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Sunday, November 30, 2008

I'll start with studies first..
ITB stil got 3 more lecture to write notes om... the main thing is i could'n grasp the meaning of a lot of thing .... coz the drefinition given on the lecture notes is way too brief... then the txt book is WORSE! Whole lot of chunk of info. So i got the aid of the internet. hahs. will read up on tb after i have finished writing notes.

First is FMS then MIEC and lastly ITB. end of CT. hahahha.

Hmmmsss. i found out tht i haven finish my MIEC notes... stil got 2 lecture de... er... last lecture was split.. so 3. haix... loads man... this coming week must REALLY chiong liaos. if not i cant catch up with GY and QQ. they are my source of motivation!

Ok. Now is my LIFE.
hahs ... FRi was a really really really titing day! woke at 6am... Tennis class frm 8-10 then 10-12 CATS. aft 12 i pulled GY to the GYM orientation... and i waited for her inside the changing room... in e end she said she didn have the mood to exercise today..=( So she wait for me at canteen 2.
hahs .. i really start to enjoy the feel onthe treadmill ... and the feel of sweating... hahs .. saw gi tiong and yong qiang at the gym... hahs
then went with gy to orchard to walk walk. then met my parents for shopping and GOSH my phone went dead.. had a hard time contacting them.

Sat! i made my way to aunt house. took 165. stopped at thomson and bought them RITZ apple strudel and durian struddel. Went for a run with aunt and hahas... my staminal improved lots.. or ... did her staminal drop? =X
i stayed til today! hahs ... did some of my ITB notes ... and yea.. will be heading home soon....TML is the start of my chionging!!!!! WAY TO GO MAN!

Oh yah.... Aunt said tht if my parents allow... she will bring me along on the trip to M'sia tgt with granny... but the security there is like VERY BAD. =(
but i stil hope to go... If can it would be scheduled on 12. we'll leave after my last paper. hahs . now the decision lies withmy parents!!!!

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Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Nth much to blog about today though.... MISSED my subway and dun have the mood to explain why either.

So little time and so many things that have to be done. CATS ppt, BMGT and FMS project haven even touvh on it yet ... MICRO NOTES STIL GOT LIKE A LOT A LOT to write notes on... ITB especially.. i'm like totally lost at ITB!!!! Gosh.... haix....

today my MIEC tutor say tht last yr one of our BFS top student with a GPA of 3.8 couldn get into banking course in SG govt uni.: NUS, NTU.... ZZZzzz. and it's so !!!!!3.8 for accumulated and no space.... wah... then i dunno i can go whr liao sia... :(

Totally LOST at ITB .... so worried man . haix ... and today was a bit wasted... erm .. stil can larh .. at least i did my "minutes" so one thing less to do...

Must finish CATS ppt by tml.... then tml stil got aerobics... No dinner tml man.... Mum's not home to cook.

AH... i wanted to join NP dance. not [NRA] hip hop, not dance sports[ ball room dance] coz both my DAD wun be really happy if i join. wanted to join back contemporary dance... dunno is NP dance also called Contemporary dance... I dun mind... hahas... I really missed the feeling of being on stage. They gona have a performance in april at victoria concert hall. Their dance is smth like those kind of grp dance... u know... er... Horizon? Dance horizon? hahs ... i think they are totally cool.... i wanted to join last time... but my dad dun allow.. afraid tht i cannot cope with my O lvl... I miss MR. BENEDICT SOH and er.... WANG DA lao shi... BUt Mr. soh better hahs .=)

Oh well... i stil haven decide on it yet .. to get myself to commit in it means i must sacrifice many other things.. like time... job.. yah... hahs .

OK. nites ppl! I becoming PANDA liao ... eyebags... ARGH... :(

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Sunday, November 23, 2008

I was told abt smth ytd night. Tht leads me to think : Does one judge another based on their wealth? Does being wealthy or not separates 2 person who are in love? DOes beliefs act as an barrier? - PUZZLED totally. maybe someday i will get an ans.


