Coz tml Bertram got red camp so we were scheduled to do our presentation today aft sch @ 3pm - BLK 56- 05-02 [ Our class ends @ 1pm]

SO our grp went to Our Space to do our last touch up and a dry run. We were @ the venue promptly @ 3pm. WAITED AND WAITED AND WAITED AND WAITED!!!!! till like 4pm we split up 2 went to find her then we went other floors thinking tht we got the wrong venue. THEN we called other tutor and all to locate her[ our tutor]. AT round 5pm she called back. She told Bertram her daughter was sick. SO she was unable to make it the last min. GOSH. THEN HERE WE ARE THINKING THT TML WE NEED NOT GO SCH EARLY FOR HER 3 HRS CLASS. then now.... haix. tml we stil have to go. but bertram will ask for 10 mins off from his red camp thing. *sobs*

That time wasted doing nth is so ..... lah. i could have use it to take afternoon nap/shop for my friends b'dae prez/write notes.

ZZZZzzz. so like no mood liaos. Dun even have the mood to go downstairs to get my dinner... Mum's not home to cook dinner today. She went with granny to the doc to see granny's leg. HAIZ. ARGHHHHHH.

2ndly... I wan to watch madagascar, The good, bad and weird and one more.. eh i dunno the title but the director is the same as the movie of " journey to the centre of the earth". ZZZZzzzz... BUSY BUSY BUSY.

tht's all for today. PRAY HARD tht tml's pressentation will go smooth and well...[ must wear formal AGAIN tml!!! ]

2008-11-17T22:32:00.002+08:00

And i start to REGRET.
STUPID me. Here i am thinking...if in the past i were to hold on we might last til now. hahs. If i had be true to myself @ tht time... IF ONLY. come to think of it. i didn know why i tried so hard to reject. FOr the fun of it? zzzz then blame myself. ought to be punished for having fun at others expense. Well. Now i get jealous. HAHS. Stupid thinkings. IF ONLY i had knew it tht time i wouldn have done so. I would go with my heart. hahas. COme to think of it... 1..2..3... 3 yrs le!!!! round there. Lunar CHINESE NEW YEAR de day 3.... I met you.=) IF ONLY.. then i would be the first to be .... ....

Well... one must LOOK AHEAD!!! hahs=) WISH U HAPPY & blissful my friend!

OK. Movies are lonely. Weather is cold without Hugs.
This morning i was looking thru someone profile and i was like thinking to myself : zzzz hahas. so in need of a gf? DESPO? maybe not to tht extreme.

AND Here i am .... AT times everyone would like someone to care for u. to be there. to hear u crap and to everything.

RARH. hahs . IF ONLY... IF ONLY...

IF ONLY i knew.... i would have be RICH! HAHAHAH. =)))

2008-11-15T23:58:00.002+08:00

SPECIALLY DEDICATED TO HANISAH OF KRSS 4e7'08

AND I DIDN KNOW SOMEONE WAS THERE OUT FOR ME. THX GAL. I READ IT. IT REALLY MEANT SO MUCH TO ME.

WE WERE FRM DIFF COURSES NOW. AND ALL ALONG I WAS GRUMBLING TO MY GOOD FRIND QIAO FENG THT I FEEL SO SAD & LONELY THT I DUN HAVE SOMEONE WHO REALLY CARES FOR ME. ASS. IT'S RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME. IF NOT FOR THE INVITATION TO HER BLOG, I GUESS I'D NV KNOW HOW MUCH I MEANT TO HER AND HOW SHE REMEMBERED EVERYTHING I HAVE DONE.

THE STORY GOES LIKE THIS :

A SPECIAL AND UNIQUE GAL THT JOIN OUR CLASS IN SEC 3.
WHEN I FIRST SAW HER, I DUNNO WHY BUT JUST FEEL LIKE MAKING FRIENDS WITH HER.
I REALLY LIKED HER A LOT. REALLY!!!! I REALLY DO!
THE FIRST GAL I CRIED FOR. HAHAS.
THT TIME SHE TOLD ME THE DOC SAY SHE HAS SOME SERIOUS PROB WITH HER STOMACH AND I WENT HOME GLOOMY.
MY MUM ASKED ME AND I TOLD HER WHAT HAPPEN. MY YOUNGER BRO WAS BSIDE ME AND HE HEARD IT. & MAKE A FUN OUT OF IT.
I WAS SO DAMM ANGRY.
I SHOUTED @ HIM. SCOLDED HIM FOR BEING RUDE AND MEAN. AND CRIED. REALLY CRIED.
MY MUM WAS SHOCKED @ MY ACTIONS (CRYING). DUNNO WHY. BUT SHE JUST MEANT SO MUCH TO ME.

