Wednesday, April 30, 2008
I am realli tired... totally exhausted... both mentally and physically... friends.. sch work ... him... its driving me crazy... some sae i think too much ... some sae i adding too much stress to myself... yea... i think so too... too stressful till i dunno if i can continue... for me i think... in life there's 3 types of person u cann turn to when u have prob to share or someone to talk to and lean against ... close family members... true friends... yr boiifriend..
but in the event tht u are single ... u turn tu either yr family or yr true friend... butt sometimes matters at heart are hard to share with family members and they might have their own prob to solve... so true friends... what are true friends??? i start tu have doubts...
i have some prob (not vry nice u devulge or post here) with this friend of mine...
butt all i cann sae is tht somethimes i wonder if i ever stand a place as a friend in her heart... or just a life buoy ( back-up tyre ) of hers??? do i even stand a place in anyone's heart??? sometimes hi byee friends u cann have loads of em... when u wan find someone tu talk ??? to share yr prob?? u'll find tht u're pathetic with no one tu turn to....
life is of good and bad i believe... and evry thing has both sides to it... it depend how u view it and from which angle... maybe i've looked at things from the wrong side thus resulting in my negative thinking... butt sometimes u'll really feel like stopping and all...
QQ told me to fight for my own happiness... butt i've always always hope and wished tht i get tu receive the words of liking from the other party first b4 a relationship starts ... afraid of being rejected ... being hurt if u had said it first and the guy had not realli liked u ... and leads to a break gradually which i saw friends of mine experiencing it... in her relationship with tht guy... she loves him so much tht the guy is dominating and she's the one who does the pacifying even when she's not in wrong.. just to make him stay... isn't this type of relationship painful?? i dunno... maybe different ppl diff views and in diff circumstances... maybe i'm wrong.. i not very experience thus dun wan to comment so much on others since i'm in a mess myself... i was encourage by my friends to tell him my feelings... and if i get rejected so be it... go on and look for my true happiness... butt to even get the words out of my mouth or even type it ... its hard... evrybody is diff... i have my own views and fear... thx for all the friends tht have encourage me and help me... yes i will try ... but tu realli confess ... (我怕我做不到) but its like 明知故问... since he has alrdy shown no interest in me liao.. then wad for... butt they sae : at least u can have a definite ans and can stop guessing... and move on... .... ....
i
am
collapsing...
it ended @ 11:52 PM
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Just finish my blaw tutorial... the tutor is so ... erm hahs ..i duno... he called on sean, wang dan, clarice then me... i was like yes?? then he ask me a qns ... b4 tht he asked clarice qns and the way he phrases the sentence ... i dunno haha.... sound like so hard to understand what's the ans he realli wants... so when he called : zann... i was like ... yes ? then he ask me what is the most common thing in normal daily life agreements... i was .. er benefits to both parties?? then he said : u wann a clue?? yes!yes! hahs i like so zzz... then he said .. vitamin m... money!!! hahs i replied... then all the powerpoint presentations... we ended at bout 3.30 pm half an hour earlier than expected ... went to 'our space' butt couldn get to find a seat ... so we sat at the area with seats op blk 56 at the canteen 1 underground pass there... hahas.. ltr having dss workshop .. its a make-up for this mon... as the teacher was sick on mon.. 5-7 pm... zzzz sianx... haha...
Today was qingqing birthday ... happy birth day gal!! hahas ... i think friends are impt... they are a type of moral support for u if u meet any prob or wish to talk to soomeone... hahas ... i was supposed to meet her today as usual b4 we go to sch... at 0820... butt i reach there at onli bout 0845... =(( hahas butt it was becoz ii was wrapping her prez in the morning... nicenice der hahas... it was shared by me, guan yu and shun hiang... hahas ... hope she likes it... oh ya... ytd aft lecture ... she told me to go home and think thru it... then ask myself what action wuld i like to take... then go ahead and whateva the outcome... dun try to go think about it again... butt went shooping for her prez aft ach ytd at imm and brought a top at esprit ... took such a long time choosing her prez sia... i was with guan yu... i took liking to some tops at fox butt i think a bit flimsy eh ... ahhas... ( those tht i like ar ) then i went tu espirit tu take a look... i saw this black top which i like a lot... then i start to think... coz i also like this top at giodano... it is like a see tru top ... very thin .. butt material quite good... wearing a tube or somthing inside wuld be vry nice... actually tried it on the other time... ( some weeks ago) butt the price was like $49.90 ... its like $49.90 for a see thru top like this is not worth it at all... and no one's gona buy and the price wuld definitly drop... yea.. true enuf... ytd wen i went it was like $39.90... i actually tot of buying it... ahahs but i choose the esprit top ...i really like it a lot and its only ( $23.90) so hahs ya .. got it... at first onli left L and XL ... cos its smth like spagetti stripe then i went tu try L... super big larr... then i left saddly... the second time i pass by tht shop i saw the meniqueen wearing it .. ahhas then i told the shop assisstant to get it for me... its a m... went tu try it.... haha... yea it fits.. hahs .