I went to Jurong East library on sat afternoon. did my FMS notes and did MIEC tutorial. Studied alone. Both good and bad. Hungry but JE entertainment closed down le...Wan get food must go very far. SO i only had cornflakes with fresh milk in the morning all the way til 5.
:(

OK. Tues got project to be done. Actually agreed with QQ to go study de... but got BMGT project. OH yah then aft project go with Qi Tiong eat subway! we are subway fans! still searching for ppl to join. he also invited me to make cookies... hmmm i dun mind.. hahas. but er... more ppl go would be better wun it? Oh yah. dad and mum bought a new wardrobe. a HUGE one. hahs. for we 3 of us. both my brothers and i.

tml stil got sch. =) i try to be early! nites ppl!



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Friday, November 21, 2008

Tennis was.. fun today. hahas. =) but arms really aches.
Hmmm. oh yah. she said a NO to him. He also felt better. At least a clean break for him to start all over. Just hope that he can take this time to focus on his studies and dun get distracted.

hahas. today the CATS presentation de balloting i chose 4 . it will be on week 8. e learning wk. i quickly ask for trade. HAha. traded with darren's grp. They are grp 1 - present on wk 7. hahs .they ask why... we said coz we are more or less prepared! and indeed we are almost DONE! hahs .

Oh.... i today wen to meet yun fang. hahs. she's really busy with her work and studies. her attachment is like the pay is so =.= larh. bout $200 only! .... haiz. i so scared for my common test sia...... motivation! i need MOTIVATION!!!!! .....

Todae's recommendation : DAVE PELZER
a. the child call "it"
b. the lost boy
c. the man name dave

It's a super touching story. Memoir. hahs. zzz. REALLY anticipating for my hols to come. All the movies but dunno by tht time wheter it will still be showing. ...

TEST TEST TEST TEST... PROJECTS PROJECTS and PROJECTS!!!!
.... =



Ppl do need comforting words... need a shoulder to lean on.. need support...encouragements, love and care .. SO DO I ! so stop complaining on how BAD u are in. coz u're not! and stop your accusation and whining over the most smallest and trivial things.


lastly .. to GY : i made an effort! hahs. the results will show...! .... in time to come. TRUST ME ... Believe in me =) I will try my very best not to be late! ... hehe u know... : ALWAYS LATE BUT WORTH THE WAIT! =)))

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OK. i am PISSED. okay larh actually. just tht i feel tht he's being USED/ BULLIED.
SHE ! argh.. HE loves her so much and she is like using him.. make him go sch with her. Turn to him only when have probs... then when he ask for patch. she say no... then dunno.
her reason was: NO FEEL! Then break. GOSH how hurt he must have felt so argh.. then so many things happen on 19 nov 2008. If me i think i would have cried whole day instead.

to me.... i think i'm taking his side. CAUSE he's my god brother. A good one. and i dun like the way the gal treats him. like SHIT.

usually i would encourage ppl to get tgt ... coz i think if u wan to get tgt in the 1st place .. then dun break so easily... BUt if for someone who says break or not at the FEEL and just FEEL isnt it like playing ard? OK maybe i have a wrong thinking. I just think a r/s needs commitment too... she cant just do THIS to him.
i dunno her well but... well... frm what i saw tht day ... its really ... BAD!

It's time to let go... Not to let her go... BUT TO LET YOURSELF GO.... i went thru it... it's just being used and torturing urself... it's u who told me to let go.. i did. i have done it aft 8 months , and now i am perfectly ok!
u also can! jia you ! u have so many ppl here for u and rooting for u ...

I believe u can. Ask her for a Ans and ' xiao sa yi dian ' If stil can be friends then ok. if not then suan le. =) Time heals all wounds...

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Thursday, November 20, 2008

SO TOUCHING. okays. hahs. I manage to like finish the last few chaps on my way home. I walk home from clementi. SO i read while i walk. When i came to a part at the back .. my eyes went teary... GOSH! and this family of i think 6 ... were walking in the direction towards me. Then all gave me FUNNY looks! ARGH. so paiseh.ZZzzz. hahs! oh yah i say will lend Gi Tiong a story book that is not as thick tml for a start : "THE SUPERNATURALIST" . its by EION COLFER. hahas he also gana influence liaos. and i say will lend yong qiang a story book that is very thick. By JEFFREY ARCHER : "KANE & ABEL"

Both books are REALLY NICE! A REAL HIT man! hahs. one is full of twist and turn. the other full of mystery.
ESPECIALLY the Jeffrey Archer. the story plot is really really really GOOD. and i meant it. READ IT and u'll know.