THERE WAS TIMES WE HAD CONFLICT AND DESPITE THT NO MATTER HOW OTHERS SAY ABOUT HER IT DID MOVE MY HEART. SHE STIL TOOK THT SPECIAL PLACE IN MY HEART.

PPL SAY WE WERE NOT MEANT TO BE BEST FRIENDS. DIFF RACE AND ALL... BUT . THT'S THE SPECAIL THING. SHE'S A MIXED BLOOD. MALAY CUM CHING.
BUT THT'S WHY IT MADE HER SPECIAL.

SHE REALLY RAWKS!!!! REALLY REALLY!!!

1.during recess we met to eat EVERYDAY.
2. hanging out EVERYDAY aft class
3.gossip and chat and sat tgt in class
4.met on sats to eat mac breakfast.
5. OUR HASHBROWN WITH MAPLE SYRUP=)
6.she gave me my b'dae prez b4 exam tht day. and bcoz of tht i did well in tht paper. [ coz we were like having a confict tht period of time and we like sort of didn talk to each other ] and i was so elated. not becoz of the prez but becoz she wan to talk to me again!!! hahs .
7. she always was there for my rubbish [ i am a very very very talkative gal ]
8. AND SHE WAS MY BEST BEST BEST FRIEND!!!!

HANISAH!!!!!
A GAL THT GAVE ME UNFORGETTABLE MEMORIES AND LEFT HER FOOTSTEPS IN MY LIFE AND A PLACE IN MY HEART ALWAYS!!!!

i'm glad she found a best friend in her poly now. tan yi lin. hahs . almost same name as me. i;ve seen her b4. She's a nice gal.=) and i am so glad she also will stand up for NIS when she gana bully. AND so glad she found a friend tht will er.. PROTECT her. as in i think erm how to sae. aiyah i understand can liao. but i forget tht guy name. HE 's er big size. i joined them for dinner once @ burger king. HE's a nice chap. a good friend of NIS. SO GLAD for her. NIS is a gal tht really needs protection. hahs. SHE's nice and ppl tend to bully her.

GAL GET WELL SOON. hahs the weather really is BAD. remember to drink lots of water and take your meals on time!!!
I will root for you on monday.
WILL PRAY FOR U!!!
ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR PRACTICAL TEST!!!
u can de!!!! i have faith in you. =))))

2008-11-10T22:34:00.000+08:00

Now i know how lonely feels like and how it feels like to be a fool right from the beginning.
ok this 2 things are separate issues. Anyway i see how typical human being can be.

DUnno why but i cannot find back tht kind of CLOSENESS i felt when i was in sec sch. Friends. So far... the only one who is able to stand all my rubbish, talkativeness and hear me pouring out all my heart breaking issues is HER.

We went through a tough time though and our differnt streams separated us. Ppl who're jealous also spread rumours and that put our friendship to a test. But we made it thru. However it took a very long time. and it is only aft tht time our friendship went to a nxt lvl.

We are like 2 extreme ends. She does not favour sports and not active, quiet and introvert but a very patient and also has a heart tht cares for extreme ppl. She went to Nursing. Actually we couold have been tgt but it was bcoz of a teacher tht was biase ... it change her LIFE.

However i could see that she's very happy with her current life now. We stil stay as Good friends. How i wish she's in the same class as me... So i could pour out everything to her. Well. HAHA.

Another GREAT friend is another HER . She is one who's almost the same as me. We talk we giggle. We gossip, we share and we did every other thing. She was ONE who always studied with me even aft O lvl and we really kept in good contact. We played Basket ball tgt and studied for 'O's tgt and i taught her A and E math and more while she teach me Science- chem and Phy.

