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Wednesday, January 20, 2010

It's amazing what you can accomplish if you do not care who gets the credit.
- Harry S. Truman 33rd US president

My table topic yesterday. It seems like god is trying to tell me smth, wants me to understand certain things.

But it's too hard. I'm really tired. REALLY i mean it.
Independent. A stand-alone figure.
Really feel like collasping.
Don't feel like putting on that mask.
Don't feel like acting strong in front of others, to act like i can.
Don't feel like acting happy and all smiley when its so depressing, infuriating and tiring inside.
Don't feel like lying to say I can do it.
Don't feel like being nice.
But i just can't do it all.


Sometimes it's not a matter of who gets the credit... its just simply no effort was given.
Just waiting for others to do everything

received a call from Ms. Michelle Lim.
Meeting on FRIDAY. JUST GREAT huh.
I don't feel like going thru all the troubles. ALL THE EXTRA TROUBLES that others don't get.
Why?
It seems like life is always full of obstacles and just too many as compared to others and especially in meeting all kinds of werid ppl.
Maybe I just don't have the fate to meet nice people.

Don't want to be pessimistic but i just cant help feeling that way.
It's all bloated and contained in me.
Nowhere to vent it out. Too much to say.

At times it doesnt matter how much you do, if you know others care.
A word of thanks for recognition.
A word of concern to see how is the work coming along.
Coz when you know at least someone cares and knows that you really put in that effort... then no matter how much you have done... how late you stayed up till... how long you spent on it... itwould not matter any more because you're recognized.

and now i wonder.. how did i even end up here.
here at where I am now. in this situation.

it ended @ 9:15 PM

I will be waiting