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Saturday, June 28, 2008

heez... a muacks frm SanSan ..=)))
A kiss! from li Ying =))

Emo-ing... liddat for the past few weeks.. i'd rather a smile.=))
We saw a couple waering red couple wear! then jasmine said: see they wearing couple wear! hahas nvm! we also . =)) yeea!!! hahas =)

YAY! watched kungfu panda todae with SAN SAN. hahas jasmine la. We met 2pm at ps then went to check timing. queue so long!!! panda show @ 3.50. Cathy's i checked online the day b4. It's 3.20pm. So we walked to Cathy... gosh i really hate the road there man.. so many cars in all direction .. hahas .. jasmine took my hand & led me across.. =)) she so cute sia sae: cum.. mummy's here. hahas. then after we bought the tix. we walked back to ps to buy subway. spend $7.20 there.hahs. then walked back to Cathy again and then back to Ps after the show's over. I really hate the roads man! =( .. hha. kungfu panda was so haha funny lar.. luckily i choose to watched this instead of wanted todae. Tht show brighten upp my glommy days for the past few weeks. =)) hahas. going out with San san so fun nar. she always with a smile and hyper. glad to have a senior like her! =)

Hmmz... ppl sae .. not happy can eat a tub of ice cream or make cakes. i choose cakes. hahs. Tht dae on my bro b'dae. my uncle treat us to 'bakerzin' at UE square after lunching @ minori few floors above. Their warm choc cake, apple tart and oreo cheese cake!!!!! Gosh. i rate em FULL STARZ! hahs. so my uncle ask me go learn.. learn le make the oreo chhesecake for him and his wife. heh. he always dote on us so much .. So todae.. I decided to make and offer him.. hee. provided it'a nice=)) 1st time making. it's the non-bake type. so i met my aunt @ serangoon.. on the mrt at dobhyghaut i met zhan yu. hahs. sort of weird. we said hi then nv talk liaos. heh. he going cousin hse i going granny hse. both @ serangoon.. and we didn talked. to think tht we were classmates. =.=... hahas. maybe too long le.. dunno whr to start. heh. Oh yah. then i went to shop and save and brought all the ingredients.. then i forget the proportion when i reached granny hse... So i called for help. sms-ed some ppl. and galdly hup song ( now my korr! ) replied first. he checked online for me.. and then after tht i then realised i should have bought one more philidafil (spelled smth liddat =P ) soften cheese. so i run down to buy again and caster sugar too. hahs. I told jasmine tht i will save a portion for her ... =)) made it after my dinner... didn't take too long.. coz my aunt helped me al the way.. hahas. and she sae she do all cleaning up coz she more familiar with the place. haha her'born'house wad. Thay didn have trays.. so i made it in containers.. =)) made about 2 container.. erm about 8 BIG portion. and 10 normal portion. heh. =) It's left it the fridge to let it harden for a night. tml morning can eat le! will try it tml morning! =))

I'll maintian tht smile as much as possible. cant dissapoint friends ard me. =))) SanSan- my model goal. heez. coz i see her smile all the time.=)

it ended @ 11:49 PM

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Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Sadd. I miss amanda. She could't make it todae. Her bf sae too far.. so she cant cum. hmmz loving eh. stick tgt everythime ders..=)) heez... anw... haha . yea! Hope we can do well for our lms pw this time round. +)

Me and hs. principle( me ), Mr. terrance- yanling bro (him.)
Food!!!! so hungry le then see the food stil have to wait for it to be cooked.=( ahahs
Yan ling ( sister ) and kaijun ( boss ) haha. =)
zzzz... kaijun is the one taking the pic. yet he's not looking @ the camera! =.=
Kai jun went to the toilet . HAhs so he wasnt in the pic.=P

On mon.. after i posted ... i saw smth and made me tear... Crying is not the most 'xin ku' .. so feel like crying but the tears doesn't burst out and u feel so difficult breathing is the most 'xin ku' thing. Couldn't believe it i experience it again after so many yrs... I called QQ... we chatted. She herself is going thru smth difficult.. BUt for her case... things went out as i predicted...

For me.. i'm hurt... i'm battling with it. hs told me: it's u who's thinking so much .. and giving yrself so much pain. Letting go is difficult but not impossible.


Todae! met kaijun, hupsong and yanling at 4pm. heading to kai jun hse at bishan. And i saw him @ the busstop. I manage a smile and avoided looking at his eyes. Cause the feeling gets stronger each time he looks in my eyes. 'No matter how much I want to be happy, when i look into yr eyes, I can't help but just feel a terrible saddness. Becoz of all the times i look into them...it's filled with mystery'. If there's only one qns i can ask. I would like to know what u're thinking.


We took bus 74... kj stay @ 'rafflesia' condo(O.o) ... We practice at the open space downstair.. till bout 6.20.. And i'm like sososo hungry liaos. So kj and hs went up to get the food while me & yanling stayed downstair.( hahaha) then kj did the cooking. haha. so we were like waiting to eat only... ahha. We ate from like 7 sharp til bout 8.45 la. so long.=.=

Then the maid came to help us clear upp.- felt so erm guilty. we eat, she clean. ( think she just bathed only then she hav to wash dishes =(

We stayed @ kj hse for a while before we head home like ard 9.30.

Took 52 back to clementi. then change to bus 189. When i reached home it's like 10.40 lerrs.= so tired. i doze off in the bus. So cold sia. then i knocked my head on the glass of the bus.=.=

hahas. but luckily didn miss my stop. =))

... i'm sort of vry tired nowadays and cant get to slp at nite.=( ... hahas. on the way to kj hse .. i was like brickering with hs la! he and his ' y dao li ' ... But told me smth... something i'm so not confident abt myself of. ... he also said : i'm sure there's someone out there u haven discovered tht god had created just for u... =)

my head now hurts... so feel like sleeping but dun wan and cant get to slp. dun wan to doze off in poa lecture tml sia... laz time haha.. there's someone who'll sms me & and me not to slp during poa lesson .... now... i dun ... errarh!!! okay. STOP! i shan't continue. 不要想太多。。。=)

it ended @ 12:47 PM

I will be waiting

Monday, June 23, 2008

Seriously, everything is more than i can take. Sometimes i just feel like shouting!. I dun wan to be the pillar of strength for others! I dun wan to fake a smile in front of my friends & family! I dun wan to act as if i'm alrite and to bring joy to others! I dun wan ! dun wan ! dun wan!.