HAix. how i miss those days where we competed with each other and many more. I miss you gals. NO more days of the past. SADD-ED.

ANYway they ARE : YUN FANG AND YIXIN.

GALS tht left impact in my life : GRACE, YUN FANG, YIXIN , HANISAH, WINIFRED - gals of my life! You guys rawks! hahs

2008-11-02T20:47:00.000+08:00

CAN U BELIEVE IT!!!
My com crash on tues 28/10/2008!!!

I was using my laptop in the morning during class and it was perfectly FINE!!! The next min i switched it on at OUR SPACE it was stil ok ... then SUDDENLY the screen turns WHITE entirely. Then nth more can be done.

DAD reprimanded me... say it might be virus... zzzz. TEARS fllowed la... so scared need $$$ to repair.. ltr so ex! ONLY guarantee for hardware not soft ware... I called and e person came down for an on-site repair. It was the LCD screen tht was faulty! NTH TO DO WITH ME! hahs =P

Tml is the day!!! BCOMM "interview" speaking to the class as if all the 43 ppl out there are my future boos (my interviewer)... SO.. ZZZZzzz hahs . LTR TML I GO OUT THERE SHAKE... hope not. =)

Wah now a days i really spend loads man. movie shopping and everything.. fri ends at 12 and it like SHOOPING day! hahs. kor say wan go gym this sat. DUNNO really anot. ltr he last min change his mind again! zzzz!!!

Tht's it for today! ALL THE BEST TO ME TML!!! =) JIA YOU JIA YOU AND JIA YOU!

2008-10-25T01:31:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday GAL!!! happy 17th to GUAN YU !!!!

Went to watch High Sch Musical 3 with GY at Lido. I only watch part of the part 2 so actually i was a bit reluctant.. HAHS.. BUT ... it's her b'dae and she wanted to watch it so badly. But after watching it... IT WAS REALLY NICE... The songs and the dances... Ahhh..so feel like going back to dance once again... But i want to try out other sports like tennis.. squash.. kickboxing which i nv tried b4 in the past and tht's why i'm learning them now.. And tht's why i dun have time for dance... I actually stil wanna learn Fencing.. Taekwando.. and many more... *very greedy hor?*

I stil rmb-ed i once told my instructer tht dance was my passion.. Although i'm not in dance anymore.. But i stil dance at home sm times( when i'm alone at home ).. hahas. i guess i stil prefer Contemporary Dance. Maybe i shall try Ballroom dance in future. .. hee.

Oh ya.! S&W 1st lesson 2dae. It's raning and we stil went out to play in the field. I was DRENCEHED. in fact everyone was... hahs but it was a nice experience to play tennis in the rain..
ANd yah!!! i was ask to bring laptop for CATS and in the end... NV USE AT ALL!!!! RARH...

My legs were like sore from aerobics and sholder from the heavy backpack i'm carrying...
(this few days i was like asking either GuanYu or Shun hiang to piggyback me frm one side of overhead bridge to the other.. - and i almost got a scolding frm her..=P ) HAHAS...Hee.

[ just as i've guessed.. it's cold there. You must take good care. really(: ]

2008-10-23T01:03:00.002+08:00

So actually it's not meant to be mine... BUt Mr.Ong say i deserve it... Do i really?... Tht issue bother me quite a lot.. EMO-ed the whole night ytd aft seeing Mr.Ong aft my Aerobics-kickboxing class.

But i guess luckily he told me.. Yah .. it was NOT MEANT TO BE MINE.... But cause "i deserve it" in his eyes... Well i will change my way of and see how others go abt answering exams qns. I will learnt and i'll try my very very best and make sure if i eva get it again .. it's bcoz i REALLY DESERVE IT.

WHoo.. Tml's tennis.. =))) hahs. Weather is rather cold nowadays.. My tummy is not very kind to me eh.. ):
Tml ends @ 12... and i stil gotta bring my laptop along. SIANZ. BIG SIANZ. Oh yah!!! i bought my Squash racquet today!!!! hahahs.. Can go meet Claudia to play this sat at serangoon there liaos!! HEEs..