My shoulder, back and arms muscle are ACHING. Surprisingly my calf didn hurt. hahs. kick boxing is real cool. I taught my younger bro just now and he made a real mess. HE GAVE UP w/o oly after 2 tries. Zzzzz.

Tml will be meeting Yun Fang! yea! and there's tennis tml. Hmmm. oh yah my Cats memebers say meet tml aft class for project. I think ... this grp i'm in nw... even if meet le also cant get much done. None of us have a digi cam and no one wuld lend lah. So i think i will come up with the PPT today first then then in class we edit then split the job thereafter.

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Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Should've expected it. What am i trying to expect out of it? ZZzzzzz.
Anyway. Wouldn wan be a fool a 2nd time. This time i wun fall for it. I WILL CONTROL CONTROL CONTROL & CONTROL myself. =)

"HOKAY" this word sounds familiar rite? hahs. ALL the best to him getting his RESULTS frm tht SOMEONE tml. Really hope it work out btwn them.
TML IS A BIG DAY MAN!!!! PSLE results!!!
arghhh.... so worried for my younger bro.... zzzzz. really hopes he get good grades man! But he dun seem to care nor to worry abt it. ZZZzzzz
OH. and it's YUN FANG b'dae tml!!! Wahhahah. went "GINZA [ west coast plaza ]" to get smth for her just now. Didn dare to choose a too fancyful one. In case she dun like. She's a simple and nice gal. SO i got smth simple for her too.=))

GOSH. my calf is like aching like dunno what hahs. Think tml will be even worse.!!!!
Went to the gym just now. Crap. it's like a last min lah . ok it goes liddat this:

Class ended @ 3.15pm so i went to find QQ and GY. Continued on with the story book i lent frm yong qiang. It's really nice ar. the story is hmmm.... NICE. hahs . i actually read it out of boredom ytd @ micro tutorial. then i got hooked on it. chiong the book 2 hrs. left like 1/5 of the book. THE LAST AND THE MOST INTERESTING PART!
could have finish the book today de. But aft i went to find QQ.
she suggested to go Gym. i agreed. BUt nv bring towel. CRAP! $2.50 GONE. arggh. hahs. i'm like saving. ZZZZzzzzz

Then aft the gym i went for aerobics - kickboxing. Gosh!
AND I DIDN STRETCH AFT MY RUN. so when doing the kicking. my calf cramp. ZZZZz.

Oh yah. one last thing. I really wanna study and do well man. But i am a slow learner.Zzzz. takes longer time to understand things- theory.
Hmmms.... ARHHGGHHHH. ok. Action speaks louder than words. I shalll STOP here.



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Tuesday, November 18, 2008

*ROAR* okays. its like 4 hours wasted. Coz tml Bertram got red camp so we were scheduled to do our presentation today aft sch @ 3pm - BLK 56- 05-02 [ Our class ends @ 1pm]

SO our grp went to Our Space to do our last touch up and a dry run. We were @ the venue promptly @ 3pm. WAITED AND WAITED AND WAITED AND WAITED!!!!! till like 4pm we split up 2 went to find her then we went other floors thinking tht we got the wrong venue. THEN we called other tutor and all to locate her[ our tutor]. AT round 5pm she called back. She told Bertram her daughter was sick. SO she was unable to make it the last min. GOSH. THEN HERE WE ARE THINKING THT TML WE NEED NOT GO SCH EARLY FOR HER 3 HRS CLASS. then now.... haix. tml we stil have to go. but bertram will ask for 10 mins off from his red camp thing. *sobs*

That time wasted doing nth is so ..... lah. i could have use it to take afternoon nap/shop for my friends b'dae prez/write notes.

ZZZZzzz. so like no mood liaos. Dun even have the mood to go downstairs to get my dinner... Mum's not home to cook dinner today. She went with granny to the doc to see granny's leg. HAIZ. ARGHHHHHH.