But tht doesn't seems like me. Isn't the ME animore if i were to be liddat. One of my bez friend broke up with her bf.. i was one of her source of support... Tried to cheer her up.. talk to her... They were tgt for 2 yrs.. and within 6 days he got a new gf... I was the only one who gave XXX(my bez friend) a different piece of opinion among all her friends. I told her... moz guys R born to be liddat... Cant blame. Gals i think likewise- for some. SHe asked me.. If he were to ask her for patch a few weeks ltr.. what shuld she do? i told her tht if she stil love him.. maybe she could give him a second chance? everybody deserve a second chance. -provided tht she stil love him.. dun wan her to regret..it's her happiness afterall..XXX bf told her tht he stil love her yet he got a neww gf n also love tht new gf. XXX is in pain. I can see.. Yea. But! she's a strong gal. If not becoz he got a gf within such short time... she wuld have gotten over him... Looking back at myself... How long hv i been sadd over "him" ? ..='(

I really feel so rtired somtimes. few days back .. one of my god-bro called me.. we chatted... he wanted me to intro some friends... I help him.. tot the rest wuld be up to him... BUt he asked to to help this and tht. ... today he ask if i culd get their pics or wad.. I tried to get from them... yah. I tried my bez... But i'm struggling inside actually... I'm so so sad. so hurt yet i'm trying to help others find their happiness... i wonder... am i obliged ? I search for an ans and couldn get one... Phone is of not much a use to me... except pw and friends msges.. if not the other calls n all i'm not interested. yea . so bad rite. sometimes i feel tht i'm just not in the mood to entertain them. I wonder why liddat... It's like morning i'm stil okay.. then late afternoon... the emo-ing comes... listening to chinese songs make me more emo.. yet the lyrics are so .. so true?

I was okay in the morning... I tot i've gotteen over him.. even if like.. It wun hurt so much.. Coz for the past few days i'm able to stop the urge of msg-ing him. Miss-ing to be kept in my heart only...until..i saw him today... I finished my lunch & was drinking apple,orange carrot!.. when i saw him walking past .. I immediately looked another way... coz i dun wan to feel more hurt looking at him? dun wan the memories to flow back? wanted to avoid? dunno how to react? dun wan a teary-eye? ..... i dunno. Moreover XXX is vry sadd le... she needs me to cheer her up... So i've to act strong, and there's no time for me to emo.. blaw & lms pw meeting clashed todae.. I rushed frm one to the other. and tml i've blaw & dss pw meeting. Wed i got lms meeting agin.- going to kj hse at bishan=.= ... tnl stil have poa quiz.. and there's a whole load of tutorials and things to be done. ... haiz..

I walked home alone.. tot some walking'll do me good... it doesn't seem to be tht case..=.= .. Dad and mom tgt with both my bro going to vivo todae.. to renew my bro line.. and get a new phone with tht $100 voucher. I didn go. so many things to be completed. =( and it's not me getting a new phone... then my dad notice i was unhappy... asked me why... took my phone to see & saw the esplanade nite view pic.. my mom say go there ltr walk walk... ask me go... i say no. at tht pt in time .. my heart really hurts...I'm still circling ard tht issue... I.myself. is the greastest obstacle. I want to ask. to ask 'U'! : "why the sudden change? does wadeva u say in the past mean anything? why the past! why now..."... for so long.. i stil cant bring it out. Even if i did... i dun think he'll reply/ ans. - weird qns?

it ended @ 7:40 PM

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Saturday, June 21, 2008

People always say : 幸福是要自己争取的。I tried ... and had given up halfway when i thought all was over..It was only a one-sided love... But he. He gave me tht tiny bit of hope.. and due to tht tiny ray of hope... I tried again... Despite all the giving-up my friend urge me to,tht he is toying with me... isn't worthy of my love, thinking, time, effort and tears... -i didn't.

I was wondering when i looked back at the sms he sent.. wondering if he meant what he said in those msg...Why so caring in the past and now so..cold...It seems like things changed after he came back from his m'sia trip... Although i'm in no pisition to expect morning and nites msg.. But... Yah .. just felt good when i receive them frm him. In the past when we're not tht close.. I'd wait the whole day for him to start to msg me...Having my phone all along with me. I dunno how he felt at tht time... But when i can't take it anymore.. i sms him, n i asked y he didn msg me. He said he was expecting my msg first..I've always wondered.. if i didn sms him n the first place.. Would he sms me first? And my qns was answered by his actions ... Soon i received morning msg-es.. i felt so good and happy...-so remembered. And when i didn sms .. he wuld send a sms to me with a sad face.. and when i asked why.. he said coz i didn sms... Things went on okay.. And yah... B4 he left for his trip.. We went out for movie n took a pic tgt and hugged. Yea. To him .. does tht consider as just a good-bye hugg? He told me he'll think thru.. Think thru what? - i'm stil puzzled... On the 1st and 2nd day .. He msged me although he was in m'sia.. Asked me not to worry and will sms me at least once per day... Howeva on the 3rd day... i waited and waited... i smsed him instead...no reply... on the fourth day ... i waited in vain again.. Until he reached s'pore at nite then he replied me.. At tht moment all my anger and worriedness vanished. Eva since... if i didn sms him.. he wun sms me... Even if i did... he will stop replying me at a certain sms..... The urge to sms ... the feeling of missing him.. caused me really much pain and hurt...

Friends told me to give up. -Its just a one-sided love ( those who dunno tht much wuld say ).
-He's just toying with u larh ( my closer friends opinion). And i tried to give up. I told myself to stop msging him. Stop all msning. So even if i see him online.. I wun start a convo w him. But he's stil on my mind.. SO i culd do is to stare at his contact... into the space.. and the screen..
Until the 2nd day when i didn sms nor msn him.. He msn me. He CAPS my name n called me 'dao'(act).. for not talking to him... Is this his way of trying to start a convo w him w/o making it awkward? ANd becoz of tht i was unable to let go once again... Yea i smsed him.. he reply and after a few msges.. he didn animore.. Wheneva somone call... i hope its from him..although i noe the fact tht he'll nv call me to chat .. I wanted so much to tell him how i felt... And i so much wanted to noe what am i to him.. Why the sudden change ? Waht happen and how does he feel towards me.. is he aware of how i'm feeling?
... Todae.. i received a mrning msg.. coz ytd nite i send him a gd nite msg which he onli saw it this morning. We chat and yah.. continued smsing untill we came to this topic of bubble tea.. The oreo crush i tried tht day at clementi taste yucky. So he mention tht his hse bubble tes was nice a few times to me. And he told me again todae.. i said he sae he'll bring me to drink.. but he didn reply le... In the past when he ask me to go over his hse there drink i always refused.. Now when i'm able to go and try ...It wasn't the same animore..