It's so COLD now... The water is icy cold. I just took a bath without switching on e water heater... ICY SHIVERING-ly COLD but very shiok... One very good way of de-stressing..
LOads of projects waiting for me... Loads and loads.. ):

To HS: " shou de yun kai jian qing tian. Rest assure she'll come back to you ... jia you! you've my support!"

[ it must be rather cold there... do take care of yourself (: ]

2008-10-18T12:06:00.001+08:00

White base de not as nice rite??? ):

But luckily the stipes are black!! they dun have it in other colour... ):

Oh there was actually a dark grey base with pink stripes but the person say tht shoe is a hard core shoe for trail run... those uneven ground those kind.. and it cost $212. I was actually aiming at the Salomon shoe ..black base green stripes.. SUPER NICE!!!! but tht brand de shoe is all hard core shoe... No very suitable for sports and normal runs.. SO .. too bad for me.

It's saturday!!! I have been spending quite erhem alot i think ): RARh! and i got smth very PEK CHEK to share!!! Blame it on my indecisiveness. I saw this Charles&Keith so called shoe (It's smth like sandal) @ wisma abt er..2 and a half weeks ago. At that point of time i just bought a slipper @ dmk the previous day so i thought of considering first. Moreover i got a $10 voucher of Capitaland mall de. So i thought tht i could go IMM to buy on the first day of sch during tht 4 hours. Then! When i went.. i found out tht there was no C&K there!!!! so i made a mistake. On Wed i went to orchard PS to look for the shoe. They have it in 3 colour : black, gold and white. I was aiming at the black one. Budden the sales person say they dun have my size le.. So on that same day i went down to Bugis...[ I bought a Zinc backpack there also..(: ] RARH!!! the C&K there have alrdy totally sold out tht model liao larh!!! )): Then on Fri which is ytd i went to Suntec- citylink de C&K ... They have size 7 .. It fits... But the cutting was rather small so i thought tht if it was bigger it would be nicer... But they dun have 8 le.. So i went to Marina sq de... They dun even have tht model la.. so i left my name and they say they would call me if the stock comes in AGAIN!!! zzzz.. Sianz diao. ))):

I bought a Adidas running shoe ytd. CAuse aft watching 'Eagle Eye' at suntec w Guan Yu i went down to ViVo to meet SH. The Adidas there dun have the size of my shoe .. So they made a reservation @ Suntec for me.. Then i went back again!!! WHoa... Tedious leh.. HAHAs. Finnaly i bought it. But there's smth i wanna say abt... Most of their ladies running shoe de colour is white base de... I bought SuperNova' cuase it's recommended under SHAPE magazine. Cost me $172 lah... I like everything abt it except the colour... I wanted smth tht has a dark coloured base with bright coloured stripes ..ONLY THE GUYS RUNNIONG SHOE HAVE LA!!!! RARh!!!!! haiz. hahas. But ok la... the shoe is super comfortable. Nice!!! ANd i bought a tube at fox today. sianz. $$$$... ANd i stil needa buy a Squash racquet... i promise Claudia tht i would play with her @ serangoon garden the Burgly drive there de squash court this Sat... Then shun bian go see granny and Aunt at aunt house. So many things to do... hahs. Overall i'm happy. tht's the mian point (:

2008-10-15T03:23:00.000+08:00

Guan Yu! Took this on Mon. Erm ytd ytd. Haha. at JE interchange. During our 4 hr break.
Me and Mummy!!! Mummy wasn't feeling well these few days. Hope she get well soon. Love u mummy!!!

This is Melvin. He was a ex-Nee Ann-ian. He's taekuando black belt de. (:
This is Zun wen. Me and Claudia was assigned to help him is GE.

This is Joyce!!! hahs. she care lots bout me! always ask me to sms her when i reach home. coz i always OT. =)
This is Sarah! 19. TP!
This is Claudia! hahas. Also in Tp. I meeting her this Sat!
This is Irene!!!! i was also assigned to help her do part of her things!! i always get her the spinach Melon!!! Yummy.