sent guan yu to the mrt station and took 51 home alone.. i thought thru things... butt luckily i was feeling hungry and didn hav the energy to think so much except food! haha.
Took my dinner once i reach home.. then started on my tutorial qns... got loads to finish for todays lesson.. finally i manage to get him off my mind... think tht if my mind is occupied i will do less thinking on these kindof things.. hahs.. butt still couldn control myself and went online... butt tht was aft i finish my work le. butt onli for a while... i printed the doc. my bro wan and my blaw notes. and i saw the nick of one of my og grp... he's attached le i think.. hahas gong xi gong xi hahas. as me me... i saw tht he's online... butt i shan't think about it ... so i logged off le... hahas i manage to do it... guess all i need to do is tu restrict myself ba... =)) heys i have like blogg so much eh... nth to do marrh.. =)) gtg for dss soon le .. bb=))
it ended @ 3:54 PM
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Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Feel so sian now... 2 hours of break... class starting at 3... the way i see all my friends working so hard... i felt so bad... i'm so lazy... but just whine wuld be of no use... action speaks louder than words..
these few weeks .. i feel tht i am foolish, stupid and totally wasting my time... foolish enuf to
go online evry night and surf the net for nth...hoping he wuld send me a msg to start a conversation ... i even gave upp my favourite tv ... usually i would watch tv till late midnight then go to sleep... now ... why i'm so foolish... stupid? i am totally wasting my time... i shuld hav taken tht time tu revise my lecture notes ... read upp on my tb ... do my tutorial qns.. instead of letting him fill up my mind... butt actually its just abt few weeks .. the like is not vry vry strong since its one-sided... am i able to give him upp? sometimes cant even concentrate in lectures since the lectures are so boring and dry ... i tend to drift off and eventually feel sadd as he fill my mind.. hahas.. always say wan fang qi butt couldn... trying vry hard le... i have went thru this kindof pain 2 yrs ago and it lasted for abt 2 yrs ... a fruitless wait in the end... its pain enuf and i dun wan to go thru it again.. wann tu get out of it now while i have not gone so deep into it ... thou its not gona be easy ... butt i'll try ... sometimes really hope tht someone would just come along to take me away to somewhere where i 'm protected and totally loved.. studies shuld actually be my main focuse for now... i noe.. butt sometimes feeling cant be controlled... after 2 yrs ... i finally found the feeling of liking someone... yet it turn out tu be hurtful... painful... ... someone... guide me back... i'm lost ... lost ...
it ended @ 2:19 PM
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Monday, April 28, 2008
zzz... what a day ... Went to sch abt 1.5 hours earlier ( class starts at 10am ), just to complete my dss hmwk as i have difficulty so does QingX2 so we decided to meet upp. we went straight to ' our space ' ... ... time passes so quickly .. abt 9.45am sean msn me tht class is cancelled... i was like er... is this a joke ? or a prank... haha coz my sec 4 class was super pro at this kindof pranks.. unsure of it we went up to class and yea... class was cancelled... =( .. does tht means a make up lesson?? went have super early lunch ( 10: 45 am) at canteen 1 with Guan yu, Shun Hiang, Bing Han and QQ. i printed out the whole week notes for them to photocopy...=) hehe i nice rite..=)) haha. then here comes the furious part ... we went to 'our space' to continue with our dss hmwk. at the last section of my dss hmwk ... the most tedious and the needs the most researh on info...when i've i just collated most of the hard-found info .... .. POWER FAILURE!!!! ( i think short circuit or what) the whole place when dark... most saddening. my com went *out* ... ( i didn brin my batt) All my info was like... lost! All the web pages and the table and info and whateva in my excel.. my immediate reaction was like ... WAH!!!! then i made a big commotion .... it seems like in tht study room only i was affected as all the others
have their batt... no mood liao ... cant do the dss anymore... to 心痛 to continue liao ... dun have the enthusiasm to do it again... and luckily i didn restart and do it again... shortly aft ... the power was back and within moments it went out again... haha...
