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Thursday, July 16, 2009


Feeling totally down.

Went out with Qing Qing to study at JE today coz got no sch.
Was trying to escape from home these few days... going out early and coming home late.
Been having quarrels frequently with family members.
Loads of things. As i tell Qing abt what happen tears started to fil my eyes...
I held them back and we took bus from IMM back to WCP

We walked ard WCP and talked. I saw him.
BUT that was not the main point.
AT abt 4.. daddy called me...

He said mummy's hand was swollen and he took her to hospital and she's stil in A&E now,
Mummy had been complaining that she was experiencing pain in her hand ytd.

When i knew that she was in hospital my heart BROKE.
Now i understand what it feels like when smth had happen to someone you love and so coincidently you'd done smth wrong and not yet gotten the chance to apologise.
I wanted to tell her I'm sorry for what happen the past few days.
I wanted to let her know i understand their way of loving me and protecting me...
no hair colouring, nail painting and all... have a nice temper, be accomodating towards brothers and so much more....
I want to let her know i will try..

TO make her take back what she said ytd... to let her know I REALLY LOVE THIS FAMILY.

Mummy, you'll be ok. I'll pray hard that the cause of your swollen hands is because you strained your muscle and not other causes.



That aside, exams are approaching real soon and i stil haven finish writing my notes.
FIT project is due very very soon and we're lacking behind time.
Everything that's happening,
It's really tiring and draining of energy, physically and mentally.

BUT,
I'll be strong, instead of depending ppl, I'll be the one that others can depend on.
Instead of relying on others for comfort and encouragement, I'll be the one that gives.
I believe i can tie over this period.

it ended @ 8:57 PM

I will be waiting