This is Yu Fang. I knew her at GE! SHe's in NP Acc. Just saw her today!!! hahs. SHe's a damm on gal man. hahs.
Shun Hiang!!!! HAHa. we in same class. coz we were working on the day of choosing classes. We ask our friend to help . But was too late so QQ and GY same class. Me and SH one class.
Dun Qi, Claudia, Me, Jacky! Dun qi is teh oldest among us- 22. Jacky is 21. Claudia is 18 and me is 17!!! hahs. both dun qi and jacky is contract staff!!! for 6 months. =))

This is Jie ZHi!!!!! Yu FANg elder sis. She's really a very nice gal!!!! very good to me also!!! =)))

Goodbye. You'd left w/o a word. The 2 months at GE was fruitful.. kept my mind off u. HAHAs. Met many ppl and made many friends of all kinds. BAck to sch now and the first week was rather relaxing still. Tml there's no sch. Going to hand in time sheet at Taka. Stil didn get my running shoes yet. I went to IMM on mon during tht 4 hr break. but!!! they dun have my size for both the adidas shoe i was aiming on!!!! then the shop assistant was like a bit blur de.. ask her which one better for absorbing shock and for long distant run.. she was like. "ER... can ah can ah.I think so. ER.. Can la." ZZZZZzzzz. then in the end they only got like size 4,5 left.. so i tot i'll go to ViVO and see. I went to Queensway to search for it. But there seems so luan. I wasn very familiar with tht place too.. Kor said he'll bring me to get my shoe coz he use to get his shoes there... BUt... He's on attachment then not free. On weekends he got his own activities then sumtimes he's juz to tired so i jus keave him at home to rest instead of pestering him.

When i went to search for my running shoes.. It reminded me of you... You said b4 tht when the nxt time i were to buy my running shoe i should buy Adidas and u'll cum along with me to help me choose. Even i hope to ask out now as a friend to acc me to get it.. i guess i cant. Coz u're no longer w/in reach. You said we still can be good friends to study tgt and go for movies and chat. But u nv did look for me. As for me .. i wasnt sure if u're with 'her' so i didn wan to create unwanted misunderstanding. On my b'dae... I was so hoping for a msg from u ... hoping tht u would rmb ... but the msg nv come.

The next thing i know was tht u weren't in SG. u didn even tell me u were leaving.

Tht night i knew i thought abt you. Abt how i tried to get to know you months ago. B4 those beautiful memories can be sealed.. On tht day. Tht 'day' when i saw u with her. Then i tot abt what u said the previous day tht u weren't going to sch. Beatiful lies. But the fact tht when i saw u with her.. the laughter on your face was smth i nv saw b4 when we went out. Tht moment aft i saw u guys i almost cried out. Affected by it i went for my DSS exam.

I started to piece things tgt. Those msn nicks... lil things she said abt u... and the laughter when i saw u with her. I now suddenly realise actually i have many qns for u.. but whenever we chat i seem to forget tht i got smth to ask u..and u nv did clarify.

Well! the me now will not be stuck in the past! "shun qi zi ran" hahs. I wish u well and do take care of yourself! I guess i can no longer hope to bump into u on the roads. hahs. If u do stil treat me as a good friend.. Ask me out for a movie when u cum back. i think i shall be having the long hols by then. But only do ask me if u mean it. DUN be like last time.. say wan to meet up when u cum back after yr trip on wed . in the end! everthing change. I stil have the book mark. Will read more books .. motivation. hahs. By tht time hope to see you in a more "man" and mature outlook yea! (:

2008-09-04T23:04:00.000+08:00

Now then i realise that Daddy have quite an interest for wine... That day i wen to ah yiie (aunt) house. She got a few bottle of wine... Got Bailey's, Scotch Whisky, Wincarnis and some some bottle of wine. The other time i came we drank up the small bottle de. SO we open the Wincarnis. She poured into the two small bottle.. one bott for kor and one for me.. Then i drank a cup there. Nice. But only i drank coz we are going Compass Point for shopping tht Sun afternoon. So she cant drink coz she's driving. But she say next time then can open the Scotch Whisky. Actually she should'n have poured it into the two other bott. hahs . must drink for the original bott nicer.. hee.