A close friend told me... Either: " He likes you but is very bad at expressing himself and had expressed himself in a wrong way.. and not sure if u stil like him and not sure if u can be his.thus resulting in his actions nw.U might be in his heart but he's afraid tht if he goes army u might be left alone and dun wan to waste yr time." OR: " He's toying with yr feelings. He likes the way he's getting attention and thus goes out with you until he realised u fall too deep for him and he does not want to have anything to do with u now thus resulting in his actions now." .

I always hope it's the 'Either' but i dunno what's going on in his mind and reality tells me to stop dreaming. Friends ask me " how well do i noe him? how sure are u what type of person he is? guys usually say sweet things for tht moment only." . Is tht true? I dun think all guys are liddat bah... And i hope he isnt one too.. Howeva i think i really have to face up to reality... I so much wanted to ask if he likes me now.. But so waht if i get an ans... will tht help? will tht change anything? He mention tht 'he will think it thru during his trip' ... does tht mean tht he thought it over and felt tht maybe we'll better off be friends? He mention on the day b4 he left for m'sia tht " when will i nxt see u? on wed? no. on thurs." me:"we'll see". I reserved thurs for him.. not mentioning anything coz i guess he'll be tired. Howeva he went for his activity and had fun while i missed him. Yea i was angry, but i guess i'm more hurt than angry.. He's a really busy guy and yah.. so much activities.. Sometimes i wonder.. If u'd a gf .. wuld u bring her along with u ??
Actually i'd given thought as to whether i shuld continue liking him in the past when i hadn'd fall tht deep for him.. the moment i set my mind to it.. I was prepared tht if we were to be tgt i noe it wuld not be a love romance.. coz he's not like other guys.. He's more shy.. his thinking is tht guys need not take all intiative...after giving some tot to it.. i agree to part of it... I 'm also prepared tht he wun be like my ex and guys who wuld take the intiative to call me to chat.. fetch me home after sch and call back after a quarrel and be giving in to me all the time... Coz i've learnt n agree tht for a r/s to work.. it cant be one party giving in All the time... But no matter how much tot i'd given it.. It wasn't of any use... Maybe ... one day it will be of use to me in my love life... MAybe...

But i think it doesn't matters anymore now... I 'll let nature take it course... I believe love will find a way... yes thou it'll stil hurt.. But i guess.. haha yah.
I dun wan him throu forcing.. Both parties will not be happi.. If he loves me... I think.. i'll wait..
I'll wait for my Mr.Right .. someone i love ... to say 'i love you' truthfully to my ears.. Be it how long i'll still wait. =)

it ended @ 11:32 PM

I will be waiting

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

I really feel like bursting liaos..=((( ... Everything seems to go wrong... haix..=( ... I was scolded by mum... And due to my moody-ness... i accidently deleted the entire code for the 'i need a hug' blog. Gosh. And there. It was gone. More SADD.. Then i found tht i misplaced my thumbdrive! WAh.... alrdy very sadd liaos.. and things one by one happen... =(((... If i wan the code for the 'hug' thing.. i need go re-search and re edit evrything..!!!! not in the mood for it now.. and sch is re-opening soon... Got some un-completed assignments...
Hiax not the first time le... When ever i'm sadd over a certain thing ... more thing just cum popping by... COz of tht vry first thing tht cause me to be moody... i cant focus and do other things well and i just get more affected by each happening... So... i cant be affected and i have to change... =)) jia you ! and hope i can!
Bro showed me this mv.... so .... touching....

it ended @ 11:01 PM

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Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Had a real good sleep jus now..hee.=)) BUt ! when i woke up my face so pain sia..... SUn-burn. Should have applied some sunblock lotion on face.haha. But the feeling of the hot and pain-ness sort of shiok. =P ... SO now i can only apply Hazeline on my face .. =))

Sun going for a feast!!! hahaha. Either Ah yiie or xiao jiu(uncle) treating... a jap restaurant.. hee .. at UE square. heh. Might be going over to Ah yiie hse on fri . =)

it ended @ 10:23 PM

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Went to Sentosa early morning today!!! hahs. met my friends at abt 8 plus am. We went to siloso beach... played with the sand and got ourself throghly wet... only took 1 photo as it was incovenient.. Me and QQ applied sun taning oil and tan. Gosh . The sun is realy scorching hot man!! We sat on the sand in the water and allowed the sea waves to hit us... it really feel good... I saw coffee bean and starbucks at vivo.. so tempted to drink... =( but didn. We reached there bout 9 sharp and tan til bout 12 b4 we went for our bath... We played poker while we tan. heh. sand all over. hee. Sadd tht Guan yu couldn join us.=( ... We ate long john when we reached vivo. It was so early onli ..... but i am feeling so tired liaos. maybe due to the sun and had been waking up early for the hols. after this post i really need a nap ..=)
* WHY... - so mani qns waiting to be asked. But whr to start?? Maybe all along ... is i have been thinking & assuming too much... thus resulting in me expecting things tht are not possible *

hah. my bro just called. ask if i wan watch kunfu panda with him and my two cousins. I so much wanted to go.. i didn see my 'biao ge' for quite long liaos he in ns last few months so yea. hahs. miss them all. But i just too tired lers. Kunfu panda... my friends say its veri nice. ought to watch... i also wan.. yea but ... ..


nxt week~!!! RESULTS!!!!.... whooo... stress stress. =










Went to west coast park ytd with QQ for a walk... we sat at the slope there and enjoy the sound of the waves and the breeze... hmmm. yah stil sad over 'him' the same topic tht i dun wan to mention again le.. We met at ard 10 plus at my blk then we went for a stroll at wcp then walk to clementi central frm there at abt 12 plus... I requested to eat at Sumo hse. haha sudden feeling to eat it. Then we bought ( me-lychee red tea w jelly, Q-mango red tea w pearl ) and went to the neighboring blk's playground and sat there. We played songs and talk... Now i realise tht QQ is such a strong gal... and we share some-a bit similarities...=) We sat till bout 3.45 and we walked home. Celebrate 'belated father's day' with dad after i went home. =))

it ended @ 3:27 PM

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Sunday, June 15, 2008

Me and amanda! hahs. Amanda didn play with us haha. but her bf and friend open another table.. My first time to play pool. hahas. with my lms grp . HAiz.. this triggered me to rmb tht someone once say tht wan to be the first to teach me play... however.. didn..hiaz... 不知道 why ... but i felt so heart broken...
Me!!! hahah. actually stil got one more pic de... haha tht's amanda's hand anw... ya .. but the other pic with yan ling haha... beginner wor! haha felt some accomplishment today ! =) *claps*

Tht's hup song teaching yan ling... Kai jun taught me instead . hahs. but i clever student no need much teaching ..=X haha .... anw... yupps... haha share smth funny ...(* i dun think hup song will mind horrs*) heh.
haha. all along is kaiJun do opening.. then last round tht time hup song was asked to try... then his opening.... haha.. all the balls scatthered.. yes . and even one ball went in!!! haha. guess wad colour ! the white one!!! hahaha. we laughed... til we can laugh no more... Gosh! heh ... BUt he also not vry good at the opening so haha.. yea... =) gald tht tht few hours there i can take my mind off " him" haiz..

