Thursday, May 29, 2008
STUDY!!! heh .. a bit of self motivation .. hahs... today went back to sch and studied at our space... haix... when i took out the POA past yr exam paper tht i printed- source frm np lib i look at the qns and i feel like sleeping... this week supposedly to be e-learning week and can sleep til late late... BUT!!! i woke up at 7 or 8 am evryday !!! hahs coz meeting QQ to 'study'.... we meet at AYE busstop then took 97 to jurong east lib... i cant study in morning de.... i study better at night... i yawn in the morning most of the time instead of studying... hahas ... so we just talk and chat bout evrything... she asked me some things today and told me somethings.... ya ... hahs then she wuld leave at 1pm to meet kenny... then i go meet someone else to study... hahs .. i requested to meet at 1030 instead ltr... hahs so i get tu sleep more... =P heh... today i see the POA test paper... i think very difficult... i need to refer back to notes...=(oh no.... i think i need to get more practice frm the past yr exam paper liaos... i slow learner some more... takes more time to pick things up than others... heh its not pestimistic ..its just tht i know my flaws and i'm going to work on it!!! heh... jia you to myself!!!=)QQ say i shuld give chance to those ard me and open up to love instead of confining myself to just someone... she say frm wad she see... he is just toying with me...( i said things to 'protect' him.. but i cant outtalk her in this case..coz ya i also dunno wad she say is true not... and cant help but to be affected but what she mentioned earlier) there's no definite ans given nor action to proof or state anything... "so u shuld just let go and try out with others..."i dunno... when i heard wad she say... my qns to myself was ... can love be tried out? QQ: if u dun give others a chance how u know u and the guy wun be happi?if really not happi then can break... its not as if u are getting married now... and what if u and the guy u gave chance to is happi aft u both tgt? u nv know until u try...ME: (wanted to argue back... but was lost at words...)QQ: u will be happier with someone who loves u more than u love ... for a gal its hurtful and painful if u really love the guy and even if the guy love u back ... it wun be as deep as yr love for him...ME: but ever since *** i told myself i have to go for someone i truly like and thus i didn go into a relationship for so long...QQ: if u dun wan to let go... u'll always be stuck at this spot... ME: hahs ... no need let go nor wad... i now dun think of anything liaos.. i wait till CTs over.QQ: can u do it? ask yrself ... can u ?ME: eh... i think i cann.. hahs ... hopefully...QQ: liying... i can see tht ___ is a vry good boii friend material... give yrself a chance and others... ( up to here i almost shut down frm listening liaos...heh..)ME: ai yah .. dunno lar... smtimes not say wan competely let go can so easy de... hahs ..but at least i'm not feeling as worse as when i first started iking him... can at least balance my feelings now heh.i was thinking..." can one be judge to be worthy of another's love ???" hahs anw ... she's the experienced one.. she pro man.... maintained her r/s with kenny for 2 yrs plus and stil get such good results... wah ... pei fu man! hahs ... all e bez to them anw... ( okays editted... if not QQ wan sue me for defamation lerr ahhs )It's getting late... hahs. my schedule for CT:SAT: POA 1100-1230MON: MAEC 0830-1000THURS: BLAW 0830-1000FRI: BSTA 0830-1000
it ended @ 12:46 AM
I will be waiting