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Wednesday, January 14, 2009

To me... You. A vague person. vague about your motives. Vague promises. I never had the courage to ask... be the past or now. You left cruelly, dissappeared from my life and left me bleeding. Now you're back. Stil the same. I nv seems to know the real you. was it me trying so hard to please you that i made it so bad for myself?
Can i've an answer? many a times i thought what wuld the future hold for me... Maybe this maybe that...

Couldn find a real pal ever since sec sch... in sec sch i have yi xin, hanisah, yun fang to let me jab and jab on and on on my nonsense. Now... so diff yea? Staying so far... everyone is busy with their things... QQ with kenny... guan yu always spending weekends with family... Shun hiang ... stay really far frm me... sometimes even wan to ask her out for dinner or a chat also difficult...

All i wan is just to be comfortable around with the ppl i like. To be myself. Dunnid to specially please them. I am me. MYSELF. I wan to be the way i'm. conversing in my half chinese, english with occasional dialects. hahs . No more of putting up the fake front. I hate it.

Anyway... i'm stil thinking... back to the foolish me... haven i got over u! I did! i no longer think about u.! but why . why why...had i wanted to plan and make the most of it for u when u ask me to meet ...

Isn't it all gals wish to be and feel pampered. to be protected. To feel needed. To feel that someone is proud of her. To knows that she is his everything. To be the first in his heart. To be loved, and to be treated differently by him from other normal gals. and to be the apple of his eyes. Now and forever... ???

Well maybe not all gals... but at least it's my wish... Wishes do come true dun they? if u wait long enuf... they will.... will they???


But... i was told.... HAppy endings only happen in fairy tales.....

it ended @ 4:26 PM

I will be waiting