Oh yah then Mum showed me Dad collection of wine!!!! OMG i didn know lah. Dad got 2 big bottle of MARTEL , HENNESY X.O also got bott. MUM say all our wine is more then 15 years old. SOme even 20 liaos. coz they got it when they got married and they didn open it and kept til now. ANd dad got Brandy, Remy Martin , Scotch Whisky also. ANd this Wild Vines-Peach Chardonnay! And this Johnnie Walker Blue label wine. Dad say it cost a bomb! HAHA. And there are stil many more but in the glass cupboard but i lazy go take out the things coz all the wine is behind all the things. Some may think i very 'xiao ti da zhuo' But to me... I think its very interesting coz i nv knew daddy had such a collection and yah all so herm u know hahs. I will try it one day !!!

Counting down ard 10 more days to getting my results... Whosh .. Feel the rush ? hahas. I a bit she bu de my GE colleagues. A bit too early? No lah.. at the though of leaving have 'she bu de' de lorr... Definitely mah.. haix . ANw hoppe TT will give brith to a CHuBBY Cute boii.. JOyCE to find her happiness and Zun Wen also !!!( heys my msg to u : smoking dun solve any prob.. I dunno what kinda prob u face but... i think well dun think too much bout it!!! and u always have yr friends ard u to share and talk to!!! I know u 'gai xie gui zhen le' hahs and i believe u can cont'd on rite? JIAYOU eh !! I will support u !!!
ps. i will try to not call u "oei" and be A BIT more respectful. ( but actually u not very old lor... hah. if i respect u means u one generation older then me liaos lei !!! got so old de meh!!! our age gap is my brothers age gap lei !!)

2008-08-30T23:31:00.002+08:00

It has been a week since i started working at Great Eastern. The first 2 days were rather boring... Then i knew Joyce, Zun Wen and Tiffany. We all sat at each corner of tht working area. haha. They are REALLY NICE ppl. Direct but nice and fun. First few days i went lunch with the other temp staff ... until i change my seat frm behind to close to them where i am sitting now. Then we lunch tgt. We order KFC in for lunch, walk to the cicular rd there for lunch, hong lim food centre and there's a fruit stall tht they frequent. HAHA. I think i wan to try out at golden shoe i think. I heard frm my bro tht the food there is rather nice especially the nasi lemak.

Been working OT all these days... ahhs .. But can earn extra cash haha. Oh then ytd night which is fri night... I stayed with Joyce and Zun Wen til 9pm then we walk over to Clark Quay where all pubs is located there..Tiffany didn join coz she's pregnant so hah she's going home. she's a young pretty and energetic mother to be. We went to the "Da Wan Zhou" which is big bowl porridge to eat. But only left 2 bowls so we be nice by ordering one bowl for me and joyce to share then Zun Wen eat noodle so the other table can have the other bowl of porridge. We ordered some side dishes also. Then i went home. Reach home at abt 12 am liaos.

I met them again today at chinatown point mac for breakfast. I went back to GE today for OT cause got a lot of things to clear also. Monday will be hectic. I haven file in all the cases and monday stil got all the despatch for all the bout 7 to 8 types of protector to despatch. Whoo... Lot of work eh. hahs. But I L:IKE IT. haha though busy but its better than nth to do. =))

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to JASMINE LOH SAN SAN . hahs , it's her bdae today!!!! May all your wishes come true!!! See ya soon.

I think i seriously is depriving of sleep. hahs. I AM really tired. tht's how work is isn't it ? hahs . sort of good in some ways... My mind is occupied and no time for me to think of other things. No time for emo also . hahs =))
Oh yah next thurs is JOYCE bdae le... hahs think there'll be celebration for her among us. =))

2008-08-21T22:43:00.002+08:00

My mood is so easily affected. I feel so down now. Sadd totally. Just had a quarrel with mum over my attire for tml first day of work... My dun like me to wear all black.. Inauspicious... ZZZZZZzzzz. But tht's what ppl wear wad... she say change to white pants.. I did and she sae even worse...coz WHITE and BLACK. haix... How i wish we didn quarrel.. I dun like quarrels. I;m alrdy feeling not vry well and RARH. WHy is there quarrels in the world in the first place... It's just a attire. I lost all the mood. EVRY bit of it.