2ndly... I wan to watch madagascar, The good, bad and weird and one more.. eh i dunno the title but the director is the same as the movie of " journey to the centre of the earth". ZZZZzzzz... BUSY BUSY BUSY.

tht's all for today. PRAY HARD tht tml's pressentation will go smooth and well...[ must wear formal AGAIN tml!!! ]

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Monday, November 17, 2008

And i start to REGRET.
STUPID me. Here i am thinking...if in the past i were to hold on we might last til now. hahs. If i had be true to myself @ tht time... IF ONLY. come to think of it. i didn know why i tried so hard to reject. FOr the fun of it? zzzz then blame myself. ought to be punished for having fun at others expense. Well. Now i get jealous. HAHS. Stupid thinkings. IF ONLY i had knew it tht time i wouldn have done so. I would go with my heart. hahas. COme to think of it... 1..2..3... 3 yrs le!!!! round there. Lunar CHINESE NEW YEAR de day 3.... I met you.=) IF ONLY.. then i would be the first to be .... ....

Well... one must LOOK AHEAD!!! hahs=) WISH U HAPPY & blissful my friend!


OK. Movies are lonely. Weather is cold without Hugs.
This morning i was looking thru someone profile and i was like thinking to myself : zzzz hahas. so in need of a gf? DESPO? maybe not to tht extreme.

AND Here i am .... AT times everyone would like someone to care for u. to be there. to hear u crap and to everything.

RARH. hahs . IF ONLY... IF ONLY...

IF ONLY i knew.... i would have be RICH! HAHAHAH. =)))

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Saturday, November 15, 2008

SPECIALLY DEDICATED TO HANISAH OF KRSS 4e7'08

AND I DIDN KNOW SOMEONE WAS THERE OUT FOR ME. THX GAL. I READ IT. IT REALLY MEANT SO MUCH TO ME.

WE WERE FRM DIFF COURSES NOW. AND ALL ALONG I WAS GRUMBLING TO MY GOOD FRIND QIAO FENG THT I FEEL SO SAD & LONELY THT I DUN HAVE SOMEONE WHO REALLY CARES FOR ME. ASS. IT'S RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME. IF NOT FOR THE INVITATION TO HER BLOG, I GUESS I'D NV KNOW HOW MUCH I MEANT TO HER AND HOW SHE REMEMBERED EVERYTHING I HAVE DONE.

THE STORY GOES LIKE THIS :

A SPECIAL AND UNIQUE GAL THT JOIN OUR CLASS IN SEC 3.
WHEN I FIRST SAW HER, I DUNNO WHY BUT JUST FEEL LIKE MAKING FRIENDS WITH HER.
I REALLY LIKED HER A LOT. REALLY!!!! I REALLY DO!
THE FIRST GAL I CRIED FOR. HAHAS.
THT TIME SHE TOLD ME THE DOC SAY SHE HAS SOME SERIOUS PROB WITH HER STOMACH AND I WENT HOME GLOOMY.
MY MUM ASKED ME AND I TOLD HER WHAT HAPPEN. MY YOUNGER BRO WAS BSIDE ME AND HE HEARD IT. & MAKE A FUN OUT OF IT.
I WAS SO DAMM ANGRY.
I SHOUTED @ HIM. SCOLDED HIM FOR BEING RUDE AND MEAN. AND CRIED. REALLY CRIED.
MY MUM WAS SHOCKED @ MY ACTIONS (CRYING). DUNNO WHY. BUT SHE JUST MEANT SO MUCH TO ME.

THERE WAS TIMES WE HAD CONFLICT AND DESPITE THT NO MATTER HOW OTHERS SAY ABOUT HER IT DID MOVE MY HEART. SHE STIL TOOK THT SPECIAL PLACE IN MY HEART.

PPL SAY WE WERE NOT MEANT TO BE BEST FRIENDS. DIFF RACE AND ALL... BUT . THT'S THE SPECAIL THING. SHE'S A MIXED BLOOD. MALAY CUM CHING.
BUT THT'S WHY IT MADE HER SPECIAL.

SHE REALLY RAWKS!!!! REALLY REALLY!!!