I stil cant take him off my mind... hx told me this b4 ... : 幸福是要自己争取的. yea... wo nu li qu zheng qu le... ..
Leo (ex college) is in ns now... he stills call me frequently... abt 10 plus liddat... i understand the feeling of tuo tuo la la... coz i am going thru it rite now! so i put an end to it by telling leo i like 'someone' else.. and coz of tht 'someone' i'm sadd. , - heartbroken. Leo reply was can i mend it for u ? and only u? hiaz.. if only i were so valued in 'his' heart .... cAN i know how much am i valued in ur heart? hahas sounds like i stil cant give up can i?
I noe tht he might be going oversea for attachment if it is approved.... In my heart i wish tht he wun go... go a local one better... but if he really cant and needs to go overseas.. i .... i will wish him all the bez.. COz ... i wuld wan the best for him... =) heh.
Its like whenevr someone says smth bad bout him i'll always try toprotect him.. by saying no la and others... it jus cums so naturally... just now Jasmine ask if i stil liked him.. yes i do. Hard to let go... hahas. she feels tht he's toying with me too... But frm what i know him... i dun think he those kinda ppl..(unless i dun noe him tht well ) ... and i believe and reallly hopes he's not.... some might say i'm gullible... but.. hahas. yah. Naive... Am i ? =) Hup song told me this : " there're ppl who likes u ... it's only tht the person u like dun like u .." yea true. SO how? haha... for once... i wan to hold on.. hold on till the very end... and for now... i think for now i'll still choose to believe him..... -hope i'm not wrong.=)

it ended @ 11:03 PM

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Friday, June 13, 2008

A email i receive frm a friend change my thinking. so tempermental rite heh. change so fast. but tht's me.!

Beautifully stated....
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.
You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time.
You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.
You'll fight with your best friend.
You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.
You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and
you'll eventually lose someone you love.
So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

After i read tht... i think thou yes. I still am hurt and dissappointed. but i dun wan to lose tht min of happiness... Cause i know life is a one-way journey. There's no looking back, no time machine! hahs. =))

it ended @ 10:54 PM

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Ended. It ended painfully yet beautifully.

A mindset struggle.. One side of me is telling myself : give up. Letgo. It's very obvious le isn't it? he doesn't reply.. he's avoiding... wad more do u expect? why are u trying to get a definite ans? asking for a direct reject rite in the face? or forcing a yes out of him? u're hurting yrself and he wun noe it. He's playing soccer.. yet u are waiting for his sms like a silly...
The other side of me is telling myself : wait. continue... is yr love tht shallow? ur previous love for ** lasted 2 yrs even if ** had gf and liked other gals, yr love for him continued... for him now.. its only 2 months... he doesn't reply maybe he needs more time? he got his own reasons? And maybe is u are expecting too much frm him? and all the hurt is caused by u urself...

For 3 yrs... i didn believe in liking someone... coz i lost the feeling of it eva since so long... until i met him... its diff frm crush... like can transform to love.. however crush cant... yea .. but so wad if i noe how it feels liking someone? it hurts so much....
I'm stuggling frm the 2 voices in me... haix. My first time to tell someone how i really felt and my feelings for him and it turned out liddat...- avoid. HIs actions now to me is like a stab in my heart and leaving me to bleed... pls either call the ambulance or kill me. Leaving me to bleed to death is slow and painful. -Thats what i feel la. I'm hurt, sadd and throughly dissappointed... really.. i feel tht my tears're worthless... at my lowest point.. when i was in bus-175 to orchard today... i turned to god surprising. Yea.. i rmb-ed what chia yee said abt god.... i found solace and serenity...
Today i basically walked the whole of orchard here and there.. to worn myself out physically.. i tried to keep myself occupied... But when we went to 7-11 to grab a drink... i told my aunt to buy jolly shandy for me.. and thus the memories came back again... He said tht he wuld be there to hug me if i were to cry... yet he were the reason for my tears.. and he wasnt there...

The only thing i culd tell myself now is... follow yr heart...
I mention tht 'it ended. painfully yet beautifuly' . He told me this b4 : nv assume. So lets presume ( thou its the same ) for now tht he meant an end to this by not replying, unless he makes clarifications. So since it ended, i'm glad tht it ended beautifully coz the laz i saw him wad also the day tht left me with the fondest memories. I shuld be satisfied. I used to envy my uncle & his wife(ah kim-in hokkien). They are eva so loving. Since sec 2 they're tgt.i also envy my parents. they were also each other first love same as my uncle and ah kim. Thou they quarrel.. But each time after their quarrel they manage to patch up and their love went to another higher lvl, their quarrel also spice their life up.....I rmb-ed my mum told me this b4 : Be satisfied with wad u alrdy have. U can & muz work hard in order to achieve the things u wan. BUt, nv envy those ppl who're rich or have things u cant hav, cause u'll nv noe wad problems they face. Nv go looking to becum summone who's poor thou they maybe more close-knitted as a family or wad... cause ur trobles'll just mutiply day-by-day. What's yrs it's yrs. Dun snatch, dun force. cause results wuld be undesirable & u'll not be happi even if u have it, and eventually it'll leave u one day.

How long wuld i take to overcum this hurdle? "In life there's always ups & downs... If not life wuld be monotonous..." this is wad i always use to encourage myself with... to help me feel better. And i certainly believe tht all the worse things will be over some day ...守得云开见青天.

it ended @ 10:07 PM

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Dars... i love it. just made my day better..

Just now on my way home frm helping mum buy grocery.. i saw dad off to work... he look so tired... had been working OT this few days .. ... Everything he does, he did it for us... Stil tot tht i culd celebrate Father's day with him this sat coz sun he working ... However... He needs to work.. coz his workplace short of ppl... How i wish i culd help him in someway or so... Seeing him work so hard for us i felt so guilty and heartpain... It's father's day and yet he dun get to rest til next mon. MON!!! we shall spend the day as a family tgt!!! younger bro wuld be back by sat , coz i going to fetch him. Every family has its own story to tell.. and as for me.. mine's no exception. I love my family!!!! DAd i want to tell u tht : "PAPA I LOVE YOU! and THANK YOU for all u've done for us.. u devoted all yr time, effort, love and everything u 've to us.... i love u ..." . u'll always be the hero in my heart.=) someone i respect for life.