Went through so many er calls of various vacancies offered to me.. SOme stil require interview. I finally settled on a admin job at Great Eastern. Hope everything goes well tml. My 4th job in my life so far... The previous ones gave me valuable experience of the ppl in the working world.. prepared. I am.

Went to watch Journey To The Centre Of The Earth. A very very very nice show.. Wanted to watch it once it had come out. But was having exams... Cool rite? today just ended exams and tml is starting work... hahs. actually they wanted me to work today right after my exam .. But i think i need at least half a day break... HMMM wanted to watch the 3D version of the journey to the centre of the earth de... But it cost more and i'm saving... so yah watch the normal one instead.

Watch over me. May everything be alright.

2008-08-20T18:29:00.002+08:00

TML!!! the last paper le. WAH HAHA. i really study till *siao* liaos. haha. Receive a call just now. hope eveything will be ok tml. tml then i elaborate more... Now i'm printing past exam paper so tou lan blog yi xia... the whole afternoon did nth. Wanted to take a nap but ... shui bu zhao... ZZZzzz.

How long then we will get to know our results leh? korr say will send msg to us de... bout 3 weeks to one month... got so long ma.... haha. okiez.
i'll try to go online after tml!!!! =)) okiez?

2008-08-16T20:00:00.002+08:00

That blissful smile on their face.What more can i ask for. May they be happy and blissful(:

Fri 15/8/2008 marks the start of my first Semester Examination in my poly life!! hahs. The next examination is on tuesday. Went to orchard on fri... and yah .. still waiting..
Hope i will get a call asap on 21-23.

Fetch Bro to Yew Tee for his tuition today.. Sat 188 to CCK and change to 302. HE was complaining and complaining for the long bus ride.. He dun like to sit bus. But i like! ahhs ... He want take MRT! But we both bus concession lei! Dun use .. then buy concession for wad... Anw i sat @ mac while he's having tuition. I really really really hate and sux at POA theory ):
The previos POA common test i got 0 for the last question tht's totally on theory.. ANd tht cost me 10 marks!!!! RARH... IT's the theroy that cost me. ): ZZZzzz... I shall *pia* on my theory.. =)
haha. Then i bought him a waffle after his tuition then we sat bus home again!!! HAHAHA. i bought him sweet to pacify him... fancy pacifying a P6 boii. hahs .=P
Oh then mummy called! She ask us to change to another bus and go home by taking 189 then can alight at west coast market there. Coz actually we shuld be alighting at AYE there de... BUt if we take tht route we'll walk past erh... the 'thing'. COz My blk got one Old man i think jump down. then alot of police... My dad called home to tell mum when he's on his way out today. .... Then my younger bro also scared .. so we change bus lor. hahs . We played so many lame games lar... like scissors-paper-stone. Lose le bit hand. HAHA.

Okie! tht's it. JIA YOU TO ALL WHO'S HAVING EXAMINATION NOW! AND TO MYSELF TOO!!! =)

2008-08-10T12:00:00.000+08:00

Life is a mystery to unravel. Not a problem to solve.

Learnt to take things in stride. Granted the serenity to the things i cannot change, courage to the things i can and wisdom to differentiate.

Yet another day!!! hahs. Went over to aunt hse on sat evening. took bus 165 @ 7.30pm to serangoon north. AUnt was over at xiao jiu (uncle) hse, so i alighted outside Bowen sec and my aunt drove over to fetch me to her house! hahs. HOME GROUND. hee. Was watching the olympics till late night. It's the men's prelimary round for gymnastic. their performance was so good!!! hahs . i so enjoyed it. there was basket ball de also but i like to watch gymnastics better. If my grandpa is still alive... he would sit and watch the whole day ... especially on soccer, hahs. Grandma likes to watch gymnastic de also .. but xiao jiu hse de scv dun have 3 digit de channel. all the olympics games are from 601 to 606 i think.hahs . round there. Watch "protege" and "绝世好滨" then i go to slp. it's alrdy 2.45am . =X