today was a vry long, dry and tiring day ... partly becoz of the weather i think..attended BSTA lecture and POA lecture... both lecture are vry dry ... at the starting i was like dozing off... catch no balls.. hah... butt manage tu follow upp aft tht... sweets and choc is wad kept me going.. u cann always find either sweets or choc with me..=)) hahs.. then the poa was like totally zzzzz la...the tutor spend abt 40 mins going thru wad has been taught last week and kept repeating... then the more complicated part she was like rushing thru... and we did the exercise.. then .... *pomp* class dismissed! hahas... evryone cheered.. i was like super no mood le... dunno why ...=(( came home .. bathe... went for dinner with family downstairs... and finish my dss hmwk ... then i blogg!! hahas... sunshine me..=)) smiles evry one... fill evry moment of yr life with a smile as bez as u cann!! :)
have their batt... no mood liao ... cant do the dss anymore... to 心痛 to continue liao ... dun have the enthusiasm to do it again... and luckily i didn restart and do it again... shortly aft ... the power was back and within moments it went out again... haha...
today was a vry long, dry and tiring day ... partly becoz of the weather i think..attended BSTA lecture and POA lecture... both lecture are vry dry ... at the starting i was like dozing off... catch no balls.. hah... butt manage tu follow upp aft tht... sweets and choc is wad kept me going.. u cann always find either sweets or choc with me..=)) hahs.. then the poa was like totally zzzzz la...the tutor spend abt 40 mins going thru wad has been taught last week and kept repeating... then the more complicated part she was like rushing thru... and we did the exercise.. then .... *pomp* class dismissed! hahas... evryone cheered.. i was like super no mood le... dunno why ...=(( came home .. bathe... went for dinner with family downstairs... and finish my dss hmwk ... then i blogg!! hahas... sunshine me..=)) smiles evry one... fill evry moment of yr life with a smile as bez as u cann!! :)
it ended @ 9:59 PM
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Sunday, April 27, 2008
Trying vry hard to understand... have i understood??? ... waiting is indeed a painful process... so painful tht sometimes i dunno whether i can continue waiting... to take the lead and tell tht someone yr feelings isn't as simple as it is said... waiting without knowing whether yr love would be reciprocated is even more painful... will my waiting be in vain?... shall i just give up?? but to give up isn't tht easy either... it isn't something tht u say u wan to give up and u can ... its not something u can control... does he know??? nah... dun think so ... hahs.... someone told me just now... " before u go all out for it ... think... whether u are willing to commit... the process of committment might be a very very painful process... " my reply was ... " i belive tht without love ... life would be black and white ... yes .. thou it might be painful... and not many is able to taste the sweetness or the fruit of their wait or love... but at least they had love b4 ... life without love is pathetic... isn't it?? " at least u had love once in yr life... be it a good or bad experince ....
i'm willing to give my best ... even thou it might be a fruitless wait ... coz i'm serious....
rite now... i think i'll try to concentrate on my studies... maybe ... maybe one day a miricle would happen just for me ... or just for us ..=))
it ended @ 12:32 AM
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Friday, April 25, 2008
Today's happening i decided to rite it in my own diary instead... hahas.. something specially for me to read only... hahs somethimes i read the old entries of my sec sch diary it's like ... haha... i will laugh at the standard of my eng and all the rubbish i had written and all the angryness over trivial matters.. haha... sometimes it's really good to have a blog... u can share what u want others to know... be it happy matters or sadd... haha... and i think for me i like to have a diary too... its like smth tht its private and i would not wan to share or unable to share or even smth ... hahs tht u dun wish someone else to find out abt it... =)) anw .. so much for today... i'll see when i'm free to make a blogshop... hmmm... hhas... nites ppl...=))
it ended @ 1:48 AM
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Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Wednesday.... today's lesson doesn't require us to bring our laptop... =) so my bag was rather light today... feeling as pernormal this morning... but didn know why felt sort of moody in the early afternoon ... guess its due to the weather ba... its rather warm nowadays...