I'm hurt.. he's avoiding.. i sum up the courage and ask for an ans. BUt there's no reply. Maybe it'd be better off this way..for him ... rarh!!! no point in thinking... she mo lai , jiu dang she mo! going out now.. look for my arh yiie!!! yeah! miss her so much!! hahs=)



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Thursday, June 12, 2008

I went to see QQ blog.. And her lastest post made me feel just so loved and rmb-ed .. I'm gald tht she's there ... I envy she and Kenny... yea . Its blessed to have a dear tht understand u instead of feeling tht u re over reacting.. and yea .. its good to have a peck on yr cheeks and a whisper of goodmorning in the ears when u wake up evryday and someone to tell u tht he'll love u even if u leave him and will wait for u to return back to his side... They'rre such a sweet coupple isn't it? And she definitely deserve all the love she's having now...
Actually in her blog she mention tht i certainly deserve better and more than wad i'm getting now... hahs how i hope so .. BUt i think in love ... there's nth like whether i deserve more or not.. coz yea.. i realise tht love cant be force... and tht's wad ben told me... Like how i rejected him in the past... the tears he shed for me.. the tears i caused... but... tht's love isn't it? the other party wun noe how much u have done and how u felt ... and i nv knew how ben felt til now i experience it and he said it just now to me.. How much i gave out doesnt amount to how much i'll receive... So yea.. Thx QQ anw... U tried cheering me upp and it did help... hahs and yea u just knew me too long .. nv escapes yr eye uh , no matter how i try to hide it... but glad tht u notice .. coz it gave me a chance to say out wad's bottling upp in me... thx so much.. hmm... i will try kz? will give u the smile u wuld wan to see on our tanning trip to sentosa the nxt time i see u ! =)

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Our shadow.. =) hahs... We stood at the railing for so so long sia... enjoyed the breeze.. the sun.. and talk lame things. hahs. me + her = lame friends ... hahs. At least she brought the smile back on my face..and entertained me with her lame jokes=X hahs =) THANK YOU QQ!!! hahas...
Monorails.. blue ,purple... - collide.. =))


Went out with QQ todae. Cant stay at home... mind wil go craze.. Walk Walk and walk... its better than coping up at home.. =) hahs.. yepp... We went tu the open space and enjoyed the sun.. We took 188 there. heh. we met at 11 plus coz QQ cant go home too late..


Then we walk and walk hahs. Took our lunch at KFC(harbour front). Kenny- QQ bf's working there. heh. took zinger and ice-lemon tea w 2 straw as usual.. hahs. Then we sat down there and talked about my previous working experience hahs. Then we walk back to Vivo found a seat outside Baleno and sat. HAHAs we said smth quite crazy and laughed like siao! =) hee. Then she tested me on the location of various shop in vivo. hahas i manage to ans correctly ;) haha.
We went back to the roof top again and soak our legs in the water for a little while hahs. JUSt for fun !!! hahs=)
The senery's nice isn't it? hahs... I wan to take tht cable car... but s'pore de too low and distant too short le hahs.. m'sia de will be better... The previous time i went with my parents when i was young to genting .. we took the cable car .. hahs so nice.. i wan to go again!!! heee.. There's so many things i wan to do sia.. Or in another words.. there's so many things i haven done.. =(
TOok this when we were abt to head home!!! Gosh .. i think its nice... it would have beem much nicer at nite.. too bad QQ cant stay.. hahs.....


Yea and we took 97 home... coz its nearer for QQ.. hahs actually i can take 143 and 30 to west coast market.. but well the distant away frm my hse = not much of a difference..
Its rather early.. 4.30pm liddat we reach AYE le.. so we sat there and chat.. and she noticed my saddness... Yea .. hahs.. We knew each other since Pri sch !!! hahs. yah.. sadd over the same old thing... Yea i miss him.... i waited and waited but i my phone dun seem to vibrate... i dun seem to be 'miss' ...sent the msg out at last...but got a reply and tht's it. dunno wad to say le.. Didn want to msg in the first place... hahs .. but dunno why leh..coz i knew if i dun sms he nv will.. hahs.. she ask me whether i wan to knw the ans...she cant bear to see me so 'fan'...so sadd... give her his no... she'll ask for me... I didn give... dunno why... coz its suppose to be btwn 2 person? dunn wan to force an ans? or just leave me liddat ... yea.... she said maybe the bez wuld be for him to get a gf and i'll give upp... Nah i can tell u no... giving isn't tht easy... When i like ** in e past even he stead with ****** i just felt hurt.. but i wished them all e bez.. hahs. If i cant be as happi... i wuld wan others to stay happi... She and __ said tht i shuld stop all contact w him... as it is a process to help letting go... But i think letting go is with concern to yr heart... If u really let go le.. even if in contact it wun matter... hahs .. BUt i'm still far away frm tht ...
It seems to me like he's like oblivious to my feelings - missing of him .. and his nonchalant manner hurts me.. *** said he's a lucky guy... but i think diff ppl see it diffently... waited for so long - and i stil am.

JOlly shandy + ice cream + hugs. = a day to be rmb-ed. be it good or bad 都已成过去，也只能当做回意。

I'd prefer to see myself smilling ...=)) hee.


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Wednesday, June 11, 2008

All the worries, anger, saddness.. dissapeared the moment i knew 'he' is back. and i didn bother to ask why didn u msg... coz tht isn't impt anymore.. (further more i'm in no status to ask tht) hahs.. just glad tht 'he' is back safely... =)

I suddenly feel so sianx bout blogging. =X hee... anw. tml's lms project meeting is cancelled.! heh. feel so like go shopping sia... =) i really miss my aunt man! the last time i saw her last sun.. she looked so shag... she's tired out frm all her work... but i just miss her so much... dunno if this fri if i go over will i be disturbing her frm her rest... Called her just now.. she's attending a dinner... =) hope she enjoying herself..=))

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This is the NJC harmonica concert tik. Ytd at home too bo liao le. Then took this pic. Ytd nite.. it rained.. Heavily... It came without warning... the sudden gush of strong wind... so so so COLD. It really is.. I stood at the window.. looked out and i started emo-ing... The song tht i was listening , played thru my earpiece : 罗志祥 - 做得到. Haix. felt so lonely ...
I'm so foolish.... i sent out sms... but there's no reply frm 'him'. i almost tot tht my phone spoiled.. so i send sms to my bro to test test..and my phone's alrite. So I waited for his reply.. there's none. Now i understand how __ felt when i didn reply him last time... he really loved me.. and i thank him for him love .. however i couldn't love him.. coz my heart is with 'him'... Now i can understand all the pain i put him thru ... cause i am going thru it now... When i didn't receive 'his' sms... first thot- 'he' is busy.. 2nd thot- the sms might cost. 3rd thot- 'he' dunn wanna reply. 4th thot- 'he' is in troub. evry nite. evry morning... 'he' is the first i think of.... Which is smth i cant control myself of. As for 'him'??? am i the one 'he' will think of evry morning and nite? 'He' shuld be back in s'pore by now... ... i'm waiting... still waiting... why have i allowed myself to belief that miracles stil happen in this world..? -as to ths moment.
-'U' are the only one capable of breaking my heart...