1.during recess we met to eat EVERYDAY.
2. hanging out EVERYDAY aft class
3.gossip and chat and sat tgt in class
4.met on sats to eat mac breakfast.
5. OUR HASHBROWN WITH MAPLE SYRUP=)
6.she gave me my b'dae prez b4 exam tht day. and bcoz of tht i did well in tht paper. [ coz we were like having a confict tht period of time and we like sort of didn talk to each other ] and i was so elated. not becoz of the prez but becoz she wan to talk to me again!!! hahs .
7. she always was there for my rubbish [ i am a very very very talkative gal ]
8. AND SHE WAS MY BEST BEST BEST FRIEND!!!!

HANISAH!!!!!
A GAL THT GAVE ME UNFORGETTABLE MEMORIES AND LEFT HER FOOTSTEPS IN MY LIFE AND A PLACE IN MY HEART ALWAYS!!!!

i'm glad she found a best friend in her poly now. tan yi lin. hahs . almost same name as me. i;ve seen her b4. She's a nice gal.=) and i am so glad she also will stand up for NIS when she gana bully. AND so glad she found a friend tht will er.. PROTECT her. as in i think erm how to sae. aiyah i understand can liao. but i forget tht guy name. HE 's er big size. i joined them for dinner once @ burger king. HE's a nice chap. a good friend of NIS. SO GLAD for her. NIS is a gal tht really needs protection. hahs. SHE's nice and ppl tend to bully her.

GAL GET WELL SOON. hahs the weather really is BAD. remember to drink lots of water and take your meals on time!!!
I will root for you on monday.
WILL PRAY FOR U!!!
ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR PRACTICAL TEST!!!
u can de!!!! i have faith in you. =))))

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Monday, November 10, 2008

Now i know how lonely feels like and how it feels like to be a fool right from the beginning.
ok this 2 things are separate issues. Anyway i see how typical human being can be.

DUnno why but i cannot find back tht kind of CLOSENESS i felt when i was in sec sch. Friends. So far... the only one who is able to stand all my rubbish, talkativeness and hear me pouring out all my heart breaking issues is HER.

We went through a tough time though and our differnt streams separated us. Ppl who're jealous also spread rumours and that put our friendship to a test. But we made it thru. However it took a very long time. and it is only aft tht time our friendship went to a nxt lvl.

We are like 2 extreme ends. She does not favour sports and not active, quiet and introvert but a very patient and also has a heart tht cares for extreme ppl. She went to Nursing. Actually we couold have been tgt but it was bcoz of a teacher tht was biase ... it change her LIFE.

However i could see that she's very happy with her current life now. We stil stay as Good friends. How i wish she's in the same class as me... So i could pour out everything to her. Well. HAHA.

Another GREAT friend is another HER . She is one who's almost the same as me. We talk we giggle. We gossip, we share and we did every other thing. She was ONE who always studied with me even aft O lvl and we really kept in good contact. We played Basket ball tgt and studied for 'O's tgt and i taught her A and E math and more while she teach me Science- chem and Phy.

HAix. how i miss those days where we competed with each other and many more. I miss you gals. NO more days of the past. SADD-ED.

ANYway they ARE : YUN FANG AND YIXIN.

GALS tht left impact in my life : GRACE, YUN FANG, YIXIN , HANISAH, WINIFRED - gals of my life! You guys rawks! hahs


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Sunday, November 02, 2008

CAN U BELIEVE IT!!!
My com crash on tues 28/10/2008!!!

I was using my laptop in the morning during class and it was perfectly FINE!!! The next min i switched it on at OUR SPACE it was stil ok ... then SUDDENLY the screen turns WHITE entirely. Then nth more can be done.

DAD reprimanded me... say it might be virus... zzzz. TEARS fllowed la... so scared need $$$ to repair.. ltr so ex! ONLY guarantee for hardware not soft ware... I called and e person came down for an on-site repair. It was the LCD screen tht was faulty! NTH TO DO WITH ME! hahs =P

Tml is the day!!! BCOMM "interview" speaking to the class as if all the 43 ppl out there are my future boos (my interviewer)... SO.. ZZZZzzz hahs . LTR TML I GO OUT THERE SHAKE... hope not. =)

Wah now a days i really spend loads man. movie shopping and everything.. fri ends at 12 and it like SHOOPING day! hahs. kor say wan go gym this sat. DUNNO really anot. ltr he last min change his mind again! zzzz!!!

Tht's it for today! ALL THE BEST TO ME TML!!! =) JIA YOU JIA YOU AND JIA YOU!

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