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Sunday, May 11, 2008
JUst finish having steamboat with my grandma, aunt and family members... hahas ... ate so mani things.. butt i was too full to continue so i stop halfway ..hahas ... tml must go for smth light .. todays dinner was just too filling... throughout todaY i waited for someone sms... waited and waited and waited ... say will sms me... butt i didn receive ani at all... such a dumbie rite? just like waiting for smth tht will nv come true or happen... stupid... = l Tht day tht somebody tht mention he wuld like tu colour my life de guy sms me again ytd... among one of his last sms he said: " so what time u sleeping princess?" my reply was :" when have i became a princess? hahs" . he said " ever since tht day i wanted tu colour yr life.." ... how i wish tht sentence was said by "him" and not this guy... i said tu tht guy..: " you want tu colour my life as a friend rite?" he said: " maybe more than just friends.."How i wish all these were said by "him"... all the loving and caring words... my msn nick ytd nite was ' i think u got the wrong idea ' and "he" ask me why my msn nick liddat... so i told him abt it.. and he tease me for it... then i said..me: ok lorr .. continue teasing...he:okay lah...i am sorry my princess...he: LOLhe:dun be sadd please...(:me: hahshow i wish i have the courage tu ask him .. : do you really mean what u say? but i didn.... now today..it's like i am waiting for the whole day ... =( maybe it's really one-sided... really .." being in love is better than falling in love.." how much you give doesn't mean you will get the same amount back... tht's love... someone on my tagg box ..lu ren jia.. said i'm the fish tht got caught on the hook...yea i am ... but how tu get freed? i dunno how tu free myself from this... or have i choosen tu get caught myself? or did i just dunn wan tu be freed?someone once asked me... can you choose who you want tu love??? my ans was: i dunno... maybe yes maybe no... ? you can choose tu love someone ..... develope feelings over the time.... tht's how most couple last and tht's how most friends of mine got tgt... but ... love is a special feeling for only tht someone onli ... isn't it??? you also have no idea why you fall for tht person .... some couples get tgt for each other's looks , some for figure .. butt i think if u love tht special someone ...he/she is always the bez in yr heart isn't it? tht's why there's a saying: love is blind.... coz u dun need tu hav a reason to love tht special someone... tht's my opinion la... i am not well experienced in love ... i 'd never tried really being in love...to love and at the same time being love... i regret my folly in the past tht results in hurting someone so much more than than i've hurt myself. Thus this time round i dun wan history to repeat itself in tht way ... butt little have i expected history to repeat itself in another way...( the way tht i have hurt myself by liking someone) this time round .. i feel the hurt much more earlier and the impact was so much harder... moreover he's a shy one... my friend say he's just playing : "trying hard to get" . i dunno... i dun want tu say bad things abt him... just like i wun say bad things abt my true friends... to like or love someone...u've tu accept he/she the way they are...love is so vexing huh..... got to consider so many factors.. why cant love be simple? or am i just making things complicated???
it ended @ 9:15 PM
I will be waiting