i had my maec lecture at lt20 followed by maec tutorial at blk 72 .... gosh the lift is really crowded... waited quite sometime for it... =0 ... ended class bout 15 mins earlier and went to hav my lunch at canteen 1 ... whaooo... its really crowded too... it seems like its crowded evrywhere...couldn't locate the ba care booth or what... was eager to take a look at their keychains they were selling to raise fund...( i think)... then ya... nth much ... then i ended the day with hanis to jp to meet nashiera...went for dinner tgt... wanted to take a look at the sports shoe at jp... butt so sway... they were close for stock taking... = ... then we parted .. heading home... saw joyce on the way to the busstop... she changed so much ... ahha... ( maybe coz i so long nv see her le ) =) .. well...
there's actually smth bothering me down at my heart .....
anw...thx gal... thx for tht email... butt... i still dun hav have the courage.... =))
ah ... and i will try my bez to fill evry second of my life with a =) ... :)
it ended @ 10:24 PM
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Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Here is a story to share.... =' )
A lady was waiting for her flight in the boarding room of a big airport. As she would need to wait many hours she bought herself a packet of cookies and a book to read. She sat down in the armchair, in the VIP room to read in peace. Beside the armchair where the packet of cookies lay .... A man sat down with a magazine and begin to read...
Then when she took out the first cookie... then man took one also . She felt irritated!... but she didn wan to make a scene. She just tot :What a nerve... if i were in the mood ... i would have punch him for tht.. For each cookie she took ... the man took one too...This was infuriating!!! when only the last cookie remain... the man took it... divided it into half and gave her one half.
Ah that was too much!!! She was much too angry now... In a huff she took her things and storm off to the boarding plane..
when she sat down in the plane ... she looked into her purse to take her eyegalsses... And to her surprise ... the packet of cookies were there!! untouched, unopened....
She felt so ashamed ... she knew tht she was wrong...She had forgotten tht her cookies were kept in her purse...
The man had divided his cookies with her ... without feeling angered or bitter..... while she was feeling very angry dividing her cookies with him. And now there was no chance to explain herself or to apologise...
There are 4 things in life that u can nver recover...
1. The stone after the throw...
2. The word after its said...
3. The occasion after the loss...
4. The time after its gone...
So .... dont act on a rush... think b4 u do smth.... once its gone u might never be able to retrive it...
Think... b4 u say something.... words tht are out might hurt others without u yrself noticing it... and its the same for action...
Dun wait till u have loss smth then u start to regret.... dun miss the oppotunity to tell someone how much u love him or her ... be it yr bf, gf , family members or friends... tell them how much u cherish them and glad to have them by yr side...
Be bold enuf to express yr hidden feelings for tht someone u had a crush on or u like... When the time or oppotunity had pass... u might nv get the secong chance again... =)...
Treasure everyone ard u ... everybody is a gift ... and so are u ...
