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Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Are we meant for each other?? this qns went thru my mind more than once evryday haha...Sometimes i look back at the things i've done and realise how stupid i was... and how silly... hahas nowadays is it a trend or does it really comes from the heart tht ppl pat my head when they walk pass.. either i'm shorter than them or mostly i'm sitting down... hahas felt the warmth and felt good when ppl gave me pat on my head... be it my friends- gal ,guy , elders-family members., brother, dad or so... hahas but it felt exceptionally good when the person who pat my head is someone special tu me... hahas

Today tht blaw lecturer was so zzzzzz lar.. hahas the way he phrase his qns really vry zzz. hahas. After i ended my blaw tutorial me and Qing took bus home.. she'll meet her bf at clementi central while i change bus tu west coast from there... haahs. but on bus 154 she told me tht she cant meet her bf le... ask whether wan go aniwhr.. coz i ask anione wants to go walk walk jus now in class tu my friends.. so since she have to reach home by 6pm we stayed at one of the HDB block void deck to chat and we ate waffle..ahhas .. we talk from 4.30 to about 6pm... talked about evrything...(girls talk..-heart matters ) hahahs... so yea... wah.. o tired today ... need tu revise my BSTA lecture 3 and 4 notes and finish upp my tutorial 4 ... if not the tutor sae i slow again hahas ... tht's all for sch todae today ..=)

For today no goodmorning msg frm 'him' .. hahas .. but there's a goodnite msg instead the nite b4 ... yea hahas whenever i receive a goodnite msg from "him" b4 i sleep i dun wan tu reply a good nite... coz i knew he will not reply back again... hahs my selfish act..to want him tu end off the day msg. so i rather not reply back in case after i say nites. then no reply... thou there's nth much he can reply liao but i stil wan a reply. hahas so only have to make myself feel better by not replying...=) .. just now when me and QQ talk..yea came to a conclusion tht ya.. who am i to 'him' QQ sae tht he might not be the one for me.. since after o long stil no action nor result... hahs i think tht yea its a bit of wishy washy eh... a downrite NO wuld be a better off solution... hahas i dunno larrh ... since now my feelings dun bother me as much then leave it bah ... i believe in fate.. hahas .. when i'm more free like when i'm having holidays le then i go think of the prob bah hahas. One of my friend told me.. in evry relationship its like a pyramid... both must go hand in hand in other tu reach the nxt lvl.. evry level there's bound to be a obstacle or obstacles. Only to overcome it tgt then the couple will be able tu move on tu the nxt level... if they cant then their relationship is not strong enuf and is not fated to be for eachother...Friends tell me tht they wuld sae break when they quarrel some times... i think tht if you really love someone...the word "break" wun come out so easily... or even if it's said in a moment of anger ...tht party wun mean it actually... unless tht party constantly ask for "break"... sometimes one party say "break" in fit of anger and the other party took it for real and yea bocoz tht party who raises the break does not want to break but had said it and was angry tht the other party took it for real and 'puff' there goes their relationship... gone...
I dun think its easy for a couple who really loves each other to get tgt... and its even more difficult for them tu maintain the relationship... it requies a lot of giving in and its not easy... Look on the streets ... how many can last forever..? it's even more difficult for a couple with different religion tu be tgt .. unless there is compromise, giving in, mutual respect and all... it wuld be even more difficult for different race to be tgt i think hhas .... but well there are so many married couples of diff race .. diff religion and mani mani more... some with disabilities... but love is boundless... hahas tht's wad i think ...

like all my blogpost so long and lo soh hor .. hahas ... hmmm ... i just hope tht "he" is happy evryday .. and i hope i can be happy evryday too... hahas actually me and qq discuss bout msging also.. then for me.. i dun like tu wait too long for msg or for reply... unless tht person is just a vry normal friend tu me... but especially from "him" i always hope he replies fast... and i always had my phone with me all the time...butt saddly... he always take so long tu reply... hmmmm ... ya...somehow or so i wuld feel better when he saes he's sleeping just now tht's why he didn reply... or give me a reson for replying late... but its stil back tu tht qns... who am i to him?? .. he have no reason or need tu reply me immediately or send morning msg to me... thou a morning msg makes me feel so much more happy and i feel good for the day(thou i always hope tht i'll be the first and the last person he'll think of evry day ) ahhas wah i think must get out of dream land liaos... =.=
byes ppl! =))

it ended @ 6:45 PM

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