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Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Finally!!! hahs... took me so long to edit this new blog skin... the only thing i dun like about this blogskin is the backgrd colour of the post... so ... milky pink.. or wad.. dunno wad colour.. hahs. i had a hrad time editing the code for the time and all.. the code for this skin is so mixed up la.. hahs... anw.. yup i'd done it. =)
Gosh.. my hols... are like going to be over vry soon!!! wah... its like last fri - granny hse.
sat- go out. sun- went to visit the other granny & relatives. MOn- concert. Tue- home.! hahs...its like last few days cum home so late... so today i really slack at home man! hahs. hog on to my com the entire day. Tml is wed le... hahs so far .. no activities for tml.heh. Thurs- go city hall AGAIN!!!! omg.. this time is lms grp wan go there do project work.. meeting at 1pm... actually wanted to meet up with a friend.. but dunno if he wants or is he tired frm his trip mah. hahs. so nvm lor.. ahhs. can meet late afternoon also if he wants. heh. Oh ya. Daniel is sick for like 6 days liaos...and i just know it. gosh.HIs gf went to m'sia last week and back onli this thurs... sadd. when he muz hav needed her most... BUT! heh. when she's back this thurs.. he'll definitely recover de heh. haha. Tml he 3rd time go see doc liaos. He better do take care man! =)
then .. this fri might be meeting aunt then stay over at her hse at hou gang.. and vist grandma on sat. Sun - stil unsure.
OH ya.. i still dunno whether to go for the bbq thing.. like A8 alot say dun wan go.. ltr i onli freshie again... then maybe i not going... hahs i still thinking.. - indecisive.heh. Tht time outing onli 5 went nar! hahs.. say wan play pool in the end nv.- i dunno how play also. heh. Edwin (A8 senior) ask me go organise agin -pool + movie... hahs.. i will see who'll go this time.. bet no one larr! hahs. why the grp so scathered... so ... ..
Anw .. hahs.. i look forward to evryday tht's coming and treasure evryday i'd lived..=)


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There once was a little boy who had a bad temper. His Father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence.
The first day the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence.
Over the next few weeks, as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down. He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence. Finally the day came when the boy didn't lose his temper at all.
He told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper.
The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone.
The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence.
He said, 'You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one. You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. But It won't matter how many times you say I'm sorry, the wound will still be there. A verbal wound is as bad as a physical one. Remember that ppl ard u are very rare jewels, indeed. N treasure them.

SOme times u say things tht hurt others without knowing it... it leaves scar and it can bring tears... however u wun know wad u say'll hurt others so dun becoz of afraid of hurting others and dun dare to voice out wad u wan to say or share... as long as its not on purpose to hurt, not crude, not hurtful... i think it shuld be okay .. will it?

Out of a sudden i feel tht life is full of contradictions.. - i'm lost.

( look at the time i posted this post.. 4.44 ..pm ) i dun like it... nowadays the timing i see all so weird weird one.. hahs . nth much.. i just dun like 4.44 pm... can smth happen to change this timing to be a good one to me? - i'm waiting.

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NJC harmonica concert was simply great! hahs. they're awesome. nowonder they got a 'gold w honours' for SYF. hahs. I really enjoyed myself.. hahs.
I met my cousin at rd 5.40 we alighted at city hall and went to 'food republic' and the convention centre there to have dinner... ate prawn noodle-$4.80 and ice milo-$2 . heh. bo bian. its suntec afterall. hahs. After the concert we waited for Wee Meng ( my cousin ) friend..to say hii. hahs. She thanked me me going for her concert...it was my pleasure actually.. i really liked it. heh. Shuld thank Meng for inviting me to it . Yupp . then we went tu the busstop outside esplanade to take bus then he waited with me for my bus to come. Then i alighted @ Vivo to meet my parents b4 going home tgt. heh.
Gosh my leg is tired from all the walking this few days. My eye bag are surfacing too!!!! arh!!! ahahs. will TRY to sleep early if possible. heh. Today is 9th. I'd known 'him' for 2 months. hahs. 2 months le. long ? short? heh. dunno. Big deal?-neh..LOL. Here i gotta story to share... someone told me..and i'd like to share hahs. :

There's a man... he'd loved a girl for 5 years and waited for her in vain....now when he's going to die and he told god : give me 10 more years.. i wuld like to wait for another gal tht i love... pls.
god agreed. and he waited for another gal for 10 yrs in vain. and again he told god : pls give me 20 more years. 10 yrs is just too short. This is the last time! I'm sure this time rd if i were to give in my best to love another gal .. she'd be touched by me. ... And god once again agreed to his request. However.. again. he failed.
This time rd... god told him.. : do you know tht all along.. actaually there's one gal waiting for u all the time? for 30 odd years??

When i heard this story... and was asked bout how i felt... i didn't know...shuld he be touched? - tht all along a gal had been waiting for him ? or blame himself for not opening his eyes? or wad? hahs. i dunno. heh.What's the point of the story? or wad am i suppose to feel ? hahs. All i noe is tht.. "Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like, because the one you like will leave you for the one they love." and this <<<>

Love is
Not 2 forget but 2 forgive,
Not 2 c but 2 understand,
Not 2 hear but 2 listen,
Not 2 let go but 2 HOLD ON !!!!

Find a guy,
who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you, and the one who turns to his friends and says, '...that's her.'