Woke up at 8.15am. Met yan ling for breakfast @ hougang there. Then we met hup song @ tamp to play badminton. Wosh. hahs . sadd-ed no basket ball. if not can play. Anw, hup left @ 1. He gg for church at 3. His gf didn koin us today... her leg stil injured.=( *get well soon!* me and yl went home took same bus: 72. I reach aunt hse at 2 sharp. Missed the womens gymnastic, manage to catch the last part only!. SO astounding man ! Aunt alrdy cooked the sweet potato for me. i peeled off the skin and YAY! it tatse so good!!!! my grandma buy de. Then tht day xiao jiu season the beef... today ah yiie (aunt) cook. whoa! so nice . ahahs I didn take lunch so aunt cooked maggie for me. she added abt 7 prawns!!! got 3 very very very very big de!!!! it's brought in frm malyasia by our distant relatives tht live near the seaside- selangor pasang. the prawns are realy huge man. Cant get it anywhr else in s'pore hahs. the soup is so sweet la. heehee. heavenly mans! Waht a sumptous lunch.

Then i did one B.stats test paper then .. tht's it!!! it's 5 plus liaos. Bathe. Aunt drove me to busstop op bowen sec. she going over xiao jiu hse for dinner. Xiao jiu and his wife took grandma out today to orchard walk walk then to fish farm. He went to get all the fish, prawns, frogs( small small de) for so many of his Arowana fish to eat. coz he leaving for new zealand on 13 with his wife. Granny gona be lonely. i'll try to accompany her when i finish my exams. took 165 home. I am so TIRED tht i fell asleep on the bus. zzzz. luckily 165 stop @ interchange. Hahs but i manage to wake up 2 stops b4 tht .=P.. Ate an orange and apple for dinner!!! just nice.
coz lunch was really heavy.

Looked frm the other angel and put myself in their shoes. Now i know. if i were u i would have done so. Just like what i have done b4. No blames so dun push. Different angle projet diff views. HAHS. I WILL AND I CAN coz I BELIEVE.

2008-08-07T18:40:00.003+08:00

This is Ginger!!! It's a He!!! Golden retriver! Boii he's huge:) BUt he's still very young.

This is Rusty!!! It's a she! jack russell.(spelled correctly?) She's... erm "quite" SENIOR...

Went over to uncle ugene (call him xiao jiu) hse on SUN. His wife ( i call her : ah kim ) is a dog lover!!! ANd my uncle is a fish lover. his fish cost a bomb man. Just the tanks... *faint* .. HAHAs. At first i was quite scared of Ginger... HE IS SO HUGE!!! AND he licks a lot!!!! Howevr he's so erm loving? hahs. after a while i'm use to it. He doesnt bark like rusty does. But nowadays Rusty dun bark much either.. She's getting on her age.. AND the other main factor.. she is really FAT! hahs.cant help it as every body loves her so much tht all kept feeding her. :) She's one cute one!!! hahs... Loads to say man.. BUt i lazy to type le..

Haven touch my com for quite a few days le.. since erm last sat? or was it fri? Can't help it. I do work better at night and i sleep in the morning :) hahs .. Afternoon naps are good :) SO.... i do my work at night till midnight.. round erm 2 plus am. hahs. then lazy go touch com le. no choice! *hee* RARH... Played CS and i'm a noob @ it man! hahs ... STil can lah.. But not nice to play.. Make me dizzy only. HAHA. i shall try dota soon. Gosh i really 'pia' for my POA and MAEC .. so many test paper.. But luckily ... i manage to finish up b4 today's revision tutorial and lecture. IF not i sure blur de.. NOW only left Business Law haven touch .. wah... a lot sia...): the thought of it makes me shrink. OH YAH!!! The budget speech really alot sia!!!! dunno how many many many pages sia... The file is so big tht it has to split into 3 word doc. omg!!! printed it out and it really freak me out. BUT!!! hahs... after reading it wasn't THAT intimidating... It is just the 5 policy and 4 key thrust. JUST a lot of elaboration.

Tml... Tot of going to sch for self study alone. hmmm hope Nis can make it for dinner with me. hahs . Always wanted to meet up and i nv had the time. Last week coz i was haven DSS exam.. SAT is National Day le!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!! I'm a singaporean and i'm proud i'm one.