it ended @ 2:35 PM
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Saturday, April 19, 2008
Sat.... sianz.... fri was terrible... went to sch as there is suppose to be lesson for 3-5pm butt waited from 3pm to round 4.10pm... then we were dismissed... so some say time table printed wrongly... some say teacher fault for not coming... hahas... i am very tired really tired... not that kind of exhausted butt that type of lethargic... think i not going to count the days but let the days count... so i think wan be more hyper ! haha... there are actuaaly some things bothering me... butt i think i would just leave it... haha... whats meant to be mine will be mine... went out with hanis to 'study' today butt acomplish nothing... hahas... at least we had each others company...=)
it ended @ 10:56 PM
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Saturday, April 12, 2008
Today's the last day of baoc... vry slack... but haha ya i enjoyed myself throughly ... really like this kind of thing... but it wuld be even better if we stay overnight ... hhaha... oh ya i heard from one of my friend(sc) tht the seniors stayed behind till late night tu prepare the games for us ... so touched... thanks !!!! hhaha... we stayed at covention centre for today... and in the early noon our og took a lot of photos... there's one tht gracia n i acted as if we were kissing ... but they took too long tu take the pic....and i bursted out laughing so ended up without taking tht one.... oh ya ... there's one sc of mine say tht i only posted the sb names on the last post..so sadd* -nv put sc names so here are all my sc's...Alan, jasmine,angelia,yu heng and i an... so ya ..... i really enjoyed myself in this baoc... vry nice and fun... thx everyone... =))
it ended @ 1:58 AM
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Friday, April 11, 2008
吻得太逼真
无论怎么叫我都觉得虚伪
陪伴那么久你说是受罪
从前到现在当我是谁
你这花心蝴蝶
昨夜陪你醉
唱到我心碎
你竟说我和你不配
完全忘记往日为何
能与我彻夜缠绵
和你吻吻吻吻吻
吻你吻得太逼真
让我把虚情假意
当作最真心 的亲吻
怪自己来不及区分
你对我是酷爱是敷衍
我想吻吻吻吻吻
我该怎么脱身
你却说花花世界不必当真
多么伤人
让我爱上多情的红唇
拿什么心肠面对我的生冷
能不能想一想你让我多伤
你的爱就像完美毒药
对手的场地依然漂亮
不敢想曾与你渡过
多少真实的晚上
一转眼热恋后身受重伤
和你吻吻吻吻吻
吻你吻得太逼真
让我把虚情假意
当作最真心的亲吻
怪自己来不及区分
你对我是酷爱是敷衍
我想 吻吻吻吻吻
我该怎么脱身
你却说花花世界不必当真
多么伤人
让我爱上多情的红唇
深渊万丈你把我的爱
用尽后丢弃荒野埋葬
你犯的罪装没人知道
用什么证明你的亲吻真的残忍
和你吻吻吻吻吻
吻你吻得太逼真
让我把 虚情假意
当作最真心的亲吻
怪自己来不及区分
你对我是酷爱是敷衍
我想吻吻吻吻吻
我该怎么脱身
你却说花花世界不必当真
多么伤人
让我爱上多情的红唇
it ended @ 1:51 AM
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Today had a super fun time at np oc... haha... coz today is the games day mah..reached at bout 0825 ( suppose tu reach at 8) then we proceed tu the covention centre... today the other sb ( edwin ) joined us ...the other sb is ( hazel ) ... soon we went for our lunch... food at np is definitely cheaper but the food wasn't nice at all... i ordered the chicken hotplate noodle for $2.80 and i end up eating all the chicken pieces and 1/4 of the noodles .. its like so starchcy... samantha didn finsh hers too... then we proceed tu play the games ... its like all the 15 freshies in our A8 must stand on the chairs and get the chair frm the las tu rite infront and moving forward to collect as many balls on the floor in order to win the game(without falling down also)... haha... okays... then ya we won the game beating the other 2 grps. we like so hiong .. haha... then we cheer cheer n cheer .... then the nxt game i also enjoyed myself throughly is the balloon game...gals paired up with guys legs tied tgt . we must defeat the other grp by stepping on the ballons tied to the other leg of the oppo grp.. and we also won tht game ...haha... by tht time the whole grp feeling so high... but zzzz only 2pm by then ... we tot it was alrdy like 4 pm... then it started raining and we feel so tired liao and we lost the subsequent 2 games ... but won the last game !
haha. whats most disturbing is tht i'm so so so hungry ar... gastric sia... then keep drinking water ... zzz. blame tht noodle ... haha no la .. shuld have blame myself for choosing tu eat tht ... then we gathered again at convention centre... the teaching of the mass dance is so 'what' lo... and were only dismissed at only 6 plus ... then huh...my hp batt went flat ... zzz. anw tml is the last day le... so i think i wuld go and complete the camp bah.... haha hopefully tml is as fun ... ah .. this is the cheer i lyk best...
A V *4 claps*
E N *4 claps*
G E R*4 claps*
fight like champions, fight fight fight
win like champions , win win win
fight like champions,win like champions,
all the rest can go fly kite
fly kite,fly kite, all the rest can go fly kite
later kena lighting strike...
WHOOOO......
