Wednesday, January 27, 2010
IT BURN-ed A HOLE IN MY POCKET:(
Projects and Projects. There seem to be no end to it.
Ended BCOMM @ 1pm headed down to raffles link to get the box for CFAS @ 2pm.
The jam was irritating and when we finally found it and got to the printing shop, it was already 4.40pm sharp.
Saw kelvin's group there.
Total was like $150 inclusive of everything [ box, manual... ] :(
Lucky we ask for discount :P . The cards originally cost $91 and we paid $63 for it i think.
I forked out $30 bucks, shun hiang $20 and GY $15 for items at Prints.
First time I saw a wrapping paper that cost $4.30 :x
When we finished everything, we went to meet Shun hiang friend to do fliming for SOCIAL PSYCHOLOGY.
Bcomm next assigment totally !!!!! :(
E PORTFOLIO.
Social psychology presentation on thurs
Bcomm executive summary on friday
CFAS presentaion on next monday
Bcomm presentation on next tue/wed
and NO TIME FOR MY NOTES LIAO :(
can i have more time? or should i just stop daydreaming so much?
it ended @ 12:21 AM
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Wednesday, January 20, 2010
It's amazing what you can accomplish if you do not care who gets the credit.
- Harry S. Truman 33rd US president
My table topic yesterday. It seems like god is trying to tell me smth, wants me to understand certain things.
But it's too hard. I'm really tired. REALLY i mean it.
Independent. A stand-alone figure.
Really feel like collasping.
Don't feel like putting on that mask.
Don't feel like acting strong in front of others, to act like i can.
Don't feel like acting happy and all smiley when its so depressing, infuriating and tiring inside.
Don't feel like lying to say I can do it.
Don't feel like being nice.
But i just can't do it all.
Sometimes it's not a matter of who gets the credit... its just simply no effort was given.
Just waiting for others to do everything
received a call from Ms. Michelle Lim.
Meeting on FRIDAY. JUST GREAT huh.
I don't feel like going thru all the troubles. ALL THE EXTRA TROUBLES that others don't get.
Why?
It seems like life is always full of obstacles and just too many as compared to others and especially in meeting all kinds of werid ppl.
Maybe I just don't have the fate to meet nice people.
Don't want to be pessimistic but i just cant help feeling that way.
It's all bloated and contained in me.
Nowhere to vent it out. Too much to say.
At times it doesnt matter how much you do, if you know others care.
A word of thanks for recognition.
A word of concern to see how is the work coming along.
Coz when you know at least someone cares and knows that you really put in that effort... then no matter how much you have done... how late you stayed up till... how long you spent on it... itwould not matter any more because you're recognized.
and now i wonder.. how did i even end up here.
here at where I am now. in this situation.
it ended @ 9:15 PM
I will be waiting
Monday, January 18, 2010
Was it just me?
Or am i being over paranoid?
It's really hurting. I cant feel the warmth. Maybe I am just too irritated with sch work and all the stress.
I know i was being mean to say those things but the truth is you just don't understand the REAL me. At least that's how i believe it. coz i cant feel it.
Sorry. to myself to everyone.
My mood is definitely getting worse.
It's hard when no one understands you deep down and you get misunderstood,
but its even harder when you have to put up a strong front and a facade.
it ended @ 4:55 PM
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SPent my weekend over at my aunt hse. REALLY LOVE IT.
The place where i was pampered, place of my own... can emo ... can slp anytime and a place to get away from almost everything.
Reposting last wed post.
No personal grudes.. just to erm... make my blog ehhh more 'shun yan'??? hahs
=X hmmm . with the help of ehhh.... the photos are developed. Some are removed.
13th JAN '09
JUst reached home a moment ago. Stayed till OUR SPACE closes.
CM -.- HIAS. It's killing me with all that work load.
I was blithely going crazy. I did peek-a-boo randomly to guanyu during project.
I did all sorts of stupid rubbish, silly actions. HAHAHS
But coz of that and thanks to me. These photos were developed.
Hahahs. That's it. I stutter during Bcomm Table topic presentation.
SHIT la. I know i shouldn't, but i dunno why.
Hope it would be better next tues.
Anyway cant deny her english is good but her actions are really hilarious.
Finally i knew the underlaying story. WHY SHE DIDN LIKE HER.
hmmm what can i say?
just stop being so serious. sometimes it might piss ppl off you know:)
your laughter is ringing in my head.
& I dunno why.
it ended @ 11:15 AM
I will be waiting
Friday, January 15, 2010
When you can't scream, can't shout, can't scold, you can only break down and cry.
Some times i just wonder if i am too easy to be bullied. Am i being too helpful? Trying to act cool?
Trying to do everything by myself?
Projects just blew my whole mood off today. was suppose to meet yvonne @ 7pm then go over to aunt hse in the night. But with the situation i was in... i could just spoil her day too.