( how sweet... isn't it ? )

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Monday, June 09, 2008

OH gosh! ytd in the mrt! i was sort of shocked by smth.. heh. yah.
Ytd i went to grandma hse and had ba zhang... hahs . its vry nice=))!!! i took the ba zhang at bout 5 plus then tht was my dinner... so filling!!! then at about 8pm my aunt drove us over to 'kam po'(in hokkien) hse... eh.. she's my grandma sister-in-law. yup. she just went thru a surgery a month back so went to vist her... when she saw me... she was like "wah so tall le huh" hahs. i think i not tall eh... was actually aiming for 1.65 hahas =). anw ... hahs yah she said smth tht made me blush=X heh and she got to a topic tht i avoided... typical grannies=)) hahs anw. 'biao jiu' was there too..- her son. heh. actually we did a surprise visit so biao jiu was actually watching tv programmes and we sort of interuppted him heh. BUt as usual .. the adults talk and talk... i sat and watch tv... ans when i'm talked to. hahs.=) luckily i understand dialects. heh. Then me and my mum send my grandma to the bus terminal b4 taking mrt home. Their hse is actually just opposite hougang mall. so convenient heh. near to my aunt hse too=)...
I like got so mani things to say!!!! hahs. ALL my teachers tht taught me b4 say i'm talkative. heh. but it can be smth good u know! heh. depends on how i manage it.. i'll try to put it to good use! Hee...

Ehh... i think its getting hahs 'late' le. meeting my cousin at clementi mrt then go city hall take dinner b4 going for the concert at 7 plus. Hope i will enjoy the concert throughly!!! =) -will update more tonight when i'm back. hehheh.

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I like this place... it's nice..especially at night... i like to walk all the way frm here to there and everywhr... i just like to walk..enjoying the breeze..the scenery and everything i can ... hahs. its nice .. really.. I dun like places tht's too crowded at times.. hahs. i just like this place so much...somewhr whr it's less crowded... so can enjoy the tranquility..it's nice to just sit down, chat and enjoy the sceney... ( depends who u're with ) hahs. i dun mind going it a few more times... i just like it there.. so many place to stroll ard. hahs. 'lau pa sa' is near there too.. hungry can go there have supper.. =) heh. i went there with a friend ytd...a great company.. and took this photo. nice huh? heh. yah. and thx for sending me back ..=) tml i'll be going there again.. but this time with my cousin. heh. he got 2 tickets for a musical concert.. at rd 7.20pm ..=)
Tht day..on 7th June.. 'someone' told me: "sometimes u must learn to let go"...though it was said just to make me give up the ice-cream we're fighting over.. (*laughs*)...but when i heard tht sentence... i immediately let go of the ice-cream i'm holding onto (didn noe why i let go of it)... tht sentence sort of affected me for tht moment.. i dunno why, but the first thing tht came to my mind is: "letting go isn't tht easy"... how i wish i culd let go just like how i did to the ice-cream in my hand... but i cant... despite all the "things" my friends said to me... i cant seem to let go... or in another words i dunn wan to let go... i'm those kindof fantasy ppl... dreaming bout things sort of like fairy tale and hoping it'll come true...(sometimes) tht's libra for me. heh. always clinging on to tht tiny strand of hope... hoping for a miracle... but miracle dun just happen liddat... SOMETIMES.. if u work hard and put in effort.. u actually 'make' the miracle... miracle wun happen if u just sit and do nth..
yea.. for me even the slightest hope i'll cling on to it in my heart thou i always say i've given up... BUT!.. when i truly give up... and let go... i wun turn back..i'll force myself not to turn back... no matter how much i wuld wan to... unless... unless under special circumstances which i dun even noe myself.. This applies to evrything of me.. studies, friendship, relationship... SO for now i muz work towards my goal.. improve on my eng! frequent the lib man LIYING!!! hahs =) nites n tc evryone.. and to tht one in m'sia.=)

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Sunday, June 08, 2008

Does 'tht' make me someone special to u? or do i even mean anything to u??? the words tht i long for u to say ... for me to hear.. to be wispered in my ears... i dun like the feeling of uncertainty. I'd prefer assurance. But i dun like to rush things... i'd be patient... i'll wait... things tht truly belong to me .. will be mine someday..and it always wuld be... tht's wad i believe.. =)

Went to watch iron man ytd. heh. finally get tu watch it. -at cine, but i dun like the seat of the theatre... the theatre is rather small and i just dun like the seats... cant sit in real comfort.. and its rather bright. heh. i seldom go cine to watch movie ... i'd prefer ps or lido. hahs. =) yay! i finally got to eat 'ba zhang' today. hahs sia la.. for the past few weeks or days i dun even get to eat a SINGLE ONE . then today like all in one go. both my grandma made ba zhang and gave us a lot. then my mum also went tu buy some ytd. wah!!!! hahs 'ba zhang' is rather hard to digest actually...ahahs. but i like to eat... so i eat hlf the the half my mum eat .. heh. then few hours ltr eat any half . hahs like eat a bit a bit then can see whose de nicer. !
hahs.. gotta go out le... rusing over to grandma place. =)

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Friday, June 06, 2008


Heh!! on mon i going esplanade go watch musical concert... i like those kinda musical, dance kindof concert... heh. wah hahas... i like have the sudden urge to try out everything i nv tried b4... i feel like learning how to play dotta and all .. hahas... like kindof fun also... i went to the arcade with my friends today ... hahs... still rmb the last time i stepped into the arcade at vivo there.. then i went to try out the "car racing" thing... hahs .. i was laughing myself out larhh... i so damm 'lan' at it... went totally out of the track.. gosh.. hahs. but it was fun .. heh.. practice makes perfect.. and at least i tried.. better than nv at all. hahs. ppl is like laughing at me larrh.. but i dun care . heh. =P
Tml going out... heh. movie! tml going aunt house... she stay alone de heh.. go pei pei her heh. but she work till round 10... so i'm going to her house after i go out with my friends.. abt 10 plus bah . hahas. since so late i dun plann to meet my friend early.. if not will be vry tired then also i can get to sleep later..=X heh.
Sudden urge to eat apple struddel!!! and Haagen-daz ice-cream!!!!(anderson de also can) ben and jerry de quite sweet leh for some flavours hahs but its nice!.. but if buy portion too big... eat too much same flavour will sianz de ... then nobody share with me... if got ppl share can have two flavour sia.. or one buy apple struddel one buy ice-cream..!!! hahahs... but my friends always dun wan de... moreover hard to find good apple struddel... eh! egg tart.. i wan eat egg tart.. hahs. i know of a good pastry shop! 'tong heng' at chinatown... butt hard to find. heh. their egg tart is superb !!! i also like the coconut egg tart. heh. china town also got quite a few shop tht sell good dessert... =)) wil find somoeone who will go to the extend to explore for food.. -stil searching. heh. when 2 or more person goes tgt u can share the good food w/o having to finish the whole portion and can try more varieties..=)