-haha nites evryone... =)
it ended @ 12:52 AM
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Thursday, April 10, 2008
today is a super tiring day... i'm dead beaten ... but i didn do much today at the oc tho... the planning is not very good and our leaders are not those vry high and enthu ones so... haha.. ya... went tu oc today with qq then saw brenda at clementi busstop.. said hiii...=)
the touring of np is the most tiring thing... its build on hills and we spent 1 hour odd tu go up and down and up and down... whoosh .... haha... anw hopefully tml will be better . it's games day tml and some of my friends are like so down le... no mood tu go le... buttt... think they'll still go coz its compulsory u see...
i read this novel a few months ago but feel like sharing sooo.. ya ... the title is 'ice-cream'. This average high sch gal (jessica) met this guy kayle ... they got tgt and its not long before kayle brought her tu this ice-cream shop tht sell fantastic ice-cream( jessica likes tu eat ice-cream) on their 1st date... they enjoyed each other company and all went well... the nxt date turn out tu be a nightmare for jess... kayle said " do u really wan tu try out yr first ice-cream??" jess didn catch wad he meant ... but b4 she knew it she was at his hse...and soon they were in a paasionate kiss and kayle started undoing her clothes ... jess was taken aback but she didn dare tu refuse.... she loved him just too much ...
it started off with one "ice-cream" in 3 weeks or so for jess ... and the rest of the days they went shopping and spent time in each other company . and slowly it went down to one " ice-cream" per week for jess ( kayle requested tu bring her for an ice-cream evry time)...butt she didn enjoy her " ice-creams" at all... she cant understand why.... but she has no one tu turn to... she found it all but a painfull process ... but she didn dare tu tell kayle , she was so afraid he would leave her iif she refuse for tht ice-cream treat ... kayle's handsome and many gals would flock tu him just tu get his attention...so jess tot she was the choosen one the special one... ( in her mindset)....and it was not long b4 kayle requested for 3 'ice-cream' in a week ! then abt 3 months tgt and on their last "ice cream" kayle told jess he was leaving for further studies joining his parents in perth by the next day ... she was devastated when she heard the news .... she was alrdy pregnant with his child...unknown of wht tu do she kept mumb abt it ... untill....... her mum found out abt her pregnacy(kayle alrdy left for perth) ...then she was force tu give him a call... but he didn pick up.. she was left all alone... then kayle returned her call some days ltr... he told her ... its all for fun...u shuld know it... as long as both are happy y not... but deep down she was not happy at all... he even told her tu abort the baby.....
then she finally turn tu her aunt( she's vry close tu her aunt)... her aunt tell her : love is not all abt sex... when both are engage in sex they shuld be ready tu bear the consequnce and the fruit of their love. most importantly true love must be present not puppy love... only when there is true love... u wun feel tht sex is a painful process but one tht u enjoy...
aft readin... i felt tht the guy is a jerk... but the gal shuld not hav used sex tu keep him back ... how long can she keep him using herself??? -naive... ?? love is not as simple as it seems , and tu find smone u love and love u as much is not as easy too...
-nites all... tml oc starts at 8am=)
the touring of np is the most tiring thing... its build on hills and we spent 1 hour odd tu go up and down and up and down... whoosh .... haha... anw hopefully tml will be better . it's games day tml and some of my friends are like so down le... no mood tu go le... buttt... think they'll still go coz its compulsory u see...
i read this novel a few months ago but feel like sharing sooo.. ya ... the title is 'ice-cream'. This average high sch gal (jessica) met this guy kayle ... they got tgt and its not long before kayle brought her tu this ice-cream shop tht sell fantastic ice-cream( jessica likes tu eat ice-cream) on their 1st date... they enjoyed each other company and all went well... the nxt date turn out tu be a nightmare for jess... kayle said " do u really wan tu try out yr first ice-cream??" jess didn catch wad he meant ... but b4 she knew it she was at his hse...and soon they were in a paasionate kiss and kayle started undoing her clothes ... jess was taken aback but she didn dare tu refuse.... she loved him just too much ...
it started off with one "ice-cream" in 3 weeks or so for jess ... and the rest of the days they went shopping and spent time in each other company . and slowly it went down to one " ice-cream" per week for jess ( kayle requested tu bring her for an ice-cream evry time)...butt she didn enjoy her " ice-creams" at all... she cant understand why.... but she has no one tu turn to... she found it all but a painfull process ... but she didn dare tu tell kayle , she was so afraid he would leave her iif she refuse for tht ice-cream treat ... kayle's handsome and many gals would flock tu him just tu get his attention...so jess tot she was the choosen one the special one... ( in her mindset)....and it was not long b4 kayle requested for 3 'ice-cream' in a week ! then abt 3 months tgt and on their last "ice cream" kayle told jess he was leaving for further studies joining his parents in perth by the next day ... she was devastated when she heard the news .... she was alrdy pregnant with his child...unknown of wht tu do she kept mumb abt it ... untill....... her mum found out abt her pregnacy(kayle alrdy left for perth) ...then she was force tu give him a call... but he didn pick up.. she was left all alone... then kayle returned her call some days ltr... he told her ... its all for fun...u shuld know it... as long as both are happy y not... but deep down she was not happy at all... he even told her tu abort the baby.....