TODAY WAS TOTALLY A SHIT DAY.
dun feel like elaborating.
Reached home @ 4pm. didn really talk to my parents due to the mood i was in.
I know they meant well but there was some slight friction and i went stright to sleep.
Mood swings, projects, sch life... its messing me up.
It just get so tiring yet no where to go to.. no one to lean on and no one understands.
what you can do is cry.
Really feel like going for a endless run. Tire myself out.
This lonely route seems to take forever to reach the ending and as it gets going... it just gets tougher.
it ended @ 10:57 PM
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Wednesday, January 13, 2010
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Tuesday, January 12, 2010
SUPER tired. Just finished dinner. WAITING TIME FOR BUS IS LIKE UBER LONGggggg.
154 was full. Then 52 doesn't come:( till the 2nd 154 came. I alrdy waited for 25 mins:(
Stared at the com trying to come up with the spread sheet the whole of ytd night and the co. is SUPER power. All their info is jumbled up. I wonder who the auditors are.
Finally finish the ratios and the spread sheet and this is not my work. I am like doing X2. But owells:) I'm nice. hee.
Okays this para is for her? about her? She reads my blog. Does she?
Okays. She's not that bad. Quite a nice gal i would say. (Just took me and GY to realise today)
IF only she's not so irritating. Maybe that word is too harsh but i cant find any substitude coz it just doesn't fit then.
It's like:
me: did you do qn__?
she: coz i .... you know i tried...
me: no... i just want to know yes or no.
she: but you see. coz i.....
me: okays! so where's that half? or portion???
she: cuz you see....
Totally not answering the qn. I am not trying to be mean or what. Just want to know if she had done it. If no its alright. coz i just want to see what are the possible ans.
But the way you ans gets ON MY NERVE. :(
Not just me. Guan yu too.. hahas.
But oh wells. you are quite nice in terms of character?. Maybe? or was it just today??? It just took a LONGER time for us to start realizing.
QUit that habit ? just a suggestion :)
Anyway.. tml is my turn for table topic. VERY WORRIED.afraid that all the "erms" and "arrr" will come out.
some of the topics today are rather difficult and it really worries me.
WHAT IF I STUNN THERE? WHAT IF I KEEP REPEATING?
and my bad habit of WHAT IFs start to surface again :(
Will leave CM for tml. dun wish to interrupt my mood with the CM project.
Pray hard for tml.
Till then... i believe.
it ended @ 9:17 PM
I will be waiting
Monday, January 11, 2010
CM project. Treasury Project:(
Group mates are not cooperating and loads of excuses.
Sometimes is just so hard to believe.
JUST DUN LIE TO ME.
Never do. Just say. State the REAL REASON and NOT EXCUSE. no reason then go and do it!
Its not as if I'm unreasonable or what. I too will tend to be lazy and all.
I dun mind doing more but dun try to come to me without putting in any effort.
It piss ppl off.
Just just DUN LIE TO ME.
Friday is the due date for CM and next friday for TR.
The rates and the news are whole lot to cover.
Rushing with the time.
NOTES yet to be written and so many many things to settle.
I dun need you to be perfect, just need you to be there for me.
Yet you are nowhere in sight.
it ended @ 6:30 PM
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Sunday, January 10, 2010
WAS REALLY TIRED yesterday.
It's not all the talking that made me very tired. It's all the late nights and the empty-ness in me.
Slept @ 9.30pm. Can you believe that?
Open house was so-so. Good cca points though:)
Got the papers to do also:) haven start and dunno how long I will take.
Realise I really got a whole lot to do.
My temper started to flare today. At someone. I dunno. Maybe i shouldn't.
I know i should not. Promise SH you see. BUT it's just so ____ that GY also blew her top off at @ her at the atrium.
I got my doraemon-goat. SOooo cuteee:)
and what comes after that is an escape from death. I MEAN IT.
Almost got bang down by a car.
Walking out from KAP, crossing the small road towards the KAP condo... coz of SOME VERY STUPID REASON i wasn't looking at the way the car was approaching.
It came from my left and GY was standing to my left and she was looking to her left, and i happily cross the road.
"PORRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!" Got a shock.
Not the first time though:(
Can't seem to correct this.
The emptiness is still present.
& maybe I shall just wait for my Ben&Jerry.
it ended @ 1:02 AM
I will be waiting
Wednesday, January 06, 2010
PPL come and go. What is left are the precious memories:)
I LOOK SO UNGLAM. but nvm:) hahas. WAS SO FUN AND CRAZY at that point in time:D
- this pic makes me laugh. no idea WHY.
Hehe.
SEE!!! MY CUP IS THERE TOOooooo...
Haha. this was a just 2/3 days after I cut my fringe. :L
Got QQ and Shun Hiang to gym tml b4 IS with me.
COUGH is stil as bad and seems to be taking YEARS to recover :X
BUT I
haven been working out ever since the week b4 CT.