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Yay! exams ended le!!! finally... but ... haiz ... jus hope for the bez... heh. results wuld be out in 2 weeks... =) or =( ? hahs dunno! play for now!!! muz reward myself a bit.. heh... sianz... actually can go out watch movie with friends de... but ltr have to bring bro to grandma hse at round 3 plus... wad a timing sia... not early not late.. hahs. went to west mall just now with QQ, guan yu and shunhiang... tht QQ dun wan take photo... hahs.. anw ... i made shun hiang(short hair) take photo with me.. she at first also dun wan de hahas...=P.... we went to have kfc as lunch at 11 plus ... zzz... hahahs then i suggested to go 'zinc' ... i wanted to buy a backpack... dun wan always bring tote bag.. hahs .. me and guan yu tot of buying the same design de... its not ex ... $35.90 got 25% discount summore.. but onli for these 3 days... my current bag more ex lorr!!!! wah... why tote bag more ex than bagpack? shuldn it be the other way round? hahs.
Tml is sat le... then sun ... then blah blah blah... hahahs... how shuld i spend my hols? i muz plann carefully... but like plan and no plan = no diff...=.= heh. but at least dun rot at home can liaos...
I just notice smth... nowadays or eva since poly started ... i ain't the one hogging on to the tel phone... it seems to be my younger bro... my fav pastime - to talk on the phone.. not now any more...haahs.. i can talk for like hours... heh... especially in the nite... like so pathetic sia.. eva since cum poly like no one call..=.= (some i dun wan talk to ..=X..) sadded... my phone pal like all got their bf and friends to talk to liaos... and they'd rather talk tu their 'potential bf' than me... ='( *cry*... some is just pure busy with their jc stuff like exams, project and all.. so dun wan kah jiao them. hahs. then my younger bro wuld be staying at grandma hse for like 1 week .. so ya... gonna be lonely... =( .. heh but the tv is to me lerh! heh. shall see hw my hols go... :)

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Thursday, June 05, 2008




Hehs. Tml last paper le!!! YAY!!! hahas. BSTA!!! jia yous liying!!! hahs. butt sadd la.. gotta bring younger bro to grandma hse. I'm so angry with him nowadays..( i'm like always angry with him)... he's getting so naughty!!! so much for doting on him larrh!!! hmpf! but my anger always dun last long... so he nv seem to care if i'm angry... and becoz i dote on him so much tht i dun 舍得 to beat him tht's why he nv seem to be afraid of me... =.= .... scold him.. he'll scold me back... nag at him.. he'll take me for singing.... wheneva i'm angry with him... i'd say: "dun talk tu u liaos!! dun cum talking to me uh!!!" but jus a few mins ltr... i forgot tht i was angry with him.. and he'll cum talking to me..=.= ... heheh or if its smth tht made me so angry... and we wun talk tu each other.. he'll cum after quite some time: " 姐姐 dun angry larrh... okie! okie! okie not! ( then i get a kiss! ) heh. but he getting older le... someone said .. " starting nxt yr cannot liaos hor!" hahs ... ya... nxt yr he wuld be considered a teenager and no more children's day for him le. hahs.
Heyhey... summone say tht always see me with a "bun" ( hair clipped ) on my head... so yah.. hahas i posted pics without clipping my hair( the pic w me in black is i just take de..i took it on 1.11pm heh.wad a timing..) ... hahas... actually clipped hair its to give it some volume and its more in place...( when there's strong wind ) hahas..for me i think...=)

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Tuesday, June 03, 2008

countdown.. one more day to blaw test. i wuld end off with BSTA on fri. wanted to go out and chill with friends.. however i might hav to bring my younger bro to grandma hse.. haix. cant go out and play le..=( ... but.. heheh i can go see grandma..hahs so it wun be tht bad afterall isn't it? hahs. sat go watch movie and farewell for ... whose's going to m'sia for 4 days.( take care and bon voyage ) =) hahs.oh ya! hope i'm to get temp jobs over the hols. heh. i got so many places tht i wan go huh here and there and everywhr... hahs. i've yet to explore the whole of s'pore. so waht la.. hahs. i'm going to... someday... =)

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Monday, June 02, 2008


Actually this post is gona be a emo post with a lot of thoughts and worries again... BUT! heh. i think i wan life to be happi and worries-free as much as possibe. heh. so i think i'll adopt the " worry only when the problem surface" attitude. AT least for now... hahas... dun think i'll be able to live my whole life with tht attitude sia hahs.
I went to je lib ytd. Met Yixin at bout 9 plus ... then ben goi came to join us at ard 3 plus.. we went for late lunch cum early dinner... hahs. then we sat at mac and i taught ben A-math... luckily i still rmb my sets, function and all.. but i forget abt relations. so cant teach him tht. But he funni lorr!!! today exam ytd then ask me teach summore nv tell me in advance so i can bring my A-math note books along. We all bought bubble tea..yixin- strawberry milktea. ben- waternelon ice-blend, me- pep oreo. heh.

That ben!!!! RARH!! i wan complain!!! Coz yixin patted my head earlier on when i was lying on the table.. then i say i like being patted - but not by everybody.. then tht ben he walk past me when he was on his way back tu his sit and gave me such a hard "pat" on both sides of my arms... so pain lorr... then red..lucky i not wearing sleeveless if not got the finger marks liaos.so much for teaching him la!!!! such a god-bro. heh. but its ok la... hahs. i very nice de ... heh. then he gave me a "pat" on my head... the pat was so weird as in u dun feel good by the pat. hahs. then he "sayang" my head .. messed up my hair instead. luckily i didn clip my hair ytd heh. but aniway hahs.he's a nice chap la... hahs.
Heys! this fri last paper le hahas... i got like so many things wanna do and watch... i wan watch indiana jones, wanted, narnia, iron man[dunn think stil have:(..] and kungfu panda.. haahs...=P dun think i'll be able tu manage all movies.. i'll be broke by then. hehs. wanna look for those temp job.. IT fair or wad... but dun think will have ... =( sadd... but i 'll stil continue looking heh. =)


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Sunday, June 01, 2008

MOrning..means the fresh start of the day and it means everything to me! hahs. i love morning messages. especially those tht greet me once i wake up and taking up my phone from my pillow and there! morning msges... feel so remembered and impt. heh. it makes my day just so beautiful and brings up my mood.. my day will crash if my bro-s initiate a quarrel with me or i get scolded for smth. BUt my mood wuld be brought up if things change for the better. hahs . i dun like to stay emo or unhappi for too long.=) Nite... nite time like tis is so nice. hahs. i love good nite msg too... heh. it also make me feel so loved and remembered. i was so surprise by the good luck msg i received ytd nite and the morning b4 my exam..so surprise tht ppl both close and not close rmb tht i having exams even thou i just said it once to them or either they see frm my blog... thx for all the concern.. it was greatly appreciated and it really boost my confidence and i felt better...as in reassured...=) aiyah dunno how explain la... just tht i feel good tht's all. thx ppl.=)

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