then she finally turn tu her aunt( she's vry close tu her aunt)... her aunt tell her : love is not all abt sex... when both are engage in sex they shuld be ready tu bear the consequnce and the fruit of their love. most importantly true love must be present not puppy love... only when there is true love... u wun feel tht sex is a painful process but one tht u enjoy...
aft readin... i felt tht the guy is a jerk... but the gal shuld not hav used sex tu keep him back ... how long can she keep him using herself??? -naive... ?? love is not as simple as it seems , and tu find smone u love and love u as much is not as easy too...
-nites all... tml oc starts at 8am=)
it ended @ 12:25 AM
I will be waiting
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
I read this person's blog(the one tht caught my attention)... frm the way the person blog ... it sounds as if the person is so sentimental and one who's going for real relationship... but the way he talk and all...doesn't sound like him at all...like 2 sided ... so wanted to make friends with him when he talked to me yet i held back... dunno why his words made me so aware of him... sounds funny huh.... all the things he wrote on his blog make him seem so mature or with a mature mindset ... one tht wun hurt gals... but why ? why he post those qns... unless... unless... tht blog's not his.... or he really had split personalities or am i the one whu misinterpretated everything??? haha... well i may nv find out and so be it ba.... i belive in 缘分。。。if i am meant to knoe i will knoe it sm day... hhaaha... dunno also nvm it wuld pass one day ...
it ended @ 1:27 AM
I will be waiting
Haha today really spent a lot of $$ man... i bought a 3 tops... one from op two from this fashion... my bestie cant go town today so we went to cck , woodland , and jp. i also bought a pair of shoes and a necklace.. we took neoprint too...then got a free A5 neo print ... haha.. the top from op is sleeveless and brown in colour... the other two tops are black and white respectively. Oh ya and most importantly i bought a bag from zinc tgt with hanis... shiera joined us too... meet hanis friend in the morning ... ivan.... he was one of the og leaders... haha... will be seeing him tml at the oc... oh ya... hanis brought 3 tops also and a bag... shiera brought the most and spent the most ... she bought 5 tops ... ( 2 does not really count) for round $60... and 2 pants for $81 aft discount and became their member ... in manyhours ltr it will be the oc le... is it going tu be fun??? lets hope so.... haha...
oh ya ... there's smth i wan to say to this person... " u caught my attention... but u refuse to tell me reason for yr action and tht me retreat frm talking tu u ..."... =
haha .. today's entry end here !!!=)) nities everyone...
it ended @ 12:30 AM
I will be waiting
Monday, April 07, 2008
My first blog post...felt so moody today... come to think of it wed is the first day of my orientation le... i'm in Avengers 8....having a mixed feeling now... am i looking forwrd to tht day or dreading it to cum??? oh no.... i dunno any one in my course except Qing Qing... tml i'm going to np to get my course programme downloaded... then going to town to shop... !!!! good or bad?? good as in i may get what i wan.. but bad wuld be tht i'm spending $$... zzz now nv work part time le... haix...
Oh ya... come to think of it i have rather sensitive skin sia... ( my besties u all know) haha... talking bout skin out of the blue... haha... oh ya i got to know this guy frm ( ...... ) he's rather attractive.. ( dun tink y y hors ) but his words mk me disgusted ... zzz zzz. once my msn nick was " mayb someday when i find my Mr. right i will understand love " this sentence made a lot of ppl tu ask me .." eh u despo ar ?" no lo... its just what i feel like saying when i finish hearing tht song... sometimes things are jus so ironic... isn't tht the way life is??? okay i'm wondering off to another topic le... well.. just hope tht everything will be allright when i start sch ... -looking forwrd to tml...=))
it ended @ 6:27 PM
I will be waiting