THAT'S like VERY LONG AND I FEEL SO GUILTY FOR ALL THE FOOD I EAT.
FAT. UBER. SUPER. DUPER. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXL FAT FAT FAT and like so FAT :(
This sem is very fast and I feel the rush. The motivation.
Oh and i was just looking at the Adidas Sundown.
Dun think can make it for my goal of 21k. Sounds so great yet I'm so WEAK.
-.- decided to join the womens 10k instead. Since i haven join any 10k b4:)
Pulled Yvonne and Raechel to join me:) MY Aerobics loves hehe.
$45 bucks for EARLY BIRD. It's eating a hole in my pocket.
:(
What to do? ANY LATER AND IT WILL BE $55. !!!!!!
Half marathon cost a $60
Niways. Tml first IS lesson:) Social Psychology.
& JIAYOUs to my notes. QUICK.
get it pumping!!!!:)
probably its better this way.
& it doesn't matter anymore whether its there,in its place.
I'll let go before I fall.
it ended @ 10:41 PM
I will be waiting
Tuesday, January 05, 2010
Speechless.
I lost the A3 envelope that I just bought today. what to do?
Careless me.
I need 1 but its sold in sets of 5. 5 for $2.6. So i got one pack.
Then i went for Treasury class. PLace my envelope under the table.
Then after tut was the Open house briefing which was held in my classroom.
Then i change seats cause the crowd was gathering at the back of the class where i sat and i was like sitting in the middle of no where.
Happily went off later forgeting about my envelope. :(
When i rmb-ed. It was ard 6pm.
Went back and luckily I met Jonathan Chan. Kindly opened the door for me.
BUT IT WASN"T there!!!
:'(
Then I noticed, RObin called. Return the call and he said I TOOK THE ENVELOPE & placed it back. coz i'm not sure if it was yours. :(
DUn feel like spending the $ to buy again.
Another FUNNY thing.
Went to Canteen 3 with Kiewu, RObin, Guan YU and Raechel. ONly ME who ate prata after being psycho-ed by Robin.
Ordered 2 egg. Their prata is huge!!!!!
Then i happily started on the egg prata on the top.
Accidently poke the one on the bottom. Yellowish. Thought the egg wasn't very cooked.
THEN i taste BANANA.
THen i realised.... the auntie gave me a BANANA prata!!!!
The funny thing is that stall doesn't sell anything that deals with BANANA, let alone BANANA PRATA!!!!
There's BCOMM test tml... and the impromptu prsentation for the next 2 weeks.
Just hearing it gives me butterfly stomach :S
it ended @ 7:28 PM
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Monday, January 04, 2010
Decide to post this b4 I go to slp.
FINALLY finish my Investment. One down 3 to go:)
HAPPY Mood now:) hee.
saw this somewhr...
15 points to remember and chase away EMOooooo:)
1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much that they would die for you.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is beacause they are jealous and wantto be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. If not for you, someone may not be living.
8. You are special and unique.
9. Someone that you don't even know exists, loves you.
10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes out of it.
11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look. You most likely turned your back on the world.
12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, sooner or later, you will get it.
13. Always remember the compliments you received & forgetthe rude remarks.
14. Always tell someone how you feel about them, you will feel much better when they know.
15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.
& you are just as great:)
Nites ppl:)
it ended @ 12:48 AM
I will be waiting
Sunday, January 03, 2010
The cough is really bad. Been giving me hard time and sleepless nites.
Oh. Here are the pics.
Haha. I'm the first successful person to draw eyeliner for yvonne and she herself love it !!! hehe:)
Made her eyes look bigger and spottable!
Pardon the lightings. Dunno what's wrong. heh.
Heels is LOVE.
YVONNE trying to open her eyes to the MAX. The eyeliner on her seems more like eyeshadow. hehe. Shall try eyeshadow on her next time:)
2 piggys:P Me trying to imitate yvonne eyes and she trying to do mine:P
HAhA. SHopping is LOVEEee!!! But the feet hurts. :P
it ended @ 2:05 AM
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Saturday, January 02, 2010
2010!!!!
HAPPY 2010 PEOPLE!
OKays. Not been bloging lately. Not in the mood and it's a hassle to switch on my lappy.
Went out with YVONNE ytd. hahas!was loads of fun.
Wore heels tgt and we shop like crazy with all the sale going on.
We walk, laugh and joke with hands hooked and it all became lovely memories.
Bought a set of formal wear @ G2000. Lost my temper a bit coz it's SUPER messy @ Taka's outlet and the sales assistant is busy talking away...
Yvonne was a little shocked at my "I'M NOT OKAY".
hahs.
Love heels but my feet hurts. Need to wear it more often i guess. HEE.
Will post the photos ltr in the night when i get it. :)))
...
Everynow and then I'm seeing shadows of you.
WHY? Wasn't it over ages ago?
it ended @ 1:52